Life Stories and Everyday Drama

Thank you so much for having the patience to read this, I would really like to hear your opinion on this situation. I have OCD (not sure if this is important, but just to give you some context) it ruined my high-school life. Somehow I was able to graduate high school and got into a college. I suppose it was a month or two after joining the college I got into this stupid misunderstanding with someone and shrieked infront of my classmates and threw my glasses like it was BAD, I know it was a stupid thing for me to do but this started reminding me of high school again and I couldn't handle my emotions. After that, no one really sat next to me, they would put their bags on my bench and would sit behind or infront of me with their friends. I tried talking to them, they were polite enough to say something but it always ended up me being ignored. My OCD anxieties were terrible and during lab sessions experiments was unable to perform or even hold the apparatus on my own, so when our professors would assign us partners, when it came to me everything was quiet. And when someone is assigned to be my partner they made faces of disappointment and their friends mocking them and wishing them good luck. I would do my very best to give assistance for the experiments only to get told that they'll handle everything and I just need to copy theirs. I hated this so much. I tried explaining this to my professors and it was obvious that they didn't want to do anything with it as their lives were not going great in the college. I was told that I didn't make an effort to speak to my classmates, and I thought that was true but every time I would initiate conversations with them I found out that our interests were too different to which I admit yes not all of us have to like the same thing, but I would ask them about the stuff they like and they would talk something and then go back to their friend group. I tried going home together with them, before catching the public transportation we have to take a 3-5 minute ride after that we would get into the public transportation and it always ended up me sitting alone while they would sit together and chat. (I think I might be seeing too much into this but I am so sorry for being such an idiot here.) Group projects always ended up with them doing the work and me doing nothing because there was no work. I tried not focusing on this and did my own thing to keep me engaged. Then I heard that there were rumours spread about me in the college and I think my classmates have painted me as a scary person or someone not mess with. We had a food carnival, I was in my stall giving juice for free while next to me was lemonade stand that was charging money. So when the other students came to check out, no one wanted to do anything with my stall and were buying lemonade from my neighbors. At some point these random girls come to my stall atnd start joking about the juice I was giving away ( IT was a mangosteen drink), suddenly one of my classmates tried warning the girls that who I was...that day was also a shitty day because the people who actually drank the juice from my stall did so out of pity it was very obvious. While I am grateful for those who actually bothered, I couldn't help but feel really hurt about this. I am sorry for this stupid rant, God. Obviously my studies and grades were messed up because I cared too much, but I was told that I didn't seem to care. I obviously tried telling this to my family, they told me that I was just taking things too seriously and that I wasn't really putting any effort to socialise. I told this situation to my therapist who said that I had to sue my college or something (dude, what??). I tried begging my parents to allow me a break but I guess it won't really do anything.....As the second semester has ended I am thinking if I want to continue this college or just suck it up and I'm being a whimp. I am really sorry. Thank you so much for reading this, I would be very grateful to hear your opinion, thank you.

hi everyone i'm kinda feeling anxious these days and would love to share my thoughts hoping for some insights. i've been working at my current job for quite a while now and things were going smoothly until recently the company's financial health has taken a hit apparently. let's just say layoffs are looming around the corner from what i've heard through the grapevine. our team had a secret meeting during lunch (you know one of those hush-hush discussions where we try to piece together whatever info we got) anyways need to vent this before I lose my mind;

you see i'm 41 and have built enough experience in my field but here's the kicker i feel like every company around is either downsizing or not looking for someone with my skill set right now which is a bummer 😅 it's not as easy as it used to be figuring out what comes next when you're faced with redundancy ya know? relocating isn't really an option since we've settled down here wifey doesn't work she's great but she decided to be a homemaker long ago plus there's that mortgage breathing down our necks every month so its kinda hard knowing this might be coming

i try talking about making adjustments planning for potential scenarios but honestly most nights i lay awake wondering how it all happened so fast within months everything shifted pjce of mind no longer exists doing good job turning into merely anxious fingers crossed things change though yet if they dont guess getting ready searching new opportunity should really start thanks for listening i'm open for advice...

