am I gay? I feel weird
The story
Yeah, the title kind of gives my story away but i wouldn’t know how to explain this in any other way than that. I’m male, 16 and currently go to college (which is normal where I’m from, don’t worry)
I haven’t had these feeling before I started college, I never liked another guy in any other way than just friends but ever since I’ve been passing by this art school besides my own school, I can’t help but feel a little weird in my stomach. You know that feeling when you see someone you like? It’s just that.
Everytime I look at these guys, I feel weird. I really feel weird. I’ve never found another man physically attractive in real life to a point where I’d just want to kiss him or get with him. It’s different online though.
I know it’s kind of wrong but I get off from looking at how other guys.. you know. It makes me feel a little disgusting and it’s not normal for guys to look at guys doing it. Most friends I know always talk about how they look at women while I’m just stuck here, looking at fucking men. Does that make me gay?
Or do my feelings for the emo guys from the other school make me gay? I need help. A part of me just want to like girls because everyone else does. I just want to feel like this is all normal and that I’m just straight
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i get where you're coming from, but it sounds like you might be overthinking it a bit 😅. everyone goes through phases of uncertainty about who they are and what they like. to me, it sounds like you're just exploring what makes you tick. when i was your age, i also thought i had to conform to certain standards just to fit in, and it was a drag 😒. the gut feeling you got when passing the art school might not be such a big deal as you're making it out to be. people are complex, dude, and attraction isn't always black and white. i wouldn't stress too much about labeling yourself right now. focus on being true to yourself and let everything else fall into place. remember, "normal" is just a setting on a washing machine 😉.
you're not weird or a freak. So many people are gay and have gone through the same experiences. I definitely have. what you should do definitely depends on whether or not you're in a place that's safe for the lgbt or have people to talk about this to. if you're not in an area that's safe for exploring your sexuality then I'd do research into any community resources for questioning people. if you are somewhere you can safely learn about yourself then please do. just take it at your own pace, it's okay to be gay and it's okay to not be gay. you're not wrong or weird for finding men attractive, but it takes time to learn about yourself.
dude, seriously, chill out!!! it's fine to feel mixed up about who you're into!! 😊😉