Vent (TW taking death and mourning (?) )
The story
So it's the 26 of September. The past few days have a bit of mess. I've some better than others but i was a bit low energy and tired. On some days i only did the bare minimun and even less. On others i got a bit ahead of my work even if not by much. Yesterday my dog died. It's a weird way so Say It ig but honestly the way i'm feeling Is a bit weird right now too. It was a very fast thing. Didn't even have time to get her to the vet. It was all so sudden. In the morning she was alright. Eating playing. And then when i came back from school She wasn't eating or drinking and didn't have much strenght. And by the evening she wasn't with us anymore. She had been a bit weird the past few days. More cuddly out of nowhere She had always been a little weird. Attached to us by the hip a moment, completly out of our sight the next. I hadn't thought anything of It. But now i realized she was saying goodbye. It's kinda of sureal. My chest hurts. I haven't really cried about It yet. I've come close. I don't even know if i want to. It's so weird. Everything Is weird recently. None of the moments i'm living feel real. Idk what's going. Everything feels too normal and too different all at the same time. It happened, i was there to see her leave. And then she was gone and everything Just.. continued. I didn't really sleep last night. I was scared and anxious. I was scared of having nightmares. And then i crashed in the early morning. And then i woke up just like normal. And everything Is Just moving on. Even though It feels like It shouldn't.
Maybe It's Just the shock. I'm having trouble processing It honestly. My room Is a bit of mess. I have things to do. Lists and work to do. But I don't feel like doing anything. Idk. Maybe i'm exagerating? It's been very long since i've been in simirliar situation. I was much younger then and i was very sheltered from It ig and i think i was too young and stupid to really get It. This time. I was there everything moment since day One and untill the last moment. And i've seen her say goodbye i've seen her leave us. Out of no where. I've seen the look into her eyes when It happened. Maybe i should've looked away. Idk. idk how to feel. I've Just had this weird feeling in my chest since.
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Man, losing a furry buddy is so tough 😞 It sounds like you're really going through it right now. It's totally okay to feel all over the place; it's such a big change and those feelings take time to sort out. When my old cat passed away, I couldn't wrap my head around how the world just kept spinning like nothing happened; Maybe try giving yourself some grace and allow time for things to sink in. Talking about her or sharing memories with close ones could help too. Sending you lots of strength during this weird time.
honestly, it's understandable to be stuck in this surreal phase after such a sudden loss; as Virginia Woolf said, "the world breaks everyone," and it's mind-boggling how life just keeps on keeping on without pause for us to catch our breath;.
I'm really sorry to hear about your dog; that's such a tough thing to go through, especially when it happens so suddenly. It's definitely not an exaggeration to feel the way you do—losing a pet can hit hard because they're like family, and it's okay to feel disorientated by it all. Grief is such a complex process, and feeling that weird disconnection from reality is pretty common after something intense happens. Take your time with processing everything and don't rush yourself! Do whatever feels right for you, whether that's keeping busy or just sitting with your emotions for a bit.
My heart goes out to you during this difficult time, and I truly empathize with the disorienting nature of your experience; as Carl Sagan once remarked, "The world is so exquisite with so much love and moral depth" that it's hard to reconcile such loss with the continuity of life.
you know what? losing a pet is like having your heart yanked out and stomped on; they’re family, plain and simple. she was there one moment and gone the next—no wonder everything feels surreal! it’s almost as if you’ve stumbled into an alternate reality where everyone else is still moving at normal speed, but you're stuck in slow-mo trying to process what just happened. when my dog passed, i felt like i was sleepwalking through life for weeks; maybe this weird feeling in your chest is just your mind’s way of dealing with all that chaos. don't force yourself to "get over it" or feel any certain way; grief has no timetable, and it's okay to feel off while you figure things out.
Dude, I get that losing a pet is rough, but life doesn't stop for anyone; it sucks, but maybe focusing on the crap you've gotta do might give you a break from all the emotional noise going on in your head.
I'm really sorry to hear about your dog, it must be tough dealing with such a sudden and unexpected loss 😢. The thing about grief is that it doesn’t come with instructions; it's messy and unpredictable. You mention not crying yet, and that's okay—it doesn't mean you’re not feeling deeply. Everyone processes these things differently. Sometimes diving into routine can help bring a sense of normalcy back, even if the world feels off balance right now. If you ever feel like sharing more about her or just want to talk through how you’re feeling, don't hesitate to reach out—sometimes expressing what’s in your heart can lighten the load a bit.