So here I am at 21, feeling like I barely know who I am. It's kind of frustrating, honestly. I'm a girl trying to figure out this whole 'self discovery' thing without shelling out for a life coach because, well, I'm broke🤷‍♀️. I've read some articles saying it's important to understand yourself better, but every time I try to dive deep and ask myself questions about what truly matters to me, I just end up more confused than ever!!! Am I the only one? Or does everyone else feel as lost as I do?!!

I've tried journaling, but half the time it feels like I'm just writing nonsense: stuff that doesn't even mean anything! People always say to follow your heart; but how do you even start doing that when you don't know what your heart is telling you?! It's not like there's this magic list of questions that will suddenly reveal everything about myself😩... And while meditation seems cool in theory, sitting still with my thoughts only seems to make things worse.

I guess what really gets to me is seeing others around my age seemingly having their lives together or at least having a clear idea of where they're heading. Meanwhile, I'm stuck with all these scattered thoughts and no clue on which direction to go! It feels like everyone else got a manual on 'how to discover yourself' except me. Ughh! Can someone just hand me the secret formula already??

There's been an unexpected incident at work that's truly left me baffled. We have a new coworker who recently joined our team. I've established a strong rapport with one of my colleagues over the past five years and we often find humor in our interactions together. During a break, my colleague cracked a joke that I found particularly amusing, resulting in us both bursting into laughter. Apparently, this coincidental timing was perceived by the new coworker as being directed at him; 😕 To my surprise, he proceeded to report the situation to HR! Now I'm left with the challenge of addressing this misunderstanding without escalating matters further...

My primary intention when sharing a laugh with my friend was purely harmless and not intended to ridicule or belittle anyone in any way. It seems vital to approach this issue delicately so as to avoid any negative repercussions on my professional relationships or work environment. Misunderstandings can become common occurrences in large workplaces, but swift resolution is essential for maintaining harmony.

I'm unsure how best to convey my perspective while making sure the new coworker feels respected and valued. Communication plays such an integral role in avoiding conflicts like these... My friend's sense of humor shouldn't be misconstrued as something malicious! How can one effectively clear up such a mix-up while ensuring no lingering discomfort remains? Surely there's some diplomatic solution out there waiting to be discovered; In moments like these, diplomacy feels more like art than science.

Hi so my love life has been shit and so I've written some piece. I have no prior experience in writing or anything. I just wrote whatever I wanted to and this is what i've written

BLASPHEMY

Author’s Note: This piece is my own personal story which is inspired to me by the song I love and relate, Kalapastangan by fitterkarma

“ I’ll die with a smile

As long as you are by my side

I’ll live with regret

If I couldn’t make you smile one day yet

It is blasphemy not to love you

It is madness not to think of you

If the world were to suddenly fall apart

You’re the first one I’d look for….”

If one were to ask how I feel about you, these words would always be the first to conquer my mind.

I can feel them rushing through the blood in every part of my body, engraving my soul. All my five senses; sight, hearing, smell, taste and touch, yearns for you only, only you….

How could I ever stop loving you? It’s a sin to even think of such dreadful thoughts!!!!

I wonder how much of everything was real to you? Maybe everything was fun to you, though it was never to me and will never be. I was foolish to think I ever meant something to you. My whole world crashed as I realized I’ll never be…

They are sick of hearing about you, they tell me to forget about you. But how could I ever!? One told me to admire you but how am I supposed do that only as I have always admired you from faraway…

It aches to have the thoughts of you forever disappearing from my life. It pains to let go of you.

I wish I never realized I love you…

They tell me to not overthink and I’ll be okay but what wrong have I done? Is it a sin to love someone very deeply? They don’t believe me when I tell them I’ll keep on loving you even if you don’t exist in my chapter anymore but I know for sure you’d be the one for me as long as you exist, even if years passes by…

Even though it was for short moment, I’ll keep it close to my soul for eternity. The thought of moving on, forgetting about you and falling in love with someone new genuinely kills me deep from inside. I was over the moon when you first texted me and I could feel happiness oozing out from myself during the times we spent together.

I curse the universe for this seriously. Why does the universe have to play this game to me? Ever time I wanted to forget about you, the universe would keep reminding me about you!! If only I never realized I loved you, if only you didn’t text me and met me; would I be in this much pain….

I don’t want these emotions to be fleeting, I don’t want to forget about my love for you. So, I can be reminded of this everytime if I start forgetting. If only you knew how much everything meant to me. You’d always be the one in my mind always and every passing moment, the one whom I look for amongst the places I go, knowing you’ll never be there….

