How to be happy?
The story
Hey, I know this is a dumb question to ask online but at this point I'm desperate. I'm wondering how to be happy
I haven't been able to feel truly happy in a long time and it's been getting worse. I'm having the same day every single day for half of my life. Even when i try to change it it doesn't really change not really
It's just the same day everyday with a few things being different
I wake up, get insulted by my family for the whole day, read stories, do my chores, walk in circles for hours, go to sleep, repeat. Yeah I've tried to change it I've tried not to be so "miserable" but I can't
My only wish is to go to highschool like other 17 year olds but even that won't come true. My only friend is my dad's friend's wife who I know pitys me and my mother just straight up left years ago
Me and my dad's relationship will forever be ruined after he acted like a pedophile to me when I was 14 then proceeded to call me mentally insane when I brought it up in August because I felt like it was eating me alive. He said that maybe I was hallucinating or having a dream
Sometimes I realise that people don't truly love me or like me or really care that much
People say "practice self love" but they need to realise it's not the same as your father loving you. Or anybody
I used to do the whole self love thing and take care of myself a lot but now I just can't find the will to do that. I haven't brushed my hair in months.
Most days my mind doesn't really absorb, just thinking about unicorns or whatever nonsense. But some days like this one, it feels gut wrenching like my stomach dropped
I'm turning 18 in December this year. Basically in one blink of an eye. I should change but it feels like I'm stuck in a pool full of thick Nutella and honey
But yeah I just want to know how to feel happy. And how to stop feeling so paranoid all the time it's ruining my life.
I know I shouldn't ask such a question online but I have nowhere else to go
I'm not insulting my father or anyone in this message, they'r nice but everyone has their issues and moments I guess. But I'm just saying my opinion, that it hurt me
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man, that sounds rough! it's hard when the same routine just feels like it's sucking the life outta you. maybe finding little things each day that you enjoy can help change it up a bit; even small stuff like trying a new hobby or going for a walk somewhere different. have you thought about what might make your days feel less repetitive? could be worth exploring some goals or dreams you had but lost sight of. you're definitely not alone in feeling stuck, and reaching out here is a brave first step. stay strong, things can always get better with time and effort 💪
Wow, I'm really sorry to hear what you're going through; it sounds incredibly tough. It's understandable to feel worn out when every day feels like a repeat of the last. I had a friend who was in a similar situation, and they found that focusing on small victories, like setting one simple goal for each day, made things feel more manageable. It could be as little as listening to your favorite song or writing down your thoughts. Also, it's okay to acknowledge that not all family relationships are supportive—sometimes it's better for our well-being to create some emotional distance from those who hurt us. Remember that turning 18 can open up new possibilities and maybe even the chance for change!