Love Stories

I FUCKING HATE MENNNN ISTG. Story time you guysss!!

So I had this talking stage. We were doing so good at first but ig his ass decided that he was js fucking infatuated. Yeah, that’s fine, I’m cool w it, BUT THEN, HE’S STILL FUCKING KEEPING ME AROUND ALL WHILE FLAMING ME IN HIS GODDAMN REPOSTTTTT. ISTG WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG W Y’ALL, LIKE IF YOU’RE NOT INTERESTED NO MORE JUST FUCKING TELL US, WHAT THE FUCK?!?!!!! IS IT THAT HARD? LITERALLY JUST TYPE OUT “hey, just to let you know I’m no longer interested in continuing whatever this is between us. I’m sorry” LIKE HELLO, DOES THAT HURT YOUR FUCKING EGO TOO MUCH OR WHAT?? AND YOU EXPECT ME TO NOT GET MAD WHEN YOU’RE LITERALLY SILENT QUITTING AND I’M FUCKING LEFT HERE TRYNA FIGURE OUT IF WE’RE FINE OR WHATTTTTT. So, to all men out there who’s talking to a woman and you are no longer interested, just tell them and do not lead them on. You’re holding them back from progressing btw. If you’re here reading this, fuck you for doing me wrong btw.

i’m 27 and i’m a man and i swear sometimes it feels like i was born with some invisible warning sign on my face saying do not love this guy?? like what the hell am i doing so wrong?? during all my studies i had no girlfriend, not one, not even some dumb little almost thing that people talk about like “yeah we kinda dated for 2 months” no, nothing, zero, empty, just me watching everyone else get texts, hugs, kisses, drama, breakups, all that normal human shit while i was just there pretending i didn’t care. i did care. i cared so much it made me feel pathetic. now i’ve been working for 5 years in a big nice company, good job, clean office, tons of people, and yeah there are a lot of single girls around my age and still somehow i’m invisible. i talk, i joke, i try not to be weird, i dress decent, i smell good, i’m not some cave troll, but it’s like they can feel something off and they just keep me in that safe boring box. “he’s nice” yeah thanks, nice means nothing. nice means you are a chair. nice means they will ask you for help with something then go flirt with some random loud asshole two desks away. and i’m not saying girls owe me anything, before someone starts that bullshit, i know they don’t. i just don’t understand how a guy can try for so many years and get absolutely nothing back?? not one girl looking at me like i matter?? not one girl choosing me?? am i really that hard to want??

i go out with my friends too, it’s not like i sit home crying every weekend, even tho honestly sometimes i want to. we go to bars, birthdays, after work stuff, stupid crowded places where you have to yell just to say hi, and my friends always tell me “just be confident bro” like wow thanks genius, never thought of that!!! then i watch them talk to girls for five minutes and suddenly they’re laughing and touching arms and exchanging numbers, meanwhile i’m standing there with my drink feeling like some background npc in my own damn life. one time a girl talked to me for like twenty minutes and i thought maybe finally, maybe i’m not cursed, then she asked if my friend was single. i laughed like it was fine but inside i wanted to disappear into the floor. another time a coworker told me i’m “such a good guy” and then started dating a guy from another department who treats her like garbage, and i know this sounds bitter because yeah, i am bitter. i’m tired of pretending i’m above it. i’m lonely as hell. i want someone to text me good morning, someone to miss me, someone to pick me first for once. is that so fucking crazy?? people act like wanting love is desperate, but everyone wants it, they just don’t look desperate because they already got some. i don’t want pity love. i don’t want someone to force herself. i just want to know why nobody ever naturally wants me. maybe i’m ugly in a way mirrors don’t show. maybe i’m boring. maybe my vibe is broken. maybe i’m too needy even when i say nothing. i don’t know anymore. i just know i’m 27 and every year this feels heavier, like i missed some train everyone else got on at 16 and now i’m just running behind it like an idiot 😒 so yeah, am i unlovable?? or am i just unlucky?? because after studies, after 5 years of working, after going out, after trying to be better, after watching everyone else get chosen over and over, it really starts to feel personal!!!!

I hate myself so fucking much. And no I'm not just saying this bullshit to be emo I'm saying it in a way where everytime I look in the mirror I'm genuinley disgusted at what I see.

