Very long vent about a mess of stuff
The story
So it's summer and the past few school year i have been really burnt out. I got very little sleep, I could barely get out bed i was often overwhelmed and stressed out and i didn't know what to do. There are so many things I want to do this summer with the base line of wanting to improve myself and get out of burnt out. But i didn't really know how to do that. Still don't tbh. So i tried to put some good habits in my routine (waking up naturaly, no screens untill after breakfast, going to bed at around 23 or so, having breakfast outside.) And in the last few days i tried to slowly add a few more like reaching my step count and reading just a few pages before bed. And a i tried 'studying' the pages i've read (basically like i would've If It was school material) and It was actually pretty relaxing + i found It interessing and i wanted to. But somedays, like today i didn't do anything in particular. My sleep Is getting troubled again and i've been going to bed a little later and waking up early and not being able to go back to sleep and Just feeling really panicky and anxious and barely being able to breathe. Like right now. It's 7:45 am and i can't go back sleep. I'm tired and sleepy, everything feels upsetting and too much even going back to sleep Is too hard, i'm too restless and anxious. But i don't know what to do about It. It just feels so horrible because I felt like this, this tired, this stuck, this horrible and anxious for years now. Around 5 year specifically. During and outside school time. And i was getting excited because I thought that It was finally over that this was finally It and that I was finally making progress but i am not. I'm still waking up like this and crying in the middle of the night and i this feel just as bad and i Just feel so stupid because i don't know what Is wrong with me. I've told to talk about, with a loved one maybe, preferably with a professional. I can't quite do either. I tried bringing It up to loved one but they shot me down before i could even finish. And just blamed It on my period. (This happened years ago btw) For the record, This has been going on everyday for 5 years. I know It's not my period. And i'm scared that If i insist It and at the very try to explain the problem will spark an arguement. Or that they'll use It against me. (I'm sure they will.) + Honestly i think they'll just say "It's Just the weather" or "you're too young to have these problems." Like yeah. Cool. I know. How the f. do i solve It then. Help me for f sake. Anyway. As for talking to a professional, that might even be harder. Cause i doubt i could find said professional in the first place. I did try once. I found a therapist that was doing extra hours at my school for some extra money. I brought It up to her. Multiple times. Tried explaining It as clearly as i could. But she Just dismissed It. And It was clear she didn't care. There might. MIGHT be a chance i could maybe find someone else? Somehow. But i doubt i will. I'll try at least. But i'm not sure. I don't see It happening. I'm so tired of this. It's been going on for too long. I just want to feel normal again. Everything Is too much, too tiring, too loud, too bright, too early. And i honestly lost any real enjoyment in everything. Even in things I liked. I can barely sleep right at night cause i either wake up like this or have a lot of nightmares during the night. I've read that sometimes It's about figuring out if you're being true yourself ig? Like if you're actually doing what you really wanted to. If you're actually fullfilling you're 'true desires' and sticking with your values and what truly matters TO YOU or whatever. honestly. Right now? Of the top of my head? No. I'm not. This isn't the school i wanted to go to. This isn't what i wanted to do. This isn't what i wanted to study. And i lie to my family about my true 'goals' after i'm done with school bc i know they'll judge and won't approve. I'm ok-ish in this. But i don't really like It. I didn't really want to do this. And i consired changing multiple times. But It's too late now. So i just gotta finish It. Tbh, i knew i would hate this and regret this when i started years ago. But It's what my family wanted me to do. And i couldn't bring myself to say no. I'm not saying that If I was in another school everything would have been different and miraculously i would've been cured. Maybe i would've hated It too. Maybe i would've felt just as bad there. But at least it would've been my choice. Or maybe i'm Just stupid and all this Is useless. Idk. I Just want to feel better.
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hey there, sounds like you're going through a lot. honestly, feeling burnt out is pretty common, especially with everything going on in life. maybe try not to focus too hard on fixing everything at once. little steps can take you places, right? finding someone to talk to can be a challenge, but it's worth a shot if it helps. also, thinking about what you really want could be a good move. sometimes just making one small change can turn things around. hope you find a way to make things better, hang in there.
sounds like you're stuck in a loop, but honestly, it's not that bad, you know? everyone goes through stages where things just feel off or not right, like a computer that's just got too many tabs open in the browser or the RAM is low 🤪; maybe it's more about managing expectations and cutting yourself some slack? i've been there, overwhelmed and stressed, but sometimes you just gotta roll with the punches and take every day as it comes!!! it sounds like you're trying to set up good habits, which is cool, but don't expect miracles overnight!!! and about the whole school thing, maybe there's a way to incorporate what you love into your current path? even minor adjustments can make a big differance, right?
