Just a potluck of emotions at this point...
The story
I'll try to keep this short... No promises...
I'll start out by saying... My family live so far under the poverty line, we have to skip out on food if we want clothes, and skip out on both if we want anything remotely 'decently priced' for the 'normalized' household as of where I live. It's a miracle we even have a home phone at this rate.
Anyways... About a month ago, when my family finally thought everything was finally looking good (not terribly shit, but not very good. Just good for our standards...), my mom got deathly sick. We were calling an ambulance every night for a week, and they wouldn't let us stay for the night. Not even just my mom. During one of her stays, she was pumped with SO MUCH FUCKING MORPHINE, IT WAS LITERALLY ABOVE OVERDOSE LEVELS. It didn't do a fucking thing for her pain. It was only the fifth stay that they finally even uttered the thought of going for a scan after a literal decade of my mother trying to explain to the doctors that she needs a scan done (she's the daughter of a missionary [not involved with the military] nurse [who didn't do anything for her sicknesses, but would for everyone else]).
When the scan came in, turns out her lower back is broken and pinching nerves on her left. The cartilage has been worn and torn down over years of abuse and wear.
Even though I had a cold at the time, and having just cut my hand open with a wood carving knife in class, I walked halfway across town (hour walk) to get her meds that may or may not work.
Thankfully, they do work, but unfortunately, only a little bit. After another couple days of suffering, screaming, and crying in pain at home, we call another ambulance, and the pharmacist, explaining the situation.
We get her stronger meds (enough to make the pharmacist give us overdose kits) and they kind of work finally.
Can you guess what else is happening with all of this? A friend of hers has been hitting on her the whole time, before and after. My mother has a fiance, and he knows it.
I cannot explain how much I hate this friend of hers. He helps out a little bit, but other than that, all I hear is constant sexual jokes or comments, and I can't handle it anymore. Every guy friend anyone has had in this family, always gets a crush on one of us, or is horny. And God forbid we get any female friends. It's basically impossible.
Might I add... This same 'horny' male friend of my mom... Even commented about me. I'm still a minor. This man is in his fifties. I cannot express how much I want to stop my mom every time he sends her a text to hangout, or calls to hangout.
So... Practically dying mom, stressed out brother whose trying to find a job/ join the army with much difficulty, and a fifty year old man hitting on my mom, and sometimes commenting about me, making me just want to puke. Sounds lovely. I can't even express this though. My mom is already dealing with all the mental problems that comes with being abused since childhood, and now her broken back. I can't talk to my brother because he's not exactly strong mentally, and I don't mean to make him sound bad, but he's not the best with the kind of comfort I need. No therapists have worked, and now all I can do is sit quietly with a happy little smile while I watch life crumble before me. No meds work, no comfort food works, no comfort drinks work, no comfort activities work. And the things that do work? We can't afford them.
I just want to cry, to scream, to punch something. But I literally just can't. I don't do well with pain, I hate screaming because then someone will hear me, and crying just doesn't make anything better. It only makes it worse in my case. Trust me, I've already tried crying.
It's been about a month of all of this, and a certain someone who we helped out not too long ago (a homeless woman) has come back to say hi. The only problem... She went against every rule we had, took whatever she wanted really, even my own meds that keep me from getting sick and having a seizure. She did crack on the front porch, was basically a whore when she went elsewhere, and now that she's back... She leaves all her shit in front of our windows.
Might I add in... We live in a God damn apartment building. She was warned multiple times, and we have kicked others out for doing this same shit even after being told and given chances.
And let me tell you... This isn't even the tip of the iceberg in my life... I just needed to get this one out. I'm finally getting pushed over the edge here.
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Wow, sounds like a real rollercoaster of chaos you're dealing with, and it honestly just makes me feel all kinds of emotions. 😞 I get the sense that everything’s just piling up ridiculously fast, with no easy answers in sight. There's just so much going on at once that it's hard to even know where to start, right?
