Just wanna rant #02
The story
Damn, commiting really sounds good right now that it scares the shit out of me. I am really tired of always being everyone’s punching bags. I’m just a kid too. Someone who longs for a complete and happy family. I’m just 14 years old but I already wanna end my life. Why do I have to carry it all? What about me? Just because I don’t show my emotions doesn’t mean I’m strong. Everyone thinks that I am okay, but I am not. I’m so fucking tired. My Mom can’t have a dead daughter. I still wanna see My Mom and my baby brother. But my mind is killing me. I hope I can speak my thoughts without feeling like a burden or people will judge me for who I am. I always tell people to be strong and to live happily, but I can’t even do that. When people do me wrong, I always say maybe they’re going through something. But when I am going through something, I never treat people wrong like that haha. It genuinely hurts that I am even thinking of doing it. ’Cause what do you mean a young girl like me already wants to end it? I am still trying but I don’t know how long. I don’t want people thinking that they weren’t there for me, especially my Mom. I’m not living for myself anymore, because if I was living for myself? I would have been dead by now. I wanna scream. I wanna cry. I just hope one day I will be okay. My mind is screaming negative thoughts and I don’t know how long I can hold on. I’m very much tired, I wish for this pain to end.
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Hey, I'm really sorry to hear what you’re going through. 💔 It sounds like you're carrying a lot on your shoulders for someone so young. It's totally okay to feel overwhelmed, and it's important to find someone you trust to talk to about how you're feeling. You're not alone in this, even when it feels like no one understands. Life can be rough sometimes, but reaching out for help is a strong thing to do. You've got people who care about you (like your mom and brother) and I believe things can get better with time and support. Stay strong!
I understand you're facing extraordinary stressors, and while it might seem as though relief is impossible, remember that resilience often emerges in the most unexpected ways; consider seeking professional guidance because having an external support system can provide clarity and alleviate some of those burdens you're experiencing.
Honestly, that's a really tough situation you're in; life's unfair. It's like you’re carrying the weight of the world at such a young age?!!! I totally get feeling like you're doing all the comforting without getting any return when needed. But hey, have you tried talking to your mom or maybe even a school counselor? Sometimes people can surprise you with their understanding if given a chance. I get how crap it is when it feels like everyone expects you to be strong and silent but trust me, sometimes letting someone know what’s really up could bring some unexpected comfort; just hang on tight and see where that leads!
I don’t wanna burden my Mom. Even if she doesn’t say it, I know she is tired too
Yeah, I get it :-/ ❤
hey there, i can really feel the intensity of what you're going through; it's heavy when emotions get tangled like that, and it sounds like a lot to bear at such a young age!! i mean, you’re 14 and already feeling the weight of the world on your shoulders?? that’s huge... expressing those feelings openly is really brave; it might not seem like it now, but acknowledging how you feel is a step towards finding relief... you deserve to be heard without fear of judgment or feeling like you're burdening someone else. remember, it's okay to seek support from people who can help lighten that load – no one should carry everything alone. hope you'll find some peace soon.
Yo, I feel you on this one. Life shouldn’t be so damn hard at just 14 when you're still figuring stuff out. 🤯 It sounds like you're taking on way too much for someone your age and it's not fair at all. Have you tried talking to your mom about how you’re feeling? It might give her a clearer picture of what’s going on with you. It's okay to let some of that weight off your shoulders 'cause holding it all in is draining as hell. You deserve to be heard without judgment!! just remember, there’s no shame in needing help or understanding from others! 💪