seems like you're stuck in a cycle of negativity, but honestly, it ain't as bad as you think!!! everyone's got stress and burnout at some point, and that's just life. expecting some magic solution to change everything is unrealistic. maybe try to see the silver lining instead of dwelling on the negatives all the time? you’re taking steps to improve, and that's worth something, right? we all have to deal with stuff we don't like, but that's how you grow. hope you find a way to shake off this gloominess and move forward.
hey, it sounds like you're going through a helluva rough patch, but honestly, who doesn't feel overwhelmed these days, right? 🤔 maybe it's not all about changing everything at once, "slow and steady wins the race" or whatever they say; i mean, everyone has those "blah" days where nothing goes as planned, but you gotta keep pushing through!!! it's cool you're trying out new habits, but remember, Rome wasn't built in a day!! 😅 maybe there's more to gain by focusing on what you can control and being chill with the rest! feeling stuck doesn't last forever, believe me, been there, done that 🤷♂️, hope you hang in there, things usually get better with time!!!
sounds like you're really struggling under the weight of expectations and burnout, which is all too common in high-pressure environments. honestly, it resonates with me. been there, felt that. no surprise, trying to maintain a semblance of mental health can feel like a losing battle amidst all the chaos. ignore the naysayers who dismiss your experience; they don't understand how relentless this cycle can be. it's tough, and sometimes professionals miss the mark, too. keep advocating for yourself until you find the support you deserve. also, being stuck in a program you despise seriously drains any remaining motivation. if you can't change paths, at least find small joys or distractions to keep you afloat. hang in there, things can get better. 🌟
hey, i'm sorry you're feeling this way, but honestly, sounds like you might be overthinking things a bit; i mean, everyone gets overwhelmed at times, and it's totally normal. speaking from experience, stress can sometimes just be part of the package, and while it doesn't make it less real, it's something you can learn to manage with time. changing a few habits is a good start, but expecting everything to turn around instantly might not be realistic. i remember when i was in a similar spot, and taking one day at a time really helped. hang in there, it might just take some more patience and self-reflection. things can and do get better, trust me!
sounds like you're dealing with a lot, and it's understandable to feel burnt out. constant stress and lack of support would drain anyone's energy and enthusiasm; it's tough when even small efforts to change don't seem to make a big impact. the education system can be demanding and might not cater to individual needs, which adds another layer of difficulty to your situation. it makes sense to feel stuck in something that wasn't your choice, especially when it seems like there's no way out. i get why it's tough to believe things will improve. finding the right support can be challenging, and sometimes you're left navigating this on your own. i hope you find some relief soon, and that things gradually get better. 🌟
man, i totally get where you're coming from; feeling burnt out is the worst, and it's like nobody else seems to get it. it really sucks when loved ones don't take your struggles seriously, especially when you're trying to explain how it feels. i remember feeling the same way a while back, and it's like, "hello, can someone please understand this isn't just about being tired?" it's rough trying to figure out how to improve when everything seems overwhelming. your effort to build new habits is solid, and though it might not feel like it’s working yet, it’s a step forward. just hang in there and keep doing what you're doing, even when it feels slow. honestly, sometimes it just takes longer than we want, you know? one thing that helped me was keeping a tiny bit of focus on what makes me happy when things get heavy. wishing you find some peace and clarity soon! 🌟
hey, i hear where you're coming from, but maybe you're overthinking some of this 🤔; life's tough, and stress is part of the package. i've been there too, and it's easy to get caught in a cycle of "everything's too much." i noticed you're putting in the effort with new habits, which is great! but expecting everything to change instantly might just set you up for disappointment. remember, "Rome wasn't built in a day." sometimes you gotta trust the process, even when it feels slow. keep pushing through and maybe focus on small wins instead of the big picture. hang in there, things can take time to turn around! 🌱
dude, i totally get it—burnout is a real killer and, unfortunately, way too common these days!!! you're not alone in feeling stuck in this ridiculous cycle of stress and exhaustion. i've been there too, where everything just feels like it's collapsing under the weight of unchecked expectations; no surprise you're feeling the pressure. it's great you're trying to form new habits to help break out of the rut. even if it's slow, it's progress, right? remember, a small change can make a big difference eventually. hang in there because it won't always be like this, and you might just find that light at the end of the tunnel sooner than you think!!! keep grinding, and don't lose hope.
feeling burnout is incredibly challenging, especially when it seems like there is no end in sight. i get it, i've been there, questioning if things would ever get better. making lifestyle changes is commendable, but expecting immediate results can be like "waiting for rain in a drought.” it takes time and patience, which is scarce when you're already exhausted. you mentioned the issue with insomnia; are there specific triggers that you've noticed which exacerbate your sleepless nights? understanding those might help mitigate some of the anxiety you face. sometimes you have to accept that progress is neither linear nor swift, and persisting can be arduous. it's important to recognize the small victories along the way.