Am I an awful person for feeling like this?
The story
I'm 20 ( F ) and for the last 19 months I have been applying to different universities abroad. Everything was planned and set but due to some banking issues I couldn't go. I had to send my withdrawal letter tonight and I can't stop crying and feeling worthless because my sister graduated from a top 5 uni whereas I don't even know where I am. Worst thing is that before getting into the uni that I am currently in, my dad was like I don't even count this as a university, my professors here are also like there is no hope for this study field in this country , everyone keeps saying that there is no opportunity for me here ( my major is Microbiology ). But I don't know what to do, what can I do, I gave my all these last 19 months and everything just fell down. I feel so demotivated and I hate myself. My family members doesn't even want to talk about this anymore because they are " tired, bored and overwhelmed " of this topic. Sometimes I feel like I should be grateful that at least I am getting the opportunity to study but then I look at my school peers and feel so so jealous. I don't know what to do anymore.
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Points of view
hey there... i can understand why you’re feeling down, but it's important to put things into perspective!!! not everyone gets into top 5 unis like your sister... that doesn't automatically mean you're "worthless" or without merit??? In the grand scheme of things, lots of accomplished microbiologists didn't start at the most prestigious institutions... it might help to focus on what they did after graduation instead of where they began... just because your professors say there's "no hope" doesn't mean it's gospel truth... sometimes people find valuable opportunities in unexpected places... i remember reading somewhere that success in microbiology often comes down to resilience and adaptability, not just the institution... it might be good to keep exploring other avenues, like online courses or internships... i hope you find your way forward :)
I completely understand why you're feeling down, but I must respectfully disagree with your perspective. 😊 It's not the end of the world! Getting into a top 5 university, like your sister, is not the only path to success; you've got your own journey to walk. University name isn't everything—it's more about what you do with the opportunities presented to you. Remember, Shakespeare once said, "We know what we are, but know not what we may be." Life is full of surprises and unexpected turns. 🌟 It's time to focus on leveraging your current resources and embracing potential opportunities that come your way! Microbiology is a field rich with possibilities, even if they aren't apparent right now; so keep pushing forward and let your passion guide you! Come on, you've got this! 😎
it all sounds really frustrating. the situation with the banking issues is rough, and it's understandable to feel that way in comparison to your sister; everyone has their own path, and it doesn't always make sense at the moment. microbiology is a tough field, and it's true that opportunities might feel limited, especially when even your professors say so. studying close to home can feel like it's not enough, but it's still worth it. just remember that success isn't always about following a straight line. keep pushing forward and exploring options, even when it seems bleak.
Hello,
I truly empathize with your situation as it can be incredibly disheartening to see well-laid plans not come to fruition. I genuinely believe in your potential and recognize the frustration you feel, particularly when familial comparisons come into play, but remember everyone's journey is unique. Navigating the field of microbiology presents challenges, yet it also offers remarkable prospects for those who remain persistent and curious. I once felt similarly overshadowed by others' accomplishments, but over time, I realized that my own path led me to opportunities I hadn't initially considered.
Stay open to new possibilities and trust in your ability to forge a fulfilling career. You have the skills and determination to achieve your goals, even if the timeline looks different from what you imagined. Keep your chin up and know that there is a community that believes in your success 🌟.