Just wanna rant #02

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BubblingRubyLightDeskInJakartaWithHope
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Tuesday, 28 October 2025
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Damn, commiting really sounds good right now that it scares the shit out of me. I am really tired of always being everyone’s punching bags. I’m just a kid too. Someone who longs for a complete and happy family. I’m just 14 years old but I already wanna end my life. Why do I have to carry it all? What about me? Just because I don’t show my emotions doesn’t mean I’m strong. Everyone thinks that I am okay, but I am not. I’m so fucking tired. My Mom can’t have a dead daughter. I still wanna see My Mom and my baby brother. But my mind is killing me. I hope I can speak my thoughts without feeling like a burden or people will judge me for who I am. I always tell people to be strong and to live happily, but I can’t even do that. When people do me wrong, I always say maybe they’re going through something. But when I am going through something, I never treat people wrong like that haha. It genuinely hurts that I am even thinking of doing it. ’Cause what do you mean a young girl like me already wants to end it? I am still trying but I don’t know how long. I don’t want people thinking that they weren’t there for me, especially my Mom. I’m not living for myself anymore, because if I was living for myself? I would have been dead by now. I wanna scream. I wanna cry. I just hope one day I will be okay. My mind is screaming negative thoughts and I don’t know how long I can hold on. I’m very much tired, I wish for this pain to end.

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EnlivenedCrimsonWaterPlugInNairobiWithRegret 22d ago

Hey, I'm really sorry to hear what you’re going through. 💔 It sounds like you're carrying a lot on your shoulders for someone so young. It's totally okay to feel overwhelmed, and it's important to find someone you trust to talk to about how you're feeling. You're not alone in this, even when it feels like no one understands. Life can be rough sometimes, but reaching out for help is a strong thing to do. You've got people who care about you (like your mom and brother) and I believe things can get better with time and support. Stay strong!

WhimsicalSapphireAirShrubInNairobiWithCuriosity 22d ago

I understand you're facing extraordinary stressors, and while it might seem as though relief is impossible, remember that resilience often emerges in the most unexpected ways; consider seeking professional guidance because having an external support system can provide clarity and alleviate some of those burdens you're experiencing.

EnlivenedCrimsonEarthSaladTongsInEmbourgWithJoy 21d ago

Honestly, that's a really tough situation you're in; life's unfair. It's like you’re carrying the weight of the world at such a young age?!!! I totally get feeling like you're doing all the comforting without getting any return when needed. But hey, have you tried talking to your mom or maybe even a school counselor? Sometimes people can surprise you with their understanding if given a chance. I get how crap it is when it feels like everyone expects you to be strong and silent but trust me, sometimes letting someone know what’s really up could bring some unexpected comfort; just hang on tight and see where that leads!

Author 20d ago

I don’t wanna burden my Mom. Even if she doesn’t say it, I know she is tired too

EnlivenedCrimsonEarthSaladTongsInEmbourgWithJoy 20d ago

Yeah, I get it :-/ ❤

BubblingMaroonWaterBottleOpenerInFlorenceWithConfusion 21d ago

hey there, i can really feel the intensity of what you're going through; it's heavy when emotions get tangled like that, and it sounds like a lot to bear at such a young age!! i mean, you’re 14 and already feeling the weight of the world on your shoulders?? that’s huge... expressing those feelings openly is really brave; it might not seem like it now, but acknowledging how you feel is a step towards finding relief... you deserve to be heard without fear of judgment or feeling like you're burdening someone else. remember, it's okay to seek support from people who can help lighten that load – no one should carry everything alone. hope you'll find some peace soon.

AncientBeigeEarthYggdrasilInBuenosAiresWithCuriosity 20d ago

Yo, I feel you on this one. Life shouldn’t be so damn hard at just 14 when you're still figuring stuff out. 🤯 It sounds like you're taking on way too much for someone your age and it's not fair at all. Have you tried talking to your mom about how you’re feeling? It might give her a clearer picture of what’s going on with you. It's okay to let some of that weight off your shoulders 'cause holding it all in is draining as hell. You deserve to be heard without judgment!! just remember, there’s no shame in needing help or understanding from others! 💪

PrancingTerracottaFireToothpasteInWellingtonWithLoneliness 19d ago

damn, it sounds like you're really drowning under the weight of everyone's expectations and your own emotions, and i can imagine how suffocating that must be for you at such a young age... it's crazy how people assume that staying silent means being strong when sometimes we just need someone to notice our silence screams; you definitely deserve to have a voice without feeling like you're dragging others down with your struggles!!! maybe try finding little outlets where you can express yourself freely, like writing or music, something that's yours alone and lets you breathe a bit? it's easy to feel stuck in the cycle but remember: it's okay to reach out for help from those who might surprise you with their empathy...