I LOVE YOU “S”.

Music Credit: “Kalapastangan” by fitterkarma (lyrics translated by iyang)

I come from a normal family. My brother has a very good job and is a miljonair. And he is not living in reality anymore. He never visits family. Or helps. Even with a sick mother he did not help for a day. Just a visit to the hospital. He talks like this at family gatherings; I am going to buy a Tesla and a Porsche. The Porsche is for a hobby. And the Tesla for work. And a few weeks later he bought the 2 cars. My income a year is what he makes in a month. He was always very normal in the sense he did not care I make less money. But i get the impression he thinks people with less money are worth less. He lives in his own world and I guess being around the same people all the time who can buy anything etc makes you see things differently

i thought i was over him you know? breaking up seemed like the right choice at the time. we'd been together for almost three years and things felt... stagnant. we stopped talking about anything meaningful. every conversation was mundane, revolving around what to eat or when to hang out with friends. it felt like we were just going through the motions. i thought maybe love had faded away and that stepping out of it would be freeing.

two months later here i am sitting alone with this overwhelming feeling of regret gnawing at me. it's like a constant dull ache inside me and i can't shake it off. in the moments where everything feels too much, i miss his presence more than anything else. that familiar voice, those gentle reassurances, even our comfortable silence together... those things have been haunting me ever since we parted ways.

it's not easy seeing him move on either, he's got a new girlfriend now which only exacerbates my feelings of loss. they say time heals all wounds but time seems to be pouring salt into mine right now lol. im trying not to get upset every time i think about them together because it's partly my own doing anyway but deep down i'm lost and sad.

so many nights i've wanted to reach out tell him how sorry and stupid i feel for leaving but then these doubts creep in whispering 'would he even care?'. what if he is truly happier without me? the thought weighs heavy on my mind making it hard to breathe sometimes😔i guess i wrote this because holding it all in isn't helping anymore.

having a crush on someone at work is both exciting and nerve-wracking...😬 i've had this growing interest in a colleague for about three weeks now, and it's been occupying a fair bit of my mental space. we work closely, so there's always the professional facade that needs to be maintained. yet, every small gesture or brief smile from them feels significant, like it carries more weight than it should.

what complicates things is the persistent uncertainty over whether these interactions mean anything beyond cordiality. it's easy to overanalyze every conversation. was their laugh genuine? or just politeness? i've even caught myself replaying scenes from meetings, trying to decipher hidden meanings that might not exist. there's also the matter of being perceived as professional. making a move could alter work dynamics irreversibly... something i'm hesitant about!!

then there's this fear of awkwardness that lingers in the back of my mind if it doesn't pan out well. how do you look someone in the eyes daily after such vulnerability? i’ve read articles suggesting direct approaches but they often gloss over the aftermath when things don't go as planned... that's what worries me most.... 😅

perhaps this uncertainty is amplified by personal expectations and societal norms around workplace conduct; you're suppose to keep everything strictly business, right? i can't help but feel cautious, though part of me wants to take a leap despite understanding all too well the risks involved. deep down i'm stuck between maintaining professionalism and exploring something potentially meaningful.

ok, so i'm REALLY tired of my friends constantly wanting to hang out at my place. like seriously, i get that i'm the only one with an apartment and they've all still got to live with their parents, but it's getting too much 🙄. it seems like every weekend, it's the same old thing: 'hey, can we crash at your place?'. dude, what am i running here? a hostel? i've got stuff to do too!

i mean look, don't get me wrong: i love my friends and all. we have good times when they come over (not gonna lie), but do i gotta be the permanent host or something??? funny how no one ever wants to pitch in for snacks or pizza when we're chilling though 🤔 what a surprise right?

it's not even about being stingy on my end; it's just frustrating as hell feeling like they expect me to always be down for it when sometimes you know... i just wanna chill alone or watch netflix without having a full house.

and then there's the cleanup afterwards too. will anyone offer a hand with THAT? of course not! plus people leave their stuff lying around like kids after playtime in kindergarten man 🙈 finding socks under my couch months later?! someone explain flipping trips me up.

i tried talking bout boundaries with them last week - was kinda awkward but necessary man. hopefully they get why i need space sometime instead thinking i'm suddenly antisocial now ?? let's see how well that goes tho 😅