I hate my body, the way I've got a rectangle body shape. I know it's not a desired one and many people want a girl with a waist. I hate the way my chest looks ugly and small, I hate the way my shoulders are wide, I hate my hip dips and my lack of ass. I hate the way I look without makeup. I hate the way I talk, I hate the way I smile. I hate the way my teeth are crooked and one of them had a gap in it. I hate that I'm scared of intimacy because I'm scared if my partner ever sees my body that they'll be as disgusted as I am when I see myself in the mirror. I draw a blade across my skin with every thought of disgust I get. I hate the way I'm scared of somebody ever seeing me naked. So much that it keeps me up at night. I stare at other girls bodies and silently curse myself because why couldn't I be like them? Why couldn't I be pretty, why couldn't I be curvy. Why couldn't I be happy with who I am and what I look like. I know why, I know it's because I'm insecure and scared. Sometimes I think to myself that I would be better if I was a man, maybe then my features would fit my gender. Nobody wants to date a feminine girl that doesn't have the figure to be feminine. I hate that I can't cry so instead I resort to addictions. Alcohol abuse, vaping, self harm. Suicide attempts. No matter what I do I still can't be pretty. I try so fucking hard, to be pretty, I wear makeup, I suck in my stomach, I press in my ribs hoping they'll break so I can get a better figure because nobody desires mine. They see my face and make up stories in their mind of a petit, small waisted, curvy girl. But no. I'm not. And for that reason I hate myself.

Little pick up after last vent or what not i wanted to vent to a friend and then well because she said if i was feeling like shit to talk to her or her/ our mutual friend and then when i ask doesn’t respond but responds to other i just feel useless i thought we were friends and then i i just get betrayed and you know whats worse i knew this was gonna happen at some point to like it always does theres only so much pattern recognition i can do and to be always right is fucking irritating like why cant i be wrong why do i have to be right every time meet someone new connect and then they leave like bruh at this its just a seehow many times i can be right game whats the point of friends whats the point of relationships if at the end of the day when they need help i help but when i need it i never get right fuck my life theres a reason why i just do it solo and bottle up my emotions man i wish i just never had them whats the point of it if i never had emotions then i can truly just be fine with being alone and not here voices and have shitty self esteem issue god i hate people

So the thing is I'm in first year in my engineering college and 2nd sem. So I kinda used to run into this guy like rarely while commuting to college in public bus and like barely see him at college and I like him. And then at like my 3rd last exam went to him and asked his name, his department and told him my name. If I remember I used to have eye contacts with him like from my pov and then I get like 3 day gap for each exam and on the last day of exam which was like almost 6-7 days after I asked him his name he sent me req in insta and I accept his req. And then he texted me first too and asked why I asked him his name. I told him I wanted to get to know him seriously and we kinda ended up talking and realized we both kinda have same interest and hobbies. So I ended up asking if we could meet up and we met 2 times during the break and so he walked me home during these 2 meetups and when I told him about my case he told me he doesnt remember me at bus but rather used to see me sometimes during canteen from faraway and like most times my back. And it's been like 17 days or smth and now he doesnt text me first and college started from this week's monday and I asked him about text he says I find it boring to text and like I dont know what to say so I dont text. And when I asked him about how he should also ask me to meet up instead of me only he said you should plan the meetups. But then again when I'm with him he mirrors my way of talking like yesterday when I went like mhmm he goes like mhmmm and I went mhmm mhmm and then he also went like mhmmm mhmmm and then another time when I went like ahaa he goes like ahaaa too. And then he walked me home too yesterday? Like he goes like probably I need to go with you too. And then he told me how he used his money which was given to him to buy jacket to eat with me when we met up 2 times in the holiday and during the meet up at holiday he even held my bag like the stuff till I got home and we even shared the same umbrella and yesterday he got on bus and like asked if I wanted the window seat before sitting down by extending his hands and then he also kinda avoids eye contact with me but like we shared the same food, like I mean he ate from the same spoon as me and so I met him today at bus while traveling to college and he sat beside me and then again he avoided eye contact like talked straightly without turning to my side and so I don't know anymore. I'm just overthinking and overthinking. He also mentioned how he downloaded insta and tiktok to follow me and said like how he first just wanted to ask me why I asked his name and then somehow it's like this. What should I do????? This shit so confusing me.

Why is it that everyone around me has so many ‘talking stages’ or crushes or are even dating someone and why is it that I’m still single? I’ve tried everything at this point and I don’t know what to do.. I’ve been on dating apps, have gone on dates and been ghosted afterwards… always tried to change to get others to look at me or even like me but nobody ever cares. When I look in the mirror, I’m not upset about my appearance.. I think I look pretty attractive but I might just be too confident. I might be too ugly for the people I’m interested in. .

I feel like a huge part of why I don’t have anyone yet is my interests and the way I look. I try to be honest and upfront on dates. I dress how I want, talk about what I want and I usually take the lead in conversations and decide what to do but I’m not white. I’m not normal. I don’t dress like everyone else. I’m not even truly straight. And maybe that’s why I’m so unloveable. Sure, I’m a man and I’m still pretty young and I have plenty of time, I know that!! But I’m missing out.