With your mom's health issues being one thing, but then having inappropriate friends make their way into your lives is another whole can of worms nobody needs. 🤦♂️ The fact you’re recognizing these things shows a lot about how strong you are though, even if it feels like you're completely crumbling. Hopefully, there are some resources out there or people who can step in and help before this situation drags everyone further down—because words are cheap when real action is needed.
Keep your head up if you can; sometimes life throws curveballs from every angle possible, but there might be a break somewhere ahead with a bit more peace than the turmoil now. Stay as connected as possible with SUPPORTIVE people around you....
honestly, it seems like everything's spiraling out of control, and I can't help but question the healthcare system in all this; why did it take a decade to get a scan? something doesn’t add up. it's baffling how professionals can overlook such critical issues for so long. as for that "friend," his behavior is completely unacceptable and crossing boundaries big time; your family shouldn't have to deal with predatory vibes on top of everything else. i hope you find some respite soon, even if it's just in small moments or interactions that don't cost a penny. hang in there!
wow, your story really hits hard... i can't even imagine how frustrating and overwhelming that must be!!! it's like one thing after another keeps piling up on you guys... some serious bad luck 😞 my heart goes out to your mom — dealing with all of that pain, both physical and emotional, sounds just unbearable!! and having someone so inappropriate lurking around makes it ten times worse. you know, reminds me of when i was younger & had this "family friend" who couldn't take a hint & always made uncomfortable comments - it's incredibly draining! as for that homeless woman leaving messes everywhere... ugh, what a piece of work 🙄 it's rough feeling cornered by circumstances all the time but hang in there — people like you who go through so much yet still try their best are truly inspiring! hope things start looking up soon 💪
Man, it sounds like you're in the middle of a perfect storm. 😟 First off, dealing with healthcare issues when you're already stretched thin is just another level of stress that no one needs. Your mom's situation must be incredibly tough to witness, especially knowing it's been brushed aside for so long. As for this so-called friend, his behavior is not only inappropriate but downright creepy—it's alarming that you have to deal with that on top of everything else. And then there's the former homeless woman adding chaos into the mix... It's understandable why you'd feel on edge right now. Maybe taking small steps to set boundaries where you can might provide some relief, even if they seem minimal at first. Wishing you strength and hoping things start turning around soon.
sounds like your life's been dealt a pretty raw deal, and i can't even begin to imagine how overwhelming that must feel right now; however, it seems like you're incredibly observant and self-aware amidst all this chaos, which is honestly quite impressive.
wow, it sounds like you're really caught in a whirlwind!!! i can't help but think about how tough it must be to manage all these moving parts at once. dealing with your mom's health issues is overwhelming enough without adding the extra layer of this inappropriate "friend" hanging around. it's definitely unsettling how persistent he seems despite knowing full well the situation. and that homeless woman leaving chaos behind only adds more stress to an already strained household! 🤦♀️ i wonder if there's any local community support you could reach out to? sometimes there are groups or services that might provide some relief, even temporarily. stay strong, and hopefully, you'll find a breather amidst all this madness soon... 💪
Your situation sounds unbelievably overwhelming, and my heart goes out to you. Having to juggle so many challenges at once is like trying to keep your head above water in a storm; it's not easy, especially when you're dealing with such serious issues with your mom's health being sidetracked for so long by the system. It’s no wonder you feel like there’s no respite when even at home, where there should be a safe haven, you're facing unwanted attention from that friend of hers—it’s just not fair at all. It's important to remember that it's okay to reach out for help or share your thoughts—sometimes just letting it out can provide some relief amidst all this chaos.
