I know it might be stupid, but I personally care a lot and think they matter a lot in my life if they come into my life, and if they get into my circle.

First of all... Its about online friendship haha... I know they are very easy to loose, but I dont know, this time, its quite hard to get over it.

I met him in a game called whiteout survival which is really toxic in my opinion xD

We were, and we are still in the same alliance. We became friends like that.

We had that very close friendgroup happening there, and we played a lot of games outside of whiteout survival.

League of legends, goose goose duck, sometimes just fun vc night, etc.

They were all in a same country, I live in the other side of the world. So we got some timezone issues.

But him, he works at night, so when hes off work, then its also evening for me.

So we used to play a lot of games together. almost every night, after work, till 6am when we were in a flow xD

mayhem aram night, palworld, terraria, portal,... we went through a lot of games.

For some months.

It was funny days. haha maybe my sleep schedule was not happy with it, but it was indeed some great time.

Someday he came in, and told me that his coworker quit. So he had some hard days doing his work too.

And we played more and more less together, cause he was tired.

it has almost been a month now. since we played something together.

I dont know if he has some time now, or its him just being very busy.

And of course, like I always do... I started overthinking.

thinking things like:

Did I annoy him too much?

explanation: He mocks me a lot so I take it as a joke and mock and annoy him too..lol And I sing while vc sometimes... rip.

so yeah...

usually it was him asking after his work if im ready or down for some games.. and Id wait for that msg.

because I have no idea if hes back home or like that because he has his discord status as offline.. rip

and mine online so yea

and idek, idek if he still wants to play game and stuff like that

im just confused, missing those gaming nights, all those mockerys etc...

Our state in whiteout survival has been shaking, which made us think about quitting. I asked him one day about his opinion in this situatuion, and he said he would quit. I told him I would too. (at that time) But we are still there, active, working together, and I dont really want to, until my friends quit. (Then I really dont have any reasons to play it anymore...) but yeah. As he is busy, he is still playing but comes in game like once a day or so.

We wont even have common stuff anymore which held us together, Im afraid if im loosing this friendship.

I got his discord and chat, and I know he would answer me, but we dont really dm unless its about games. yeah.

Im confused, missing him and those games, and I just dont know.. I dont know!! lmao

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