I’ve never experienced teenage love and I’ve never even had a real crush before. It’s like I force myself to like someone sometimes because they sort of like me.. but I can’t really see myself in a relationship with them, even if I crave it so much.. I just crave to be intimate with someone.. ANYONE at this point.

But honestly, I’ve given up. I pretend I don’t care when I actually really do but I just know that these type of things aren’t for me and will never ever happen to me simply because I don’t fit into the standard

i found out two weeks ago that my husband’s cancer is not just bad, it is the kind of bad where doctors lower their voices before they say anything. we have been married three years, which sounds like a tiny number when someone starts talking about “weeks” like they are coins in a jar. he has a dangerous cancer, almost at the final phase, and everyone is being careful with their words, which somehow makes it worse. nobody says “he is leaving soon” out loud, but it sits in the room anyway. i recieve updates, nod, ask practical stuff, then cry in the parking lot until my face feels like it belongs to somebody else. i keep wondering why crying gives you a headache, because mine is constant now. it feels like my skull is packed too tight, like my brain is pushing on the walls and my head will explode.

he is still himself in little ways, which is sweet and awful at the same time. he complains about hospital food, tells me my driving is still scary, and asks me to stop hovering like a weird little security guard. i laugh when he says it, but then i go to the bathroom and cry again, because laughing feels almost rude when the ending is standing right there. we are spending these last weeks together while we can, doing basic things, not dramatic movie stuff. we sit on the couch, watch dumb shows, argue about what to eat, and sometimes just hold hands without talking. i am definately grateful for that, even if it hurts. there is no villain here, not really. the doctors are doing what they can, his body is just tired, and i am trying to not make every second about my panic. still, i cry alot, and every cry leaves pressure behind my eyes like a bill i have to pay.

the headache is starting to feel like a second person in the marriage, just sitting between us. i drink water, take medicine when i can, put cold towels on my forehead, and tell myself this is normal. maybe it is. maybe crying this much just dries you out, tightens your face, messes with your sleep, and turns grief into pain you can point at. does this happen to your too, where the sadness stops being just emotional and becomes this heavy physical thing? i don’t want pity exactly. i know people go through worse, and i know my husband is the one actually sick, not me. but being the person watching is its own kind of damage. i love him, i am scared, i am tired, and i keep wiping my face so he does not have to spend his last weeks watching me fall apart;

With my mom I don't feel seen, I don't feel heard, I just want it to end. I can't stand this pain, no one gets it, I'm so ready to end it, she doesn't care, I know she doesn't. I want to cry but that doesn't help, I want to scream but I can't, I need a rage room but that didn't help, I want the pain to go away, I want it to stop, to leave me alone, but deep down, I know it won't, It'll keep coming back, it won't stop, it keeps coming and coming and I'm so tired. Nobody is really there for me, because people have their own lives. I just want someone that I can cry into, that will hold me, and I don't have that. And that's my problem. I need that, but inside I know I won't get it. And it sucks, It sucks not feeling safe enough to show feelings without getting yelled at. I'm so tired. I just want it to end. I want it to be over. I want someone to love me. I want to be someone's first priority. not second, not third, first. And I cry myself to sleep, knowing that'll never happen. I'm empty

Tayout htal br twe sin sr pee bar twe shout loke nay lal tot ma thi bu

D mr Takhin ka nay ma kg twe kana kana ayn fyit x ma ya sr ma win nk tayout tl eye twe nervous system twe ll ma kg gaun twe kite fit nay dr. Bkk mr tal ka nay ma kg bu. amhan tot tagl kway thr takhin ko ae tl ka chit tl so amyal pyat tanar shr pee Nay ma kg tae lu ko balo gru site pay ya ma ll ma sin sr bal pyat tanr pal shr pee myo sone yan loke ma nay bu.

Aku ll bal aelo bal ko br ko nay kg ag loke nay dae Takhin ko ma kg htin pee

Br ma ll kway takhin yae amaint lite nr or u pyw tlo fish fyit ma nay bu.