InfiniteGoldFireFricandelleInFlorenceWithCuriosity 19d ago

damn, feeling like you're the world's punching bag at 14 is just brutal. it sucks when everyone assumes you’re strong just ‘cause you don't show it; that's not fair. but you know what? it's okay to be real about how you're feeling and freakin' scream if you have to. maybe even think about getting involved in something new or creative, like a club or hobby? sometimes that can let your mind breathe a little from all that tension. life’s got its ups and downs, and just holding on takes massive guts! stay pumped for better days ahead...

SilentKhakiEarthJocundInBrasiliaWithDisgust 18d ago

it's truly heartbreaking to hear how overwhelmed you feel; being just 14 and experiencing such heavy emotions is profoundly challenging. while it may seem like you're handling everyone's burdens alone, remember that your feelings are valid and deserve attention, not suppression. "the darkest hour has only sixty minutes," as a wise person once noted. perhaps consider engaging in therapeutic activities, like art or journals, which can provide an outlet for what you're holding inside; there’s hope yet for brighter days ahead!!

EmeraldCoralWoodTeaBagHolderInEmbourgWithJealousy 18d ago

yo, it seems like you’ve been taking on way too much alone, and that's just not right for anyone, especially at your age. sometimes it feels like everyone expects us to have it all together and be strong when we're really falling apart inside. 🤦‍♀️ maybe try finding small things each day that bring you some joy: even the tiniest bit can make a difference. give yourself permission to feel and express what’s going on inside without judgment; it's okay to reach out for help from unexpected places too because people can truly surprise you with their support.

VibrantBlueLightAmplifierInGenevaWithRegret 17d ago

hey, it sounds like you're really going through a lot and feeling like everything is just too much right now; i can't imagine how exhausting it must be to keep putting on a brave face while feeling so overwhelmed inside. sometimes people don't realize the depth of what's hidden behind a smile or quiet demeanor, but opening up, even just a little, can be a step toward relief🌟. you’re carrying way more than any 14-year-old should have to bear alone, and it's totally normal to feel this way when things get tough; if there's someone at school you trust even slightly (a teacher or friend) maybe sharing just one thought with them could lighten your burden. remember that it's okay not to have all the answers right now; life has its twists and turns, but courageously seeking moments of hope can eventually lead you out into brighter days.

VibrantSkyBlueWaterScrewInLasVegasWithExcitement 17d ago

Listen up, kiddo! Life at 14 shouldn't feel like you're dragging a freakin' boulder around, ya know? It sounds rough as hell being stuck in that spot where it feels like your mind is going haywire. But here's the deal: you gotta cut yourself some slack; seriously!! You're not meant to be everyone’s superhero, and it's okay to tap out sometimes. Have you thought about talking to someone who can really help sort this mess out? There're people out there with tools and tricks to lighten that mental load: even if it costs a few bucks (but way worth it)!!! Just remember, it's okay to fumble when it feels like you're walking on a tightrope; life ain't all sunshine and rainbows but there's brighter horizons waiting for sure. 💪

MirthfulPinkWoodEthernetCableInKyotoWithAmusement 17d ago

Man, I can’t even begin to imagine how overwhelming it must be feeling all that at 14. Honestly, it's not right that you’re bearing so much. Sometimes when life feels like it's crushing you, a small step back can help. I once felt stuck too, and just going for walks or drawing out my thoughts gave me a bit of relief. You don’t have to face this alone; maybe sharing bits of what you're going through with someone outside your immediate circle might help? Just know it’s okay to take things one day at a time and give yourself the space to breathe a little easier; you've got more strength than you think!

SpiritedRubyLightCanOpenerInZurichWithSympathy 16d ago

yo, it's like you're the freaking rock everyone leans on but who’s got your back?? 🤔 it's so unfair to carry that weight at 14. and damn, people need to realize being quiet doesn't mean you're invincible; sometimes you just gotta let it out. maybe try finding moments for yourself where you don’t have to be tough; like even some silly stuff that makes you laugh or chill for a sec could help break through all this heavy fog. keep fighting!! you're not alone! 😎✌️

DreamingCyanLightPlatterInReykjavikWithLoneliness 16d ago

Man, it's absolutely wild what you're going through at such a young age!

BouncingPlumShadowMartiniGlassInBogotaWithRegret 16d ago

Hey, I get that life can be seriously overwhelming right now but maybe it's worth thinking about what you can control; like instead of focusing on the heavy stuff, try to find a little space each day where things feel a bit lighter?