I've been puzzling over why so many people seem to get addicted to porn, because honestly I don't get it at all... I've tried it, watched quite a bit just to see what the fuss is about, but frankly, it's not my cup of tea. There is something about the whole scenario that feels incredibly artificial and exploitative! It's like these producers create this fabricated world where desires are exaggerated and emphasis is placed on carnal pleasures without any emotional connection 🤔

What surprises me even more is how common this addiction is said to be. According to some research studies I came across (yeah I am a curious person), it's suggested that anywhere from 5% to 8% of adult internet users are thought to have a problematic relationship with online pornography: that's a SIGNIFICANT proportion!!! Personally it makes me wonder if this obsession stems from society's unhealthy relationship with sex in general. We live in an era where sexualization permeates all aspects of our lives: advertisements, movies, social media; everything seems saturated with it...

It's quite baffling considering that several scientific journals argue watching excessive porn can lead to desensitization or escalate into further issues such as relational intimacy problems or even struggling with sexual dysfunctions 😬. You would think awareness of these potential consequences would discourage frequent usage... but no? They don’t seem deterred unfortunately! Maybe people assume they’re immune until reality hits hard...

Now let me share a bit of my experience mingling within social circles who partake casually yet primarily engage out of habit rather than pleasure itself.. They often mutter halfhearted affirmations like 'everyone does it', 'it's normal' - who am I to say anything? These seemingly nonchalant remarks tell enough though.. they mean well but remain unconvinced deep down inside!

It's evident many factors could contribute here: individual psychological predispositions perhaps? So much emphasis on short-term gratification coupled with external influences might make resisting difficult for some individuals compared against others maintaining healthier boundaries towards same content platforms...

I was on the subway yesterday, minding my own business as usual, when I overheard this word that really got me thinking. Biromantic??? What in the world is biromantic? 🤔 As someone who strives to stay informed and up-to-date with modern terminologies, this left me completely perplexed. I'm not someone who easily lets things go when I don't understand them, especially if it's a term being used casually by others like it's common knowledge!

I'm pretty open to learning new stuff, but what bugged me was how casually the people were discussing this biromantic thing, almost as if it was as widely understood as something like 'vegetarian' or 'introvert'. They seemed so confident and at ease discussing some aspects of their romantic orientations that I felt a bit embarrassed about my ignorance on the subject. It made me wonder just how many more terms are out there that I'm oblivious to.

Upon returning home, I couldn't help but dive into a little research (yeah, that's just me). To my understanding – though please feel free to correct me if I'm wrong – identifying as biromantic means that an individual experiences romantic attraction towards multiple genders. Not necessarily sexual attraction... Just romance. Huh??? I'm trying anyway to wrap my head around distinguishing between romantic and sexual attractions and how they can exist independently in someone's identity.

In all honesty, it's quite fascinating to witness how human identities continue to evolve over time. It's these kinds of encounters that remind me of how diverse our world truly is! While I'm still processing all of this information (with way too many question marks), I can't help but think back on the conversations I overheard and wonder: should I have interrupted to ask for clarification? But hey–who wants to be that person interrupting strangers mid-discussion on public transportation! 😅

I'm really at a loss for words these days when it comes to understanding why my motivation has seemingly evaporated before my very eyes. You see, the company I work for is in the technology sector, and it has been undergoing a revolving door of layoffs every three months or so. Although I haven't been directly affected just yet, there's this unsettling cloud that looms ominously over my productivity. Colleagues are constantly on edge, looking over their shoulders and whispering in hushed tones about who might be next to face the ax. Meanwhile, I'm here trying to muster even an ounce of enthusiasm for projects that once held my complete attention and interest.

With each round of layoffs announced from corporate headquarters, it's like another nail gets driven into the coffin containing any scrap of drive I have left; The constant uncertainty feels draining and somewhat demoralizing when you realize that no one's position seems entirely secure anymore. It's difficult not to feel as though I'm merely biding my time until the guillotine falls on me too, especially when everyone around seems equally afflicted by this wearying cycle of worrying anticipation and lackluster office morale. However detached I attempt to remain from what happens during these downsizing periods (as if they were some distant thing happening elsewhere) the reality can't quite be shaken off: we're all cogs in a system more disposable than we'd like to admit.

