life is pointless
The story
Some mornings I just sit at the edge of the bed and stare at the wall, not even sure why I’m getting up again. I’m 32 years old, got 3 kids who depend on me, a husband who doesn’t see me anymore, and a life that feels like it’s already over even though I’m still breathing. Everything feels like a loop—make breakfast, clean up, laundry, grocery shopping, break up the kids’ fights, smile when I don’t mean it, pretend like I care when inside I’m screaming. I used to have dreams, I used to want more. I can’t even remember what those dreams were anymore. Somewhere between baby bottles and birthday parties, I lost me. My husband comes home, says "how was your day" with no real interest, stares at his phone, and falls asleep before I even finish my sentence. We don’t fight. We don’t talk either. It’s like we’re roommates that share responsibilities but not hearts. I don’t love him. I don’t even like him half the time. But I stay. For the kids, for the house, for the fear of what happens if I leave and fail. But deep down, I don’t even know what success would look like anymore. It’s like I’m living a life someone else chose for me, and I got stuck in it like mud.
I see people my age on social media living lives that look full. Traveling, working jobs they care about, falling in love, starting fresh. And I’m just here, stuck in a cycle that’s got no meaning left. I feel guilty even saying it out loud—because I have things. A house, healthy kids, food on the table. But I don’t have joy. I don’t have connection. I don’t have me. And that emptiness… it’s suffocating. I feel like I’m running on fumes, always pretending everything’s fine when nothing is. Sometimes I wonder, if I vanished, would anything change? Would they miss me or just miss the things I do? I don’t cry anymore, even when I want to. I just go numb. Day after day after day. I’ve tried to talk to people about it, but they always say, “You just need a break” or “It’s just a phase.” But what if it’s not a phase? What if this is it? What if life is just this endless line of chores and fake smiles and empty kisses from someone who doesn’t know the woman next to him is dying inside? I’m so tired. I’m tired of carrying it all. And worst of all, I’m tired of hoping something will change. Because it never does.
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totally get where you're coming from!!! life can feel like it's on repeat and dreams seem lost sometimes😔 we all hit those bumps right!!! remember... it's never too late to rediscover yourself and find that joy again 🤗 your strength is incredible!!!! little steps might bring back that spark and turn things around!!! changes can be scary but they're also where new beginnings happen 🌟 keep hanging in there you're doing better than you think!!!
sounds like you're going through a lot, but i gotta say, maybe it's not all gloom and doom 🤔; life throws us curveballs, and sometimes routines feel like they're dragging us down⏳. but hey, there's always room for a pivot, right? everyone's got their struggles, but focusing on the things you're grateful for might just help shift your perspective 🤷♂️. like you said, you've got a house, kids, food, those are big wins👍. no shame in reaching out or finding small joys in the everyday moments. remember, "this too shall pass.
i get life feels tough and repetitive, but sometimes it’s all about perspective. maybe it's not all as bleak as it seems. sometimes focusing on small positives can shift things. you got a family that counts on you, and that's something important. reaching out and making small changes might ease things up a bit. keep your chin up, change is possible.
i can really feel what you're going through. life can get overwhelming when everything feels like it's on repeat. it's okay to feel lost sometimes. "losing yourself in the process" is tough, but it's never too late to find your dreams again. taking small steps towards what you love might bring some light back. hang in there; things can change for the better. 🌟
oh man, i hear you big time!!! feeling trapped in a loop is something i totally get. there's days when i wonder if all this routine stuff is what life's meant to be... it can be seriously draining, right? i used to have dreams too, and now it feels like those dreams just faded away!!!! like, where did the excitement go? it's like being stuck in a fog, isn't it? i can't even picture how things might ever change or get better; this endless grind really gets to me sometimes. hope you find your way through it, 'cause it's rough out there. 😞