Look this isn't a failure but more like a fear, ok?
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This is more like a health question/vent. This is more on the sickness bit and not my age. Anyways, I suffer eczema and have cat allergies that came recently at 13. I had eczema since I was 2, and it has been bumming me out more at 13. The reason is because I always see folks like models with such glossy and pretty skin, with no acne, and while cutting cashew nuts did get rid of my acne (which is good). This is stuff like, where, I feel bad that I have eczema. I now hate even more how my skin flakes, how it makes me feel old, how it makes my lips look whitish pink than the regular lip pink, and how much it looks bad and spooks my dad even when he's seen it for years, and it sucks. I'm 13, and I know insecurity is what I should be feeling at this age about my appearance, but I just wish I was better than this since most girls in my class have clear skin.
And then I got a random cat allergy when I was in Malaysia when I rubbed a chubby cat, and then I rubbed my eye and it swelled so much. And then at my relative's house the same happened but not as bad. Now I fear I may get asthma because eczema, allergies and asthma are all part of the atopic triad. My maternal grandma has it, she's 64, and somehow I don't see her much with an inhaler and she's more chill with cats but her leg skin is dry af. I fear dermatologists because my paternal grandpa was both a dermatologist and anesthesiologist back in the 70s, and the pressures made him so rude and angry to patients, his family, senior doctors, and his own siblings too.
And I'm scared if I will get judged for my skin, for how gross and flaky and ugly it is. By the doctors. And I'm afraid if I'll never live like a regular human again if I ever get diagnosed with asthma.
I sometimes just wanna desperately eat all the sweet, sugary junk food I can if I ever will, just because if at least I die from asthma, at least it's sugary and sweet, like a cute filter with bears and puppies.
I feel I can never own a fluffy animal like a cat because of allergies and no cat is truly hypoallergenic, and lizards, frogs, fishes and snakes feel so emotionally distant they'll only see me as their food giver and not their parent who wants to love them but can't because they lack that emotional bit
Just, anyone with asthma or eczema wanna tell me what dermatologist visits are like (last time I went I was 2 and I can't remember), how you guys manage, what it was like when you got diagnosed, and I just wanna know if you can ever own a fluffy animal like a cat without wheezing or swelling.
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dealing with skin issues and allergies is def a challenge, and it's normal to feel bummed. totally relate to feeling down about not having perfect skin like those models. seeing others with clear skin can feel frustrating. eczema, allergies, and asthma seem like they're always ganging up on you; it's hard not to worry about them. can't blame you for being nervous about docs, but most understand the job and won't judge. owning pets when you're allergic is tricky, and it feels unfair. just remember you're not alone in this struggle and others get it.
Dealing with eczema and allergies must be challenging, but focusing solely on models' skin doesn't seem entirely fair. Every individual has unique health circumstances, and even models might have issues we are unaware of!
Fear of judgment from dermatologists could be holding you back; they are trained professionals who want to help. Allergies to pets are tough, but there are ways to manage them if pet ownership is important to you. It's normal to feel frustration and worry about potential asthma, but dwelling on negatives might not be the best approach. Have you considered focusing on what you can control instead of what's beyond your control???
navigating life with eczema and allergies must be difficult, but it's important to remember that everyone's journey is distinct. while you compare your skin to models, keep in mind that everyone deals with private challenges they don't always showcase. the connection between eczema, allergies, and asthma might be worrisome, yet it's not a definite outcome; focusing on positive self-care routines strengthens your resilience both physically and mentally. 😊
also, t's understandable feeling uneasy about dermatologists due to past experiences, but professionals today are trained to approach these matters compassionately, aiming to truly assist you in finding relief. although pet allergies can limit choices, exploring hypoallergenic breeds or other ways to interact with animals might be worthwhile. rather than stressing about potential complications, why not focus on steps to manage your current situation effectively, then maybe over time things can get better.
i totally feel you on this one, dealing with eczema and allergies can be such a drag. it's like you never really catch a break, you know? i mean, seeing those models with their perfect skin really hits hard, right? when i was a teen, my skin was a mess and i couldn’t even sit near cats without sneezing my head off 🐱 it was rough, let me tell you. they say you gotta watch out for that atopic triad thing, and i legit remember worrying about going into asthma too. why does it have to be all or nothing with health stuff? 🤦♂️
i get the fear with dermatologists, especially with your family history. my uncle was a doctor too, always having this grumpy aura, making clinics feel like horror shows. still, i took a chance because my best friend dragged me along for her appointment once, and honestly, the doc was pretty chill. yeah, they check your skin, but they're not out there to roast you or somethin'. it's their job to help, and turns out, they have no time to judge.
as for pets, oh man, the struggle is real. some people say those supposed hypoallergenic cats might help but, well, ain't nobody got time for swollen eyes and wheezing, right? i've thought about that whole 'dying from sweetness' thing too, but try to balance it out, y'know? life’s sweet enough without extra sugar. hang in there, and maybe chat with people who've walked this road, they might have tips that actually work.
Man, why does this feel very interesting to me? Like, I hate my body whenever I see those models with no skin issues or breathing problems. And I got that "death from sugary stuff" from that same grandpa because, again, there was so much in his life he...sort of became jaded, got obesity, high blood pressure (not!diabetes), and he ate LOTS of rice, jalebi, and any Indian sweets near his area or basically lots of food without going out or exercising inside. Another of my dad's colleagues has an inherited heart problems, who also does what I thought of by eating tons of desserts and beers, because his family members died in their 50s and 60s due to their same heart disease, so I guess I kinda got that mentality of "if I die from asthma, at least it'll be a sugar-induced fantasy because desserts are better than drugs".