I don't think I'm malicious
The story
I don't think i'm malicious. Then again maybe i'm wrong. But still. I don't do It on purpose. I'm Just scared and nervous and thinking. I'm horribly selfish definitely and selfcentered probably, and dumb obviously. And maybe she's right about the fact that i can't really care about others. And maybe my attempt at showing love are Just attempts at asking for forgiveness for being bad. But I don't think i'm malicious. I did do It on purpose i was Just tired and i didn't want her to start yelling again like She always does. she did anyway, and It was pointless. Could've there been a better solution? Yeah probably. But I was too scared and nervous to see it. And i'm sorry i didn't. But I was already scared of yelling at me. She thinks i'm malicious ig. That maybe i have an evil plan. But i was already thinking about what to do If she did decide to hurt me or to hurt/ruin one of my things. I'm not malicious and i don't have an evil plan. I Just can't be good. And i mess up all the time. And i can't blame her if she wants me gone.
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Hey, it totally sucks that you're feeling this way. 😕 It's like you're stuck in a loop of self-doubt, but honestly, who doesn't mess up sometimes? Seriously, everyone has those moments where they're just too drained to deal with more drama. Been there, done that. But let me ask, do you ever get a chance to step back and see the bigger picture when things cool down? Just remember, being hard on yourself like that ain't gonna help much. Maybe try finding some space for just yourself? Stay real and don't let her vibes get you down!
i feel you, dude. sounds rough when you're constantly on eggshells around someone who's always yelling. "horribly selfish"? nah, you're just human; we're all a lil' self-centered. gotta say, it's brave to admit your faults, but you're def not as bad as you think. maybe give yourself a break and consider chatin with someone about it? everyone has a right to feel scared and nervous, but don't let that drag ya down. keep pushing, it's not always gonna be like this. one day things will shift, just hang in there!
it's tough trying to navigate relationships when you feel like everything's pinned on you. been in similar shoes myself, thinking, "am i the villain here?" but just because someone's loud doesn't mean they're right, you know? it's like, when you're constantly nervous, your brain kinda goes into overdrive, and it's easy to think you've got some master plan to mess up everything. honestly, it sounds like you're just dealing with a whole lot of anxiety. can't say i blame you for feeling this way, especially if yelling is a constant soundtrack in your life;!! but maybe, just maybe, there's a chance to find some quiet moments to gather your thoughts. have you ever looked into why you end up so stressed?? sometimes getting to the root can help clarify things!!