I wish I was never here. SH mentioned.
The story
I thought that my brother was favored over me. My parents, my grandparents, and even my relatives. Now, it seems like I'm right. I felt horrible after all the years I spent trying and trying to get them to look at me. But who thought that he would bring me more trouble? It all started when my brother started to fight and yell at my parents when he hit puberty. I guess I'm more sensitive to sounds or conflicts since I was crying every night they fought. I just hated all the noise and the words that they spat out at each other. I didn't say a single word to my parents because I feared I would make them angrier. I said everything I felt to my friends, which later caused them to distance themselves. I was too naive to know that they were just young kid like me, not a therapist. After about 2 years of all the noise, I finally told my father I couldn't bear it anymore. My father was concerned after hearing about what I said, and I started to go to a nearby hospital for therapy and pills. But that didn't help. It only made me feel dull and empty, making my hands shakier. The pills didn't help at all. I started to cut myself, but I always ended up panicking and calling my dad for help. I was about 13 years old when I started that. Venting to my friends caused some trouble, and I ended up pushing everybody away from me. I was alone. After they left, I realized that I needed them more than anything. I started to leave school early or skip school for weeks. I even went into the psych ward, but only for about a month and a few weeks. However, that didn't stop my parents and my brother from yelling at each other. I was barely surviving. I spend the next 3 years in the same situation. Now, I'm a high school student in my country, with nothing much being different. A few days ago, my brother got into one of the top-rated universities here. This holiday was a living hell for me. He was smiling and bragging like an idiot. I hate him. How could he be so egoistic when he had torn my life into pieces? I had to go through all of that. I had to lose the people I loved the most, hurt myself, and think that everything happened because of me, like he said. I was a fool to notice that my brother was the problem. I can't even hate him because there's a stupid part of me that's saying that I shouldn't. Only because he's my brother. Because he's family. Even when he doesn't treat me like I'm his younger sister or like a person that's equal to him. I wish I was never here. I wish I wasn't his sister or my parent's daughter. I wish I could be somebody else.
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i gotta say this story seems a bit over the top 😅 it feels like you're blaming your brother for everything that's wrong in your life that's not really fair bro 🚫 maybe there are other sides to the story you gotta think about 🤔 yeah he's your brother and it's tough but life ain't all about comparing yourself to him ✌ i hope you find some peace and level things out for real... keep your head up!
i get your point but feels like you're missing the "emotional trauma" bit!!!! not so simple when your mental health takes a hit 🧠 sure there might be other sides but it's easy to say when you're not in the trenches!!!!!!! saying to compare less is not wrong but sometimes it ain't just about that!!! sometimes family dynamics are toxic by nature can't just "level things out" overnight!!! good luck tho it sounds like a long haul...
man this story hits hard!!! sounds just like the crap i went through!!!! 🎯 i get it family can suck big time they always pick their favs!!! it's like why even bother right???? can't stand it when people say blood is thicker than water guess what??? blood ain't always family!! right there with you feeling stuck in a toxic family mess is the worst try not to let it screw you up too much!!! good luck though cause it sounds like you're gonna need it!!!!!
i totally relate to what you said!!! family dynamics can be so challenging 😩 "blood ain't always family" is something I totally vibe with sometimes it feels like you're stuck in a soap opera!!!!! it's essential to stay strong and focus on personal growth maybe things will get better with time!!! family isn't perfect but finding peace within can do wonders!!!!! keep pushing forward!!!🌟
having read the story, I gotta say it seems a bit one-sided; sure, siblings have conflicts, but blaming your brother entirely might not be cool. remember, "it takes two to tango", and family dynamics are often complex. growing up, I had my own sibling squabbles, and it taught me to see things from both sides. i hear your frustration!!! i just feel like it might help to look at things from another perspective 😕 sometimes focusing on self-growth can lead to peace, no matter the family drama.
i hear your story but honestly, it feels off. blaming your brother for everything isn't cool. "life’s not a competition", and it might help to see things differently. family stuff sucks sometimes, but it's not all on him. i doubt focusing on the negatives will help any of you get better. remember, there are two sides to every story. staying mad forever isn't healthy for anyone. 😕
i empathize deeply with your perspective and the turmoil you've endured. "family can be the greatest source of distress," and it's clear you have experienced this firsthand. in my own life, I've seen how favoritism can erode familial bonds, leaving one feeling marginalized and neglected. it's not just about sibling rivalry; it's about an imbalance in emotional validation and support. despite what society may suggest, the notion that "blood is thicker than water" often fails to hold true in these convoluted family dynamics. your story resonated profoundly, highlighting the necessity for genuine empathy and understanding, which, sadly, seems to be lacking in many familial relationships. faced with such circumstances, it is entirely plausible to question the very foundation of familial ties and the toll they take on one's mental well-being.
i really get where you're coming from with this story and it resonates. "family dynamics can be incredibly complex," and it's something many people don't understand fully. i've seen similar issues arise where favoritism creates deep rifts between siblings; it's tough and frustrating. the way you expressed feeling sidelined is something many can relate to. sometimes, family's supposed to be a support system but instead, it becomes a source of stress and anxiety. navigating that environment can be draining. just remember, you're not alone in feeling this, and it's okay to question the dynamics at play 😔 keep sharing your story, it might help others who feel the same way.