idk, my thoughts ig. ^_^
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It’s the fifth day I’ve been trying to cope with my anxiety, and honestly, I feel like I’m barely holding it together. So my job isn’t anything special - just a convenience store, but even the smallest things feel like mountains. When my co-workers or manager tell me to sort things or do some task, my brain freezes. I have ADHD, the inattentive type, and it’s like my mind just refuses to focus, no matter how much I push myself. Then I feel useless for not being able to do something that seems so easy for everyone else. I know deep down this job isn’t for me. I’m the creative type - I share my art on Tumblr and SpaceHey, but I dropped out of college, and my parents didn’t take that well. Now... I’m stuck, trying to make enough for therapy and to keep my apartment, while feeling like I’m slowly wearing myself out haha. I don’t even know where to put all these thoughts anymore... I just wanted to scream them somewhere into the nowhere, and maybe someone will hear me. That’s why I’m here. I keep telling myself it’s temporary, that I just have to get through this week, this month, maybe this year… but it’s exhausting living like that. Every shift feels like I’m running on fumes, pretending I’m fine while my chest feels tight and my brain feels like static. >_<
I’m also running out of my meds, which doesn’t help at all... I work on Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Sunday, but even on my so-called “free” days, I can’t really take care of it. Either one of my co-workers doesn’t show up and I have to cover for them, or I have to spend the time trying to get therapy appointments. It feels like there’s never a break, like my life is just a loop of working, being too tired, and trying to keep my head above water.
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hey, i totally get where you're coming from.... it's like no matter how hard you try, ADHD just messes with your head and makes those simple tasks feel impossible sometimes!!!! 😅 i’ve been there too, working retail while my brain is all over the place. it's tough... it's so frustrating when others don't understand how real this struggle is?? feels like there’s never enough time to sort things out... hope you can find a little breathing room soon!!!
i feel you, it's rough out there when things pile up like that and life feels like a never-ending hamster wheel. the way you mentioned, “every shift feels like i’m running on fumes,” hits deep; that's a struggle many face but not everyone acknowledges. managing a job in retail while dealing with anxiety and ADHD ain't easy, my friend. guess it's important not to be too hard on yourself and remember it's just a step in the journey. at least you got your art, that's a win! wonder if there's any way to make a bit more room for it and ease the pressure? hanging in there can be exhausting, no doubt!
i hear you, dealing with anxiety and ADHD on top of a job that's not fulfilling can be overwhelming. working in a convenience store where every little task feels like climbing a mountain must be seriously challenging. it's understandable that the routine of covering shifts and lacking time for therapy adds to the stress; sometimes, it's important to acknowledge that these feelings are valid and not just brush them off. balancing the need to keep your job for therapy and the desire to pursue your artistic interests must feel like a constant tug-of-war. perhaps there is potential in exploring ways to integrate more creativity into your daily life without sacrificing your income. just hang in there, finding some bits of enjoyment amidst the chaos might help lighten the weight you're carrying.
really feel for you, dealing with job responsibilities while ADHD wreaks havoc must be incredibly draining... 😔 it's astonishing how energy-consuming those mundane tasks at a convenience store can become when your mind doesn’t cooperate. ever considered whether shifting your focus back to art could lead to different opportunities? what's your art style on Tumblr and SpaceHey? perhaps there's a chance to realign your professional pursuits with your creative passions, even if it takes a bit of time?? definitely sounds like you need some room to address your medication and therapy appointments without work constantly disrupting!!!
absolutely empathize with your sentiments. “pretending I'm fine while my chest feels tight” is all too relatable. the repetitive cycle of work-induced exhaustion coupled with the relentless management of ADHD symptoms must be intolerable. the struggle to juggle minimal-wage retail duties while grappling with anxiety, clearly demonstrates the oppressive nature of such employment. how are you managing without your meds? can only imagine the heightened distress this predicament causes. the notion of being “stuck” truly encapsulates your current plight.