Fyit nay yin Takhin ko block pee pyat tanr ma shr bu

Nay nal nal kg lo pyn lr pee phone use nine tae akhr kya

Gru sike pee pyu su pay mr kway lain mr thr so

Aku tot koh br ko ma kg tae sate nak ma kg myin pyit mhr

Zoom lr kae pr pyw dr ll ma lr nk

Ayn mite yine nay dr

P tot me ka pal manipulate ya dl fyit thy

Kway bal takhim ko anine u anine kyint pee page nk kine pee blackmail loke lite

Block lite nk

Br punishment khn fo ma pyw nk

Order twe rule twe lite nr dal so tr d 3 years atwin lat choe yii lo ya dl obey 100% day so tr 10 days ma shi bu

Ae dr ko apo saga twe nk lrr pee manipulate lr loke nay dr Kway bat ka

D mr koh br ko tg anine nine fit nay dr not ok

ae dr ko atin lite force pee gru ma sike bu br fyit dl nae sutt swal LOL

Ae sa tl ka amhn tine pyw pee thr

I am sick since back then ma lo koh health ko gru site ya ml

bay mr nay chin yin kway lain mr loke so u said u will care for me and my health first

gru ma sike ll ya dl

kway serve ya yin tw p so pee nay kae dr

pee tot if you were honests with your words and fllowed with true obedieence aku nay kg nay tr kyr hla b

Aku tot tamin nay ma kg ag sate sin yell ag lite loke htr pee

Amyal pyt tnar shr anine u nay dr lite pee

Akyint ma kg tae kg ma g fit nay dr Kway ko tine

Not me

Me just wanna be recover my own health

Thats all bal

But kway try to learn my weakness and try to use them to force me to get what you want

Your mind htl bar shi ll ma thi yin kat mal

Btw this letter doesnt mean I want someone like you back NO I dont want you at all

Not the one who doesnt care about me, what's wrong with me or how to make me happy

For you, my reply or controlling me is more important than trying to make me happy or care about my health since day one in Bangkok

You tried to gaslight me and suggest me to be afraid of you, did you think I never knew that?

As my own slave who said she will be slave, you were the manipulative one in every scenario

I was very honest with my intentions from the beginning, I never manipulated you, it was you who said one thing (to be slave), and do other things (disobey and make me hurt and blackmail me with my business page works).

These days also, you blocked me and I never did anything to you excpet telling you to unblock me LOL. And you told me I was manipulating you. really? Bitch are you out of your mind and stupid? No you are not. You are just gaslighting me and trying to create a nonexistent reality where I did things to you(which I never did) and you never truly obeyed me in any day. For FUCK SAKE ! so fuck you and your stupid deluisions. You can fuck off yourself. Actually started writing this letter with the inetntions to explain you something but nah when writing this I eventually realized I did nothing wrogn lol. There is not even a single thing to explain except I was fucking sick and there's no fucking wrong for being sick and not okay so what? I never did anything to anyone from the first place. It was you who didnt care and blocked me intentionally. And didnt accept when I told you to umblock me. I never did anything or say anything to you during these days even. HAHA. What a braindead idiot you are. Living in your imaginary reality must be widly stupid for you. Bye or whatever. idk anymore. Do whatever you want I am done with you. I dont need dishonest manipulative people like you in my life. Never again.

That was your last chance. I will never be sad or hurt for someone like you who dont care or understand me despite how many years I waited and given you countless chances for you to do so. You are uselss and pathetically stupid and out of your hand with your cunning stupidity. I do not love you or hate you but I was bewildered by your stupidity for a second when I realized I never did anything to you from the first place except getting blocked by someone stupid like you for no reason. FUCK OFF

So I’ve been catching this boy staring at me for like one year and half now , last year we noticed each other , I asked about him some of my friends and he was new at school , they talked good about him he didn’t seem the type of boy who was in any relationship before , I thought that he maybe he will do any move but he didn’t , summer break came then the new school year which is this year , he strarted staring again but his moves were a bit more this year , we don’t have friends in common to start talking , and he was an introvert a bit , he tried actually to talk when some friends were arround but it was a small try and it never worked , he hasn’t really find any way to talk idk is it bc he’s shy or he didn’t want or he has never felt that , we are till now in the same situation, I got to talk to one of his friends and once I saw him with his friend staring at me and I understood that maybe his friend knows that he likes me , so I decided to tell to him friend that I into him and at first I was like guess who , and he guessed him from the second try and he was surprised that I told him I like him too ( he doesn’t that that I know the boy told him

About me ) and he didn’t tell me that he likes you and I think that’s normal since it’s his friend maybe he told me to keep it private , the strange thing is that he hasn’t told me anything about him like any information or something till now we galk everyday he has never mentioned him

Idk why , and yeah idk what’s on this boy’s mind does he wait for the right moment or especially the end of the year after exams since graduation is close , idk but one year and half is too much also he hasn’t send any follow request and I’m sure he knows my account and it’s easy to find it , he seems like he has never had any relationship I’m not sure but it’s obvious and everybody said it , also he is a nerd

There this guy in my school he's really handsome and really nice to people and I kinda have a crush on him. The thing is I'm really confused because we have a class group chat and there no adult on it just our class and there this on time were he and his friend kind of bullied a girl from my class (it wasn't really bullying because it was just one time thing) and i didn't really like her too but it marked me. I just so confused because he is normally very nice with people so now I don't know what to think and I really have a big crush on him. But it doesn't matter anyway he's a pretty popular boy that went out with so many girls and I have never and I'm not really that kind of girl that he like or notices I think.

