Lonely AF
The story
I'm in my early 20's. Yet I've wasted my life. As I've moved from the place I've called home for many years. I realized that everything I did there was for other people's approval, appreciation, and opinions. Now, as I'm not there, I just feel lost. I don't know what I want for my major, nor what my interests are. I know damn well what I don't like, and many people say that that's a start. But I'm honestly worried that I'll never make any friends due to the fact that I honestly don't know what I like. I have no passions. No interests. And it's hard for me to be interested in other people on a genuine level, since I don't know what I'm interested. Most people wanna be friends with others with the same interest. But how do people become friends with someone who lacks interests? And I mean genuine interests. As I've said, I've lived me life for other people, and I don't know where to start for myself. Trust me, I've try many things, but again, they weren't for me, but for others. I guess I could list the things I've tried, but it would make it seem like I'm a lost cause! I've tried, hip-hop/crump dance, jazz dance, 4 years of ballet, tap dance, painting, drawing, pottery, singing, playing guitar, playing the djembe drum, playing the ukulele, playing the harmonica(I only tried that one 3 times, and never again), baking, cooking, paper mashé, learning ASL(American Sign Language), fashion design, jewelry design, makeup stuff(I didn't like it after a while), math at one point(never again!!!), proper ways to clean, learning about different books(even though I haven't read them)... Simply to interact with those book lovers, same goes for movies and TV, there's a lot I haven't seen, but I can somewhat carry on a conversation with the same conviction that the fans of those franchises do. And the list goes on of what I've tried and ended up not really liking. The only things that I refuse to engage in are horror movies, books, and TV, spicy food, sea food, winter sports(other than ice skating), and anything to do with Winston Churchill. Other than that, I really don't know what I enjoy.
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Wow, it sounds like you're really in a pickle, and honestly, I’m on the same page with you. Most people waste so much time trying to impress others that they forget themselves sometimes. 🤷♂️ It's like waking up in a stranger's life and realizing you've been on autopilot.
Not having real interests is a bummer, but trust me, it ain't the end of the world, mate. You are in your early 20s, not 90, so chill. 🧊 Believe it or not, figuring out what you don't like is actually massive progress, even though it doesn't feel that way. 🤔 I remember when I was in the same boat, and it felt like wandering aimlessly through a fog with no idea where to go. 🚶♀️
But you know what? There's time to discover what truly makes you tick. You should stop fretting, bro, because people connect over more than just common interests. Vibes and shared experiences matter too. When you're genuine and open about your journey, it attracts people you'd never expect. So hang in there. 🤜🤛
Totally😭!! But I'm now 23 and I feel like I wasted so much time... It hard to think of the positives about still having more time to live and grown...when all I remember and see is the things I could've done, should've done, and didn't end up doing... All due to many factors like my nativity, sheltered-ness, lack of funds, and overall trying to please others.
You're definitely right in the fact that I'm not the only one and that a sh*t-ton of people are trying to figure things out🫠. It's just that I'm at the start of my journey at 23 years old... I feel so old👵🏻! I moved from where I grew up where everyone expected something from you. Your family, friends, neighbors, even the cashier at the supermarket knew me and always asked how my studies were😑.
And again... I may be in my early 20's... But I sure as heck feel like I'm in my 90's🤪!! I definitely love to use 1920's slang, and some 1970's slang. But that's a different topic. And I guess that's something that I enjoy... But again, I'm not sure if I enjoy it, or I simply have the knowledge to talk like that🤔?
Also, you said that there are things other than common interests that bring people together... Um... My vibe is honestly non-existent. I don't know my own vibe... I usually chameleon to other people's vibes🦎. And in terms of experiences... I haven't experienced sh*t😭! Like I said... I'm a blank canvas. I have almost no experience with anything. I don't really remember how to cook, or bake or do all the hobbies I used to do to fit in🫠. My memory also is sorta spotty, due to the medical thing I have were whenever I'm stressed my memory gets messed up and I don't remember anything that's been said or done while those stress chemicals are going through my brain🧠.
Also, side note... You don't need to respond to this but I just gotta say it... My room is currently next to the laundry room... And it's around 3:00 AM maybe 4:00 AM and there's a freaking laundry going right now🫧😡!! And my family gets to sleep peacefully😮💨💤.
you're having a real tough time figuring things out, and honestly, that's super relatable. 😊 Many of us go through this phase, trying to "find ourselves", especially when we've been living for others. It's tough feeling lost. But knowing what you don't like is indeed a valuable starting point, as many have said. People often connect over more than just shared interests; sometimes, it's about shared journeys or simply being genuine. Keep trying new things, and don't be afraid to take your time. Good luck!
Thanks😭🙏🏻✨