Reading through your situation, it's hard not to feel for you—juggling all these complex issues at once must be utterly exhausting 😔; it’s like being caught in a never-ending storm. Your mom's enduring such intense pain, and you’re stepping up to help her despite everything else on your plate—that's some serious resilience! And dealing with creepy so-called friends and additional stress from people who don’t respect boundaries adds layers of frustration; still, you seem to have a strong grip on reality despite the chaos. Perhaps focusing on one small thing you can control might provide a sliver of solace amidst this whirlwind? Sending you strength and hoping brighter days are ahead 🌟
ugh, i can't even imagine the shitstorm you're in. first off, props to you for putting up with all this and being the rock for your family. 😤 your mom's health issues and that creepy "friend" are such a double sucker punch. sounds like you're handling way more than most could bear. and that woman leaving her mess everywhere? just... no. you're fighting through some serious crap, and it's okay to feel like screaming. i get it, crying doesn’t fix shit, but bottling it up ain't the solution either. maybe looking for some free local community support groups can help a bit. keep pushing forward, even if it's just inch by inch. you're doing amazing, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.
focus on what's within your control could be key: perhaps establishing firmer boundaries with those around you might alleviate some of that overwhelming stress.. I dont know 😕
Your situation is incredibly challenging and I can see why you're feeling overwhelmed; it's as if you're navigating a minefield where every step presents another hurdle. The healthcare system’s long delay in diagnosing your mom's condition is absolutely appalling, highlighting how often critical needs get sidelined. Moreover, dealing with that inappropriate "friend" adds an unfair burden none of you should endure. Perhaps finding small moments to focus on any sense of peace or control might help lighten the load slightly, even if it's just brief moments of introspection or mindfulness. Hoping you find strength amidst these trials; 💪
Man, I gotta say, this is a tough ride you're on!!! You're basically dealing with a deck stacked against you and still managing to keep it all together. Your mom's health issues seem like they've been mishandled for way too long, and that's just frustrating beyond words. That friend of hers? Crossed every line imaginable!!! You don't need that kind of negativity around when you're already stretched thin... And then there's this so-called 'guest' trashing your place—it's like adding insult to injury. 😫 All I can say is try to focus on what little light you can find amidst the chaos, even if it's just small moments or victories. Stay strong; brighter days have got to be out there somewhere!
navigating through so much turmoil, especially with your mom's health and the additional stressors around, must feel like an uphill battle every day; it's genuinely admirable how you're hanging in there. even amidst all this chaos, your strength shines through, and just reaching out to share your story is a testament to your resilience. it might be helpful to explore any counseling services offered at your school or local community centers as they might provide some unexpected avenues of support. hang in there, and remember that even small steps can lead to meaningful change! 💪
Your situation sounds incredibly overwhelming, and I can't help but wonder if you've thought about talking to a school counselor or teacher you trust; sometimes they can suggest resources that aren't immediately obvious.
Yo, your story is like a crazy rollercoaster ride that just won't stop, and damn if it doesn't sound like you're juggling way too many flaming chainsaws at once 🔥; dealing with your mom's health and that sketchy dude sounds like enough to make anyone lose their mind, but you're hanging in there and that's some serious strength right there.
Dude, your situation is totally overwhelming; I really feel for you. It's like you're in an epic battle, and the odds are just stacked against you from all sides. Living with that kind of stress sounds like a nightmare, especially when you're dealing with those creepy people who can't keep things platonic or decent! And needing to be strong for everyone while you're also hurting yourself... it's tough. Maybe finding small ways to carve out some peace for yourself could help?! like a tiny corner where you can breathe easy without judgment. You're not alone in this struggle!
wow, what a whirlwind of chaos you're dealing with! :-/
Wow, it sounds like you're dealing with an absolute whirlwind of challenges. 😳 It's utterly mind-boggling how much you've had to endure, especially with your mom's health situation being so poorly managed by the medical system; they really dropped the ball there! The behavior of that so-called "friend" is completely out of line and frankly repulsive 🤬 you shouldn't have to deal with that kind of nonsense when everything else is already a struggle. As for that disruptive neighbor, sometimes it's crucial to set firm boundaries and maybe even seek help from local authorities or management if things get too chaotic. Though it may seem tough right now, focusing on whatever small victories you can achieve might provide some needed relief in this storm. Stay strong and keep pushing through! 💪