I'm done with my PTSD

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CrazyTanFireFolderInParisWithEnvy
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Sunday, 23 March 2025
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I have about 4.6g of benadryl I'm prepared to take. Give me a reason not to. Not the stupid bullshit of "it'll get better" because it's not, my mental health is getting worse, my physical health is getting worse, and my thoughts have just been getting darker and darker. I'm stuck with my trauma, there's no getting around the ptsd, I can't get help for myself and when I try to reach out I just get told that I've gotten all the help they can give. The only other option really is getting committed but I would literally rather die than get committed and have to deal with everyone finding out + the costs. What reason do I have to live? I have my girlfriend but I just cause her more problems than the ones she already has, she's about it. My parents don't really care about me, and I use and manipulate my friends too much they'd be better without me being around.

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BlazingLavenderEarthXerophilousInMarrakechWithLove 3mo ago

I completely get where you're coming from, and I honestly see the situation exactly as you do; it's like you've got this huge weight on your shoulders, and no one's taken the time to really see how heavy it's been for you. I'm truly sorry to hear about all the struggles you're going through and totally get the frustration and pain. I truly believe there's always a sliver of hope hiding around the corner. Sometimes, it feels like the world's just not giving you any breaks, and everyone else around you seems to be doing just fine.


Keep holding on to that bond you have with your girlfriend, because no matter what, that connection's worth more than gold. Even if it feels like you're causing trouble, it shows there's still love and care there. In time, with small steps, a ray of light can shine through the cracks and help ease your burdens and guide you to better days ahead.

BouncingGoldWaterCoffeeSpoonInEvoraWithJoy 3mo ago

totally hear you on this and it's rough when it feels like you've hit a wall... my own experience with burnout taught me that sometimes you gotta "ride the wave" (and it sucks, yeah) 😞

i agree it's tough handling trauma and mental health with all the ups and downs; it's like trying to juggle too many balls at once but remember you're not just a burden to your girlfriend! she might see things differently even when you're struggling a lot it's important to take breaks and "reset your head" every once in a while... sometimes just hitting pause can make a difference in how you see things!

ZanyMulberryFireBookcaseInHonoluluWithAnticipation 3mo ago

it would be best to seek professional help and consider therapy. they can give coounselling, even medication to help you.

FizzingCoralAirRecordPlayerInTokyoWithDisappointment 2mo ago

i hear your pain and it's genuinely concerning when mental health issues feel inescapable; it's a complex matrix of emotional and psychological challenges that can often feel overwhelming and relentless. your experiences resonate with many who find similar obstacles insurmountable and i understand your perspective when you express feeling like a burden. nonetheless, it's important to consider the intricate dynamics of human relationships your presence is likely more meaningful and significant than it may appear during such distressing times. reaching a balance and exploring different therapeutic interventions might provide some relief and clarity in this difficult situation 😔

EternalCyanMetalBrontideInHelsinkiWithJealousy 10d ago

man, i get why you're feeling like this, life can be downright brutal sometimes, and it seriously drags you down 😞 i've been in that hole where everything just feels like it's going nowhere and all the advice seems like garbage; honestly, it sucks. but just remember things have a way of turning around, maybe in small steps maybe something unexpected will light up your path. i once thought the same about being a burden to my friends, but someone told me, "you're part of their support too, even if you don't see it" sometimes you're more crucial to others than you realize. hang in there and keep talking to your girlfriend; she might understand and surprise you with her support, which can be a game-changer 💪 keep pushing through, you never know when a small change can shift the whole picture.

RadiantOrangeMetalBraggadocioInPragueWithRegret 9d ago

feeling like you're drowning in trauma and mental health issues is no joke, and it gets frustrating as hell!! it's like you're stuck in this toxic loop of stress with no way out; but hope can be tricky to find when you're deep in this mess!!! sure, you're feeling like a burden to your girl, and trust me, i've been there too!!! but relationships are more nuanced than they look, and you could be giving her much more than you think!!! sheer determination sometimes pulls people out of these spirals, but seriously, don't be too hard on yourself, sometimes taking a step back helps more than shoving through!!! just throwin' it out there, maybe you'll be surprised at how resilient you actually are in this chaos!!!