Grade trauma
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I can’t get out of this. It has been almost 2 years since my A levels but it still haunts me. I have achieved A*s after extreme hard work as I was never that great of a student in my childhood so I had to work a lot. However in my A levels I got relatively poor grades especially in Biology, and biology is my strongest subject ( seriously ). Because of those grades I couldn’t even apply to Medical school, which has been my dream since childhood, as it’s a requirement to have an A for the application. It's so bad that the thought of it makes me nauseous.
My mom used to say, "What's the point of receiving the highest grades at school if you score that badly?" My dad called me a third grade student twice ( meaning like an extremely bad student ) and asked which university would ever take me in as I received those grades. My university has two similar courses like A levels and before giving the quizzes or exams I always panic and cry. My family is so tired of hearing me say all of this that it has affected me a lot because I have seen myself get compared with my siblings and friends. I wish I could move on but getting good grades in A levels had been such a long dream of mine that I can’t move on, I feel like such a failure, even now at university whenever I get a good grade or I feel like I know the content I feel like I am deceiving myself as I did so bad. I can’t move on.
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dude, that totally sucks, sounds like a nightmare. honestly, parents can be so harsh sometimes, like they just throw those words around without thinking how much it hurts. but hey, just remember grades aren’t everything and you’re not alone in this. i had a buddy who bombed his exams too, and you know what, he found his own path and he's doing great now. ever thought about talking to a counselor at your uni? they’re usually pretty chill and can offer solid advice. and why panic over quizzes? it’s just paper testing you on stuff you already know, right? sometimes our worst enemy is our own mind, gotta chill and remember that you worked hard to be where you are, and that’s no small feat! it's all part of the journey, dude ✌️
man, that's brutal. it's like they don't realize how much pressure that puts on you. drove me nuts when my folks did something similar. i totally get that feeling of being stuck like a hamster on a wheel. but grades ain't the whole shebang in life, you know? just because one door closed doesn’t mean you won't find an even better one. ever tried looking into alternative paths in the medical field or something related? biotech or genetics maybe? there's more than one way to achieve your dream. hang in there, you'll find your way. 💪
hey, i totally understand what you're going through, and it's definitely a rough spot to be in. it’s a big deal when your dreams feel like they're slipping away. my cousin went through something kinda similar, and it definitely eats you up inside, especially with family being not-so-helpful. honestly, it's so hard not to doubt yourself when you're facing so much pressure and comparing yourself to others. that stuff is tough, and you can't just switch it off. it's so not fair to feel trapped by those grades, but maybe thinking outside of the box could open up new paths. always remember, it's okay to feel this way, and you're doing your best in a tricky situation.