You know, one friend hasn't messaged me for 2 days. I don't know why. Maybe he's finally exhausted of me. I was earlier messaging him after every 1-2 hours, maybe I'm troubling him. But he seemed fine in school. He gave me one message today that he can't meet with me, but honestly, it could also mean he doesn't like me and he's too awkward to say so. He even messaged yesterday he was busy for many hours. So because I felt very bad, I slept trying to convince myself he's not leaving you, but honestly, it's a tough belief to keep up. I felt very tired wanting to message again. I was always messaging "Hi" or "Are u here?" Maybe I should get rid of this whole thing. The belief I can ever do it with anyone. That way I can focus on family, I think I'm ignoring them, that's what they tell me. Dad thinks I'm being mean. I think I'm holding on too hard. I should leave this full thing, leave him alone. Not everyone is actually nice.

I've been considering the NUCLEAR OPTION, which is leaving everyone behind. As in, I remove all contacts until I forget them, and never speak to them in school, since they've got their own lives going on without me. But my brother tells me to take it slow, message him less, and trust that he's not hateful of me. But what if he just ignores my messages because I message him "Hi" every 1 hour? Even my mom said he could be away at a staycation or busy somewhere or I don't know. I'm sorry to all of you I don't have the luxurious talent of being able to trust friends that they like me and to even have many friends which are meaningful! My brother thinks it's that easy? He says it takes time, yet he's the hot shot in his class and grade. It's always the popular kids who have it easy with life. It's always them with the delusional answers.

I don't even know how my brother's acting so respectful about a friend. I told him that guy is a trans boy, and while my bro did joke about it earlier, he proceeds to still call him a guy, they've never met! My brother's 12 and somehow, I feel like they'd get along better. Me and that friend may have similar interests and we have cool discussions, but my brother is more fun. I see him everyday play games with his friends and having fun online, meanwhile I'm just quiet like a loser next to him. I should inspire him, not give him an example of what not to be. Why is he even giving advice to me? He's not even met my friend. My friend may say he enjoys more quiet stuff, but my bro gets along with everyone somehow, so I lack somewhere. He's the popular funny kid, so when he says stuff like "I bail out of outings a lot!" or "I have some days I don't even play with them!", it sounds fake. I trust people out of family very less when they're quiet like that. It's like the world moves so fast, and I just failed to catch up. I'm older, I should be the idol, not him.

I felt so tired of crying I slept for 2 and a half hours. I don't know why, I just did. I love them so much, but sometimes it feels I'm not doing enough or I'm doing too much. Meanwhile they somehow got it figured out. Where did I go so wrong? I'm the reason a small boy I once knew thinks that I never changed. I hurt him. I hurt everyone. I cling too hard. If you'd seen that boy's face now, you'd feel the same too! Like you've done nothing but harm. That he remembers a version of you that you now hate so much.

My brother messaged me this. yeah but that boy is gone now he prolly dosent even remember u why wud he care then why did u msg him like that? (asking why I was messaging my friend every 1 hr) bro he dosent respond and u start crying.. hes been gone for 2 hrs thats not that mmuch so? js dont msg him as often now problem solved if theyre happy w u then how r u a burden (I then say I’ve been left out before. They act nice until they talk to someone else and it’s like I dont exist) then try to balance it why do u feel like giving up that means that u dont wanna be friends w rthem they like u for who u are why tf do u hate who u r wtf do u mean by superficial why do u hate that u have friends man it cud genuinly be a mistake (the moment one friend swapped a digit on accident in her number) bro its ur choice if u want friends lemme tell u smth imagine u have money u can buy a car u can drive but u say that i dont deserve the car how tf are u not worthy of buying a goddamn car (I then say "Maybe ur not good at driving, just like how I can’t decide whether I should worry or do the NUCLEAR OPTION and nuke all contact with them") r u gud in the head if ur not gud at driving but yk how to after some time ull get used to it and be better everyone starts fresh the nuclear option for that case is to spend all that money on nothing and js thinking what shud i do with it that money will go nowhere itll get u nothing cus u can already afford everything the only thing u wanted was now gone dont do the nuclear optio neven i started off like u im not born with it no one is because i didnt worry about all these things and dont say u cnat cus if ull never try ull never know and dont say uve tried too hard uve only lived 14 years and maybe somewhere itll all go fine its like a roller coaster aadhya ur so scared to go on i but when u do its fun and u wanna do it over and over again listen dont message if he dosent msg tomo then msg day after if he asks where wewre u yesterday js say i was out.

