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I feel so selfish whenever I do feel and have thoughts like these, however, I just feel like no one truly understands me. Maybe it's because I've never felt comfortable enough to really be myself, but sometimes I just feel like I'm the odd one out. I've never had those types of friendships where we would call or hang out outside of school. Maybe it's self-centeredness, but I always feel like a second friend or just a back-up. Never as the priority. Yes, I do have friends, but I just don't think our conversations flow smoothly how others do. Or it