If Someone Already Read Horrible Emotional Attachment
The story
[Translated from Spanish. Reminder: IIWIARS is English only]
Here I Go Again haha. I told you how I fell in love with a man much older than me who showed me high expectations. He was attentive, loving, kind, everything a woman wants.
As time went on, he got what he wanted, which was to win me over, and he began to show disinterest in me.
During the process, I saw many red flags, and in that outburst, I recounted how bad it felt when he didn't talk to me. I couldn't leave him because every time I tried, it was a sadness that killed me inside, and I wasn't able to stay in bed for days, feeling very bad.
Obviously, I wasn't going to die, but it's something you don't know how to handle. Sadness, no matter how much you try to deceive yourself, exists in the chest, in the head. Even those who've been through it know that it's also felt in the heart.
I didn't know what to do to end it because the relationship continued, but I was having a hard time. I decided to talk about it, and he told me in simple, blunt words that he didn't have any feelings for me and that he just wanted to have a good time. I understood everything perfectly. What I'm thinking is that there will be a door of feelings, showing affection and love, knowing that they will leave the person later.
It doesn't matter, maybe I idealized too much. I was confused, but what all this leads me to are some questions:
Why does it hurt so much? Life goes on.
Why so much dependence on someone who doesn't show interest?
I saw my mother die with my own eyes, and this hurts me more?
I came to the conclusion that my father abandoned me when I was young. My mother, even though I was with her until the last moment, left me at a train station and left me for 14 years. My grandmother kicked me out when I asked for shelter because I was homeless!
I became a mother for the first time, and my father left me alone during the entire pregnancy and childbirth.
I wanted to start a family, but he went with another family.
My pain is the abandonment I've always suffered and I can't get over it because I met this person who gave me all the affection I never received, and I didn't want to lose her.
Obviously, throughout my horrible life, I had addiction problems, and because of this, I've gone back to using drugs almost every day. Simply put, I want to die because I fell back into a job I had, and now it's worse. If I don't have drugs, I go crazy, my body shakes, and I become violent.
The End
P.S.: Never abandon anyone. Be clear, show love, but clearly. And if you're a man, don't abandon your children. Damn you.
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It sounds like you've been through a lot, and I can't imagine how difficult it must be to process all that pain 💔; could there be ways to find strength or grounding from within, even when external support seems elusive?
dang, it's rough hearing how abandonment has shaped so much of your life. you’re right though, those early experiences stick with us and make it harder to trust. why do we cling to people who show us a glimpse of love even when they end up hurting us? maybe because we're holding onto hope that it'll fill that void we've had for too long. been there myself, looking for comfort where it’s not really available, and yeah, it messes with your head big time!!! hoping you find some peace as you work through all this stuff...
It's heartbreaking to see how past experiences shape our current relationships and affect how we perceive love. It seems like you felt a connection because this person temporarily filled a deep emotional void, even if it wasn't sustainable. I think it's vital to find ways to strengthen your self-worth independently; maybe focusing on healing yourself first could bring some clarity and peace!!! It's not an easy journey, but acknowledging the root issues is a crucial step forward.
wow, this story is a rollercoaster, and i get it hurts bad, but damn, life does go on!! it's messed up how much someone can affect us when they're not worth it. why give so much power to a person who treats you like dirt? maybe it's time to focus on yourself instead of chasing people who don't care. there's hope in finding your own freedom from all the crap you've been handed; turn that anger to drive change!!!
wow, i can totally feel the weight of everything you’ve been through, and it's no wonder you're grappling with all this now. sometimes it feels like every abandonment is just adding another layer to an already heavy burden. but honestly, i think recognizing these patterns and that cycle of pain is a step towards breaking free from it 💔. have you ever thought about seeking out support groups or therapy? sometimes talking with people who've walked similar paths can be a game-changer. anyway, keep hanging in there; life's thrown some serious curveballs your way, but there's always hope for brighter days ahead!
Man, it sounds like you've been through the wringer, for real! 💔 You know what they say, "When life gives you lemons..." but sometimes it just feels like life's throwing rocks instead. I totally get why you'd feel more hurt by a breakup than seeing someone pass—it’s crazy how the heart works in mysterious ways and that longing for love can really mess with our heads!!! 🙃 Your story makes me think of this saying: "Don't cling to a mistake just because you spent a lot of time making it." It might be worth taking little steps forward, focusing on things that bring joy even if they seem small right now. Also, if there are any local support groups or services you could reach out to, maybe they'd offer some good vibes and direction. Keep your chin up; sometimes brighter days are just around the corner! 🌞
it's tough reading this, you know? life can really throw some nasty stuff our way. 😔 but remember, everyone faces struggles and it’s okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes. maybe it's worth focusing on what makes you happy or gives you peace, even small things. there's often more strength within us than we think; don't lose sight of that!
man, the brutal truth is that life's a mixed bag, and yeah, it hurts like hell when you feel abandoned again and again; but relying on someone else to fix those cracks ain't gonna cut it long-term.
it's tough to read about everything you've faced, and it sounds like the cycle of abandonment has left deep scars. while it's understandable to feel drawn to someone who shows you affection, maybe part of healing lies in creating a solid foundation for yourself first. there's power in self-discovery and learning what truly makes you happy without external validation. figuring out who you are beyond those painful experiences could help break the cycle and open doors to healthier relationships in the future.😊
Man, that's a heavy load you've been carrying around, and it's understandable why it hurts so damn much. Sometimes we fall for people who seem to offer all the things we've missed in life; but when they turn out to be different than expected, it cuts deep. It's like every past wound gets ripped open again; Remember you're not alone in this struggle though; there are folks out there who've been through similar stuff and found ways to heal. Maybe try connecting with them or finding activities that help ground you when things get tough.
hey, man, i know life feels like a never-ending uphill battle right now, but sometimes the hardest times teach us what we really need to learn; maybe it's about finding balance between accepting the past and pushing forward.
Your story really hits hard, and it's clear you've been dealt some incredibly tough cards over the years. It's so understandable why a part of you clings to that early affection as it filled those voids left by past abandonment. But what stands out most is recognizing how these wounds have influenced your responses today—acknowledging this could be vital for healing. Ever considered looking into support systems or even exploring therapy? Sometimes untangling that deep-rooted pain with someone who gets it can help redefine your connections and not only provide comfort but possibly guide you towards a healthier path. Remember, trying to nurture yourself amidst all these challenges isn't selfish—it's essential for gradually building a life where you truly feel secure and valued.
it's undeniable that your experiences have been extraordinarily challenging, and the appeal of those who offer fleeting affection is often a siren's call for the emotionally bereft. it's critical to recognize here that reliance on external relationships for healing is inherently precarious. "it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves," as shakespeare wrote; this highlights the importance of internal resilience. i would suggest considering professional help to address addiction—it's a tough battle alone, and guidance could be pivotal. amidst chaos, constructing personal stability can be a transformative journey towards genuine contentment.
hey, wow, your story really hits deep. seems like there's been way too much weight on your shoulders for such a long time. it's almost like life kept handing you the short end of the stick, and all that abandonment just built up over time; ever hear that saying "hurt people hurt people"? it means those who've been hurt often carry the pain forward in ways they don't even realize; maybe what you're experiencing now is a legacy of all that unfinished business from the past. not saying it's easy to shake off or anything, but have you thought about finding some creative outlet to channel all this emotional energy? like writing or art or something—anything that lets you spill out what words can't always express. sometimes a little self-expression can be an unexpected lifeline when everything else feels out of reach;.