Yeah, life is so easy like a roller coaster. There's also a high risk of falling out or the ride slipping and going back. Now my friend's gonna think I'm weird for asking him, and then he'll block me and leave me out of everything. I am too much and too little. Never enough. And because you're so desperate on whether I wanna die or not, I think I'd rather be lonely than die. As harsh as it is, every adult does it. My grandparents have no friends, my mom doesn't go with anyone. I'm just the same unlucky person in the cycle. I don't possess the blue blood of my brother. I didn't message him at all today, but honestly, what if when he said he's busy, he meant "busy ranting to my other friends about how much I hate you".

I gave them one message now to both homies, they haven't responded. I know it's a 2 month holiday, but why, why does it feel so urgent to me? I gotta get everything done. Otherwise I'll just fade away. Like I did last time for a long while. I gotta look after my brother cus he's out with his group. Why is it that he ends up going a few times, while my track record of friends so far is...0. I've spent far too much time with family.

My family is suspicious. They don't message if they're busy or not and they only inform sometimes. One girl swapped her phone digits. Another one hasn't messaged me for 3 days already. One girl put it on silent but she responds sometimes. One girl said she messages very less and now in school she doesn't greet me at all and her classmates are kinda mean to me. And my first ever friend betrayed me by using my rage against me because she knew I was a moron then! And my mom says I can do what I want, so the NUCLEAR OPTION seems ideal. We have to approach this like a battlefield. We gotta understand their next move. If one of them is silent for a week, it's over. Done! I already understood this in my comments. You know what my second comment ever was on a video? Coisa estranha da porra is what he said. The first comment may have said AYYYYY THATS LOOKS TEAAAAA but we have to acknowledge the bad. Then that means the 2 months I spent was wasted on worrying and sleeping instead of having fun like everyone else. I don't wanna waste 2 months. If I was more direct, I'd have messaged them every 10 minutes. Then my brother and every other pathetic female out there would've had fun while I rotted away again! That was god's mistake for making me wrong.

so I'm 26, and I've been trying to figure out how long it takes to get over a two-year relationship. it's been bugging me really bad lately. He was perfect for me, or at least I thought so, but then he just stopped loving me out of nowhere? It feels like I'm stuck in a loop of 'what ifs' and wondering if I'll ever feel that way again. Like, is there a specific timeline for this kind of stuff?!

people keep telling me time heals everything (ugh classic) but it's hard not to be skeptical when every morning still starts with the same ache in my chest. It's like even though months have passed since we broke up, his absence still hovers around like some annoying ghost. Wasn't expecting anything different today though, just another day waiting for something to change.

evenings are the worst because that's when all those memories hit hardest. we'll never walk in the park together again or laugh at silly jokes only we understood; it's kinda messed up how someone can go from being your whole world to just someone you used to know. feels like I'm carrying around this invisible weight all day long.

there's no handbook for heartbreak (unfortunately!) and maybe it’s dumb to think there should be one! But honestly, aren't emotions supposed to have an expiration date? How much longer am I meant to wallow before things don't feel so raw anymore? If anyone's got answers I'd love to hear... unless they're quoting "time will tell" again!

I've been dealing with a situation that’s a bit tricky to handle. So, here it goes: I'm a married dude (just hit the 2-year mark) and life's pretty good on that front. My wife? She’s super nice and we've got three kids together. A little chaotic but in a good way. Now, here's where things get complicated. There's this colleague at work, right? She's absolutely stunning and always seems like she's flirting with me. Not to mention the countless times she's asked me out for drinks or dinner or whatever. Each time I have to say no thanks, even though every part of me wants to say yes.

Don't get me wrong, I love my wife more than words can express, but this situation is starting to mess with my mind. I mean she’s gorgeous (and if I’m honest) it's flattering having someone show that kind of interest in you. But dang! It's tough not to let these thoughts linger longer than they should... 😓 At work, her presence is hard to ignore and it's becoming increasingly tricky not to fantasize about what it'd be like if I didn't keep saying no. The right thing (I know) is distance and keeping things professional but man... sometimes that's easier said than done.