I like this guy, and he made me feel 100x better after my ex stood me up at prom, he's funny sweet and kind, I want to ask him out but idk if I should because what if he doesn't like me like that?

So, I've been doing a lot of introspection lately and have come to question what my current relationship situation is all about. I mean, am I really in a polyamorous relationship, or is it just some sort of undefined connection, morphing into something I can't quite put my finger on?! There’s this sense of freedom I had anticipated when I first thought about it, dealing with multiple partners who all know about each other, yet I often find myself puzzled about how to manage everything without letting my emotions get the best of me. Ironically, the relationship dynamics are supposed to offer choices without the need for secretive affairs or guilt-coated whispers typical in monogamy, right?! Yet here I am, floundering a bit in understanding whether everyone involved shares the same understanding of what it means to navigate such a bond. It sometimes becomes a question of emotional regulation... how do I balance attention and affection for multiple partners harmoniously while setting boundaries and ensuring everyone feels secure and acknowledged?

And honestly, adding the layer of being pansexual makes things no less intricate!!! Does that mean having a wider array of attractions complicates things or makes them more enlightening? In trying to embrace the freedom to love beyond traditional societal constraints, I still find myself questioning if I'm capable of managing the emotional complexity that comes with these labels. I’ve always prided myself on being open-minded when it comes to love!... allowing feelings to develop naturally. However, I can’t help but feel a bit like a juggler who's unsure how many pins they can keep in the air before chaos ensues!!! Has anyone else experienced this duality of yearning for a connection that accepts love in its diverse forms, yet grappling with the reality of how to sustainably nurture each one without falling into a tangled web of miscommunication or unintentional negligence? Maybe it is about transparent communication, trust, and mutual respect, but what if all parties speak different love languages?! Regardless, I’m on a quest to figure this puzzle out... one interaction, one emotion, one day at a time.

just been wondering, why do i feel like my boyfriend doesn't love me???? i mean, he used to be so into everything we did together, y'know? now, it's like, all he does is zone out or scroll through his phone whenever we hang. 🤔 i might be overthinking, but this sudden distance is really messing with my head. was it something i said or did?? or is he just into someone else????

sometimes i think back to when we first started dating. those were the days!!! we'd talk for hours!!! laugh at the dumbest things!!! and just vibe like crazy!!!!! but now it seems like there's this invisible wall between us, and it's thick as hell. 🤷‍♀️ he used to be so attentive, but these days, trying to get him to open up is like pulling teeth. do guys just naturally go through this weird phase, or is it more serious than that????

and what's with the mixed signals??? one minute he's showering me with affection, and the next he's a ghost. makes me wonder if he's really that into me, or if he's just playing games to keep things interesting. 😒 can't help but think that maybe i'm just not enough for him. am i just being paranoid or does anyone else feel the vibe shift as intense as i do???? can't be the only one, right??

anyway, i've tried talking to him about it, but it always ends the same way. he brushes it off like i'm just seeing things, or worse, he gets defensive. is it wrong to want some reassurance every now and then???? it's not like i'm asking for the world, just a little bit of effort, you know?? feels like i'm the only one trying to make this work, and that's just, ugh, frustrating. 😤 i'm really at a loss here, like, what should i even do next????

who knows, maybe i'm overanalyzing the whole thing. maybe this is just a phase or something. but if he's really not feeling it anymore, then what's the point???? just want things back to how they were before all this crap started!!!! things should be simple, like, why complicate them?? bottom line is, if it doesn't improve, we might just be over. and that's just brutal to think about. so, what do you reckon??? am i being dramatic???? or is it time to face the music and move on???? 😕

I feel ive searching for so long but I can’t find stuff that related to what I’m doing. So I want to create a series, specifically one that each episode will be about 5-7mins long. So how that change stuff? What should I learn? Btw I mean a serialised one, I already have some plots and characters moments in my head. But I can’t find anythingggg. Someone please help.

Also some specific questions-

Is it a bad when stuff happen to a characters than characters making stuff happen? Like does it demnish the plot?

How does a comic series (issues) differ from a tv series (episodes)?