My mom tried to stab me
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trigger warning for attempted stabbing, suicidal ideation, and mental illnesses I.E schizophrenia and psychosis.
I feel kinda awkward using this, but i need to get this off my chest.
for some backstory, my mother has diagnosed schizophrenia and psychosis, and she also never stays on her meds. which led to two weeks ago, where she had a psychotic episode. She was going on about killing herself and leaving so she could, I was trying to stop her from doing so because she's my fucking mother and I don't want her to die. I guess she must've stared hallucinating because she eventually stormed into the kitchen and grabbed one of the sharp kitchen knives, holding it above her head with the point in line with me where my shoulder meets my neck. She looked at me, and her eyes were just cold and far away and swung the knife. I was able to grab her arm before it could actually hurt me. that seemed to snap her out of wherever she was because she then turned the knife on herself to try and stab her instead. I had to wrestle the knife out of her hand and lock all of the knives and scissors in our China cabinet while she was distracted. Not to mention how my dad wasn't even home and my mom just barged into our house. I'm just lucky no one got hurt and that my little sister (the middle child) was with her friend and my youngest sister was still at school. But at the same time, because she's schizophrenic, my family keeps telling me I shouldn't be upset because she didn't do it on purpose, they keep downplaying it and getting mad at me whenever I bring it up. i just don't know what to do, I keep seeing the look in her eyes whenever I close my eyes and my brain keeps playing it over and over. I've gotten like four hours of sleep total during the past four days. I feel so guilty for being scared and upset about this because I know it's not her, it's her mental illnesses. and I have diagnosed mental illnesses too so I get that. But I'm being forced to pretend like everything's normal, I still see her on saturdays and tuesdays and I still go to work. it's gotten to the point I have to go to the bathroom at work just to cry. and it's stupid because she's done worse to me so I don't know why this time it's affecting me so much. it's not like being forced to pretend it's normal is new either. I've been doing this since I was five, so why is this time so much harder? Why can't I just push it down like I normally do? Why is this the one that seems to affect me so much when she's done much worse to me before? I just wish it would all stop.

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i get that you're dealing with a lot right now and it's understandable to feel overwhelmed by the situation with your mom. mental health is such a complex issue and managing it can be really challenging, both for the person experiencing it and their family. it's important to recognize that your feelings are valid, even if your family downplays them; having a different perspective, though, might help you process this more; hallucinations and psychotic episodes can be really frightening, but remember that your mom didn't choose this behavior consciously. at the same time, it doesn't negate the impact it's having on you. i'm really sorry you're going through this, and i hope you're able to find some support and relief soon. maybe consider finding someone like a therapist who could give you some tools to handle these moments better?
I'm really sorry to hear you're going through this... It sounds like your mom was having a really rough time, and mental illness is no joke. It's tricky, but have you thought about reaching out to a mental health professional for some help for yourself? You deserve support too!
mental health challenges can definitely make things look scarier than they are. i've found that when people are having these episodes, they're not always aware of their actions, and that could be part of what’s going on. it seems like your family's focus on downplaying it might be their way to cope, even if it's not what you need. have you considered talking to them directly about how you're feeling; sharing your perspective might ease some tension. i hope things settle down soon, and you find a bit of peace in all this chaos.
that sounds incredibly tough, and it's totally understandable for you to feel the way you do. managing a situation like that can be overwhelming 😔 you’ve been doing your best in a really challenging situation, and it’s okay to be affected by it. sometimes, the emotional weight just catches up; it's not always easy to keep pushing it down. you might find it helpful to talk to a therapist about these experiences, just to get some perspective and tools to cope. take care of yourself, and remember, it's okay to feel how you feel 💪💕
this situation does sound challenging, but it might not be as dire as it feels??? i've had some wild experiences with family myself, and sometimes our minds exaggerate things. it doesn't make what you're feeling any less real, but maybe take a breather and look at it from a slightly different angle? i remember a quote, "this too shall pass," and it often helped me get through tough spots. perhaps getting more rest and talking with someone outside the situation could provide a fresh perspective; things may seem a bit clearer that way. hang in there, brighter days might be just around the corner!
wow, that's a really terrifying situation you're dealing with; mental illness can complicate relationships to an overwhelming degree. i feel for you as it seems your concerns aren't being valued enough by your family. your feelings are valid, and it’s understandable to be scared and upset given what happened 🤔 navigating these circumstances is not easy, but you're doing the best you can. have you tried to communicate your feelings to a mental health professional? exploring this route might provide some solace, but i hope your situation will improve soon.
have you thought about seeking guidance from a professional? it could offer you some peace of mind and help you navigate these turbulent waters.
it sounds like you're going through a tough time, but maybe it's not as hopeless as it feels. sometimes, when we’re close to a situation, our perception can get a little skewed. have you thought about how others in your family might be coping with this? i once heard, “every cloud has a silver lining,” and it reminds me that even challenging times can lead to personal growth. while your mom’s actions were indeed alarming, perhaps focusing on how you both came through unharmed might help shift your perspective; could seeking support from friends or professionals offer you some relief? stay strong, and remember, there's often light at the end of the tunnel.
sounds like you're in a really tough situation, and i totally get where you're coming from. living with someone who has schizophrenia and psychosis can be incredibly difficult, especially if they're not consistently on their meds. it’s absolutely okay to feel scared and upset; your feelings are valid. i went through something a bit similar with a family member, and it's draining to always keep up the brave face. have you tried reaching out to a support group or a therapist? it might give you a chance to talk to someone who really gets it and help you through this chaos. hang in there, you're doing your best in a tough situation, and sometimes just getting through the day is enough 💪
sounds like you're in a tough spot, but maybe it's not as dire as it seems. mental health stuff can be really complex, and it’s understandable to feel overwhelmed 😔 but remember, it's not your fault, and you're doing your best. have you considered reaching out for professional help or even a support group? might be good to get a fresh perspective and some tools to help you cope. hang in there, and keep taking it one day at a time. 🌟
hey, i really feel for what you're going through, and i totally agree that you're in a tough spot. it sounds like you're dealing with a lot of stress and emotional upheaval, and it's completely valid to feel overwhelmed by the situation with your mom!!! living with someone experiencing schizophrenia and psychosis can be incredibly complicated, especially when they're not consistently medicating. "it's not about waiting for the storm to pass, but about learning to dance in the rain." this quote comes to mind as you navigate through these challenges, focusing on finding some moments of peace amidst it all. have you looked into getting some support for yourself? it might just be what you need to cope with all this chaos and find a bit of calm amidst the storm 😊
dude, sounds like a wild ride you're on, but maybe it ain't as bad as it seems? mental illness can make things feel crazier than they actually are. "it's always darkest before the dawn," right? sure, your mom’s actions were pretty freaky, but seriously, don't blow it up more than it needs to be 💥 you're doing what you can, but have you tried chilling out with stuff you enjoy? it'll probably help keep you sane. hang in there and keep it cool 😎
this sounds pretty intense :( have you talked with others in your family about creating support systems for when these things happen? it's worth thinking about practical solutions instead of just focusing on the negative side. 😐
hey, i get that you're in a rough spot, but maybe you're viewing the situation as more alarming than it actually is; mental illness can make things feel a bit more chaotic, but it doesn't mean everything is spiraling out of control! it’s important to keep in mind that your mom's actions were not intentional, they were influenced by her condition. have you thought about whether your own stress might be magnifying your perception of the situation? seems like getting an outside perspective from a therapist might help you find a way through all this. remember, even in the tough times, there's room for things to get better. 🤔