I'm scared and did I do the right thing?
The story
So, I'm 13, and my hormones got the best of me and I proceeded to vent out my rage in this thing: https://iiwiars.com/legal-drama/anarchists-communists-punks-arise
I feel so bad now because I said some depraved-ass shit, and then this one anonymous person commented, "dude, ur 100% right, fuck em all, i agree on every level, fuck every single one of them, they deserve some fucking accountability, and until we get it, life wont ever be happy, its bad enough the shit some people already carry without all this, i have had it with all these cunts, and idk why but we seem so emotionally attached to this fuckass earth, when everything seems hopeless and like nothings gunna change, why continue fighting when resistance is futile, why not free urself, its hard to understand"
And because I was still angry as fuck, I said, "I know, right? Let's rape 'em back!" I'm so sorry, please, I really regret this now and maybe I should keep feeling bad I said such a nasty thing, I hate myself so much. Then they said, "I know, right? Let's rape 'em back!" Then I was getting scared because they weren't calming down, because if you saw the post, most folks were telling me to calm down and not be so violent-minded as it won't fix the thing like how fire + fire just burns everything. I asked their age and they said they were 18, I told my age as "...I'm turning 14...".
And this is where shit hits the stratosphere, they say, "wow, you learned alot early... much younger". I shat myself in fear, because from many girl YouTubers like Illymation, I remember how some older people would tell girls like me with vulnerabilities (I think I'm a neurotypical to an extent, but I've not gotten any diagnosis yet, sorry if I sound weird) that their hateful ideas in a fit of rage are "the correct view", and then groom them to do horrible stuff. I didn't respond anything after seeing it. Was I gonna be groomed, and what does grooming look like? I'm scared. Should I be scared?
Please tell me I did something smart and not stupid and I'm gonna be safe, because I told I don't live in USA, and I didn't mention where I live as in specific coordinates and Google Maps links to my house, but I don't wanna be groomed. I don't wanna see some weird 18 y/o's pictures of their naked body being sent to me somehow (I didn't show my email), or be blasted with s-x messages or be found out and touched or worse. I've already seen far too many lady YouTubers fall into this when they were my age and I don't wanna too. If my dad or mom says "You're smart for your age, smarter than me!" I'm fine because they've never done anything but if it's a stranger without my parents I'm scared. Don't worry, it was one person, but at night I was shivering because the room was super cold and praying when I told them my age they'd be like, "oh shit I'll stop I'm sorry", not this. Please tell me I did a smart thing, I'm 13.5, a girl and I'm not gonna be hurt. Like, this has never happened before in the site, this is my first time. I hope not to get traumatized by this in the future when I'm older, because I thankfully didn't receive a text or photo that was scary. Most of the time on it, people are anonymous but would normally ask me to stop, calm down, see things from a different perspective, flat out say no or ask me to get help. Again, was I about to be groomed?
Because I thought it was gonna be another 13 y/o being as angry as me, and what if my vent was wrong? I've seen so many girl YouTubers talk about being groomed by older teens like the person I spoke to, Illymation was in a relationship with a dude I think 5-7 years older, and he abused her and sent her photos and messages when she was my age, and so much happened. She got admitted to a psych ward, but she felt safer venting to him, he was spamming hurtful things to her (she had the screenshots and showed a few on YT), and one time after he inappropriately touched her when she was 18 in a theater, and when she tried to tell the cops, that man is still out there. And she even met his other "girlfriend" whom he was cheating with on from Illymation.
Why does every girl my age, usually, deal with conversations like THAT with random people or men (mostly) online or IRL, no matter how hard they dodge it? Is this a canon event? B-tch I barely SURVIVED. I'm not gonna tell mom yet though. Was it really grooming? But holy shit, I got my mom's "danger detector" genes, hehe. Long before I was born and mom worked in USA for a bit, she lived in New York, where she wanted to take a metro with a friend but then one scary dude came behind them slowly, holding a hand in his pocket, and they both took another metro, and mom tells me she could've gotten mugged.
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Points of view
Wow, that sounds like a really intense experience. First off, it's good to hear you didn't give too much personal info; staying cautious online is super smart. I think trusting your instincts in situations like this is crucial, especially when something seems off or too aggressive from the get-go. It's not uncommon for people to let their anger or emotions lead them into saying things they regret later. We've all been there at some point, where the heat of the moment takes over our better judgment—so don't be too hard on yourself for expressing those emotions initially;
That being said, it indeed does sound concerning if someone older is trying to validate harmful ideas with younger individuals. It’s great you're aware of boundaries and took a step back when things felt wrong.
relax, I checked your story: you haven't given any personal information and you're completely anonymous here, you're not risking anything at all!
hi, same guy here, very seriously sorry for discomfort, to assure u i dont wanna get too close or exploit anyone young, what u were standing for, and what i wish for too, is against exploitation, and one thing, age/human size power can be such a form of it, that comment reply was i meant like, compared to me when i was 13 years old, i had zero clue about any polotics or issues, i dont wanna groom anyone, and everyones anonymous here, rest of my response pretty much were both very angry and want accountability, once again sorry for that issue, dont wanna groom/exploit anyone or make them feel unsafe or like they can do stupid shit
Yeah, it's because the words sounded similar and I got really scared.
i have to say, it's quite insightful that you're questioning these interactions and examining the context—these are critical skills in navigating online spaces; your awareness of grooming behaviors and your cautious approach to the situation already shows a maturity beyond your years. while it’s commendable that you recognized a red flag and halted communication, this is another example of how complex digital communication can be, especially with strangers who might have ulterior motives. reflecting on your initial vent and its potentially harmful language—though driven by high emotion—is also an important step; understanding how our words can influence others is crucial. but more importantly, i’m curious: what do you think made this particular interaction stand out from others you've had before?