Get out of your own way
The story
interacting with the world both excites and terrifies me. this paradox shows up way too often, ya know? like, I've got this big presentation coming up at work (it's a killer opportunity!!!) yet I can't get out of my own damn way! I find myself doing everything but prepping for it. cleaning my room suddenly becomes priority number one, you follow me? totally classic case of self-sabotage, right? it's an old curse handed down through generations or something. every time I'm gearing up to do something monumental, I'm tangled in my own web of doubts and procrastination. we're talking years' worth of undermining my skills and potential!
one would think that years of reassurance from family, friends (and heck) even random folks online would've straightened this all out by now. I mean, “you've got this” is cool and all until the voice in your head screams louder saying “do you really?” remember when jenna from finance whipped out that phrase before her talk last month and nailed it? meanwhile over here, I’m wading through thick mud labeled insecurity while holding hands with patriarchal ‘shoulds’. it’s wild how past experiences echo louder than present affirmations. maybe next time I'll scribble some positive nonsense over my notes? who knows! yet why is energy for self-repelling stronger than leveling up? tough calls as always... if anyone’s figured out kryptonite to this vexing cycle ping me!
