Relieved from the school council
The story
Before the school year ended, I tried to run for a leadership position in our school, specifically the head role of our organization. I attained it by winning the elections, and I was the only one who ran for it. And obviously, I was the one who was going to win because of it. Afterwards, I represented my org for 4 months and didn't plan to resign because I actually found my passion in this position. I planned projects, organized the turnover files, and assisted my organization in its events. I also was able to appoint my secretary, which took me a while for some reason. Everything was going fine and smooth not until I did something that violated one of the school rules. It was before entrance exams, I was struggling to get resources for my review and due to pressure I did something out of desperation. I snuck a book from the library inside my bag and tried to keep it at home. I was caught by the alarms just as when I was about to go out. I returned it as soon as possible and was anxious on what happened. Due to this, I was obliged to undergo a disciplinary intervention for three days. Just as when I thought everything is going to be fine after I finished this, the council moderators was also informed about the incident. And because of the council rules, anyone who committed something like this should be relieved from the leadership position. I was so disappointed and hated myself for few weeks. Then, the council moderator decided to have a meeting with me and my fellow officers about the position being vacant. I just said to them that I resigned, no other explanation. But deep inside, I let them down. I know I could have done better. I know I could have avoided that situation. Fortunately enough, they still value me, but not all of them. Some of them lost respect for me because I am not the head anymore, and it was all so sudden. I am also having a hard time detaching myself because I also want to contribute and compensate after I stepped down. It all goes back and forth. I really shouldn't have ran for the position in the first place. I hear voices like these. I didn't even deserve my position and that I was only there for a show. I didn't even achieve the projects I have in mind. How can I even move forward? Yes, I want to volunteer and help my core officers but everytime I do so, I hear voices that why am I still here? It's my last semester in this school and it's hard to feel this way everyday, especially since I lost my confidence at the same time I lost my position.
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Wow, tough break there, buddy. I gotta say, it sounds like you're beating yourself up a bit too much. Sure, you might think it was a misstep running for that position, but seriously—you won, didn't you? Everybody loves to throw ancient wisdom around like “to err is human”, but c'mon, the world ain't gonna end.
I remember when I nicked a candy bar as a kid. The cashier caught me red-handed, and yeah, it felt like the end of the world. But hey, guess what? Life goes on. Folks forever talk about redemption stories from literature, like Dickens's Great Expectations, where characters mess up big time but climb back up. So maybe dial down the self-doubt a notch or two. Ain't nobody perfect, and those voices in your head? They're just noise. Cut the chatter, think future, move forward—that's all that matters.
Your last semester is on, man. Tap into all the feels, keep it chill, and contribute if you want—or not. Simple as that. 😉
Totally get where you're coming from, and I've been in similar situations. It's not easy balancing leadership roles and personal pressures, especially when things go awry. I once had a leadership spot and messed up on a crucial project, so I understand the weight of letting people down. It’s tough, and yep, those voices questioning your worth can be relentless. Your decision to resign seems understandable given the circumstances. Yet, it's hard not to wonder if stepping back was necessary. We all make errors, especially under stress, and it doesn't define your capabilities or passion. I’d say, focus on learning from this, and remember, everyone hits bumps in the road. You clearly had the drive and skills to get elected in the first place, which means something. Keep your head up and consider this part of the journey to growth.
sounds like you really enjoyed bringing your A-game to the position and doing your best but, hey... mistakes happen and pressure can drive us to make questionable calls! 😅