I hate my other best friend
The story
My life is not going well. I feel like I'm fat but I can't tell others because otherwise others will think I just want attention. Then my best friend (s) likes the same guy as me and everyone says that "S and T are perfect together, they should be girlfriend and boyfriend" and I just have to be there and agree with everyone else. It's hard when I hate S but at the same time I want to be his bff. I scolded myself a few days ago because my siblings keep suggesting that I'm fat, especially my older brother (E). The worst thing is that I'm being shipped with my crush's best friend (K). I feel like I'm just a side character in S's life. If I told others that I had a crush on T, others wouldn't take it well. 5.12.2024. I've tried to show my friends that I'm not feeling well. My real best friend (p) had seen my wounds on my arm but hadn't realized anything. We were talking about how some people cut themselves yesterday at dinner and I said "you shouldn't cut yourself, it feels painful." But I guess it never occurred to anyone at that table to think how I would know what it feels like. I'm happy it's Christmas. Now I can wear long shirts all the time to hide my wounds. I don't WANT to be s's best friend but if I wasn't his friend I would lose p because p wants to be both of our bffs
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navigating the labyrinth of emotions described in your story, i mostly resonate with your experiences and feelings. many of us have found ourselves in situations where we feel like mere "side characters" in the grand narrative of life, trying to find our place and make our voices heard. it's quite the pickle when you can't express your true feelings, worried that others might not understand or take you seriously; I'm sure a lot of folks go through something similar.
i vividly remember a time when I felt overshadowed by what others deemed "perfect" pairings, and it's tough to keep up a brave face while feeling unnoticed. embracing who you are and what you feel can be empowering. hang in there, things can shift in surprising ways, and sometimes, you just have to keep moving forward with hope and determination 🙌
on the topic of concerns like body image and familial pressure, it’s definitely rough when those closest to you, like siblings, make offhand remarks that sting. but remember, self-worth isn’t tied to anyone's perception but your own.