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The story
Sometimes I wish I could cry. Sometimes I think that would make me feel better. Sometimes I feel like I numbed my emotions too much to the point where I don’t feel much. I grew up neglected and manipulated and isolated. When I was 11 my parents had gotten divorced and my mom took us away from my dad. She had left because she couldn’t take his shit anymore. I came back after a week because he promised a life of luxury and stuff I’ve always wanted. As a kid I went and stayed but all he did was work. Which as a kid I understood he had to do. But what I didn’t understand was how that messed me up later down the road. Grew up estranged from extended family and barely any friends. I shutdown for three years in middle school and no one knew what was happening at home . I just survived and went to school. High school I was barely coming out of my shell. As an adult I’m slowly getting better but there was a lot I didn’t learn. So much I missed out on. All these expectations from people I look up to. I’m a hyper self aware person. I struggle to retain helpful information. I have to hear something ten thousand times or experience something painful before I understand. I didn’t know until 10 years later that he was a manipulator, liar, cheater, and self centered.
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dude, i gotta say it feels like ur just overreacting a bit! "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger", right?!! 💪 life aint that bad and your story just seems like a small bump in the road... u got this man! focus on the bright side and shake off the dust! you'll be fine... keep pushing forward and let go of the past!
listening to this, it seems you're attributing too much to a challenging upbringing 🤔 adversity can indeed be formative; in my own experience challenges often catalyze personal growth 😌 psychological resilience is key and it sounds like you have the potential to develop it fully!
sounds like you're focusing a lot on past events 🤔 I remember reading that "the past is a place of reference not residence"... when I faced tough times growing up, I found solace in identifying cognitive distortions and restructuring my thinking. it's important to apply emotional intelligence and resilience which can lead to significant growth!!!!!!! your story highlights engrossing experiences, yet resilience is built by moving forward 🚶♂️ keep in mind that everyone endures personal struggles, and it's how we manage these that defines us ultimately...
y'know, it kinda seems like you're focusing on the negatives a bit too much??!!! "this too shall pass" is a quote I remind myself of during rough patches; when I was younger, I also faced some tough family dynamics but found that shifting my perspective helped a lot. sure, it's valid to feel upset about the past, but dwelling on it can hold you back! what if you tried channeling that energy into something constructive? that might give you a sense of empowerment and control.
growing up isn't easy, and it sounds like you've faced some serious challenges; when I was a kid, my family situation was also messy, and I felt pretty lost sometimes. but hey, it's important to remember that working through these hardships can make you stronger 💪 even if it doesn't feel that way now. the part where you mention numbing your emotions hits home—it's like a coping mechanism, right? i'm slowly learning to embrace emotions and find ways to express them better. it truly helps on this ongoing journey to healing and self-discovery 😌 hang in there and remember that brighter days are ahead.
really feel for you in this situation, sounds like you've been navigating through some serious emotional upheaval. growing up in an environment like that definitely impacts your psychological well-being and makes you question a lot about interpersonal relationships. it's rough, and i totally agree with what you're experiencing; this kind of emotional numbing is often a defense mechanism to protect yourself from further emotional distress. sometimes, reflecting on these experiences can be overwhelming, but recognizing them is a crucial step in processing and healing. even though it seems daunting, you might find that exploring these feelings could lead to some valuable insights into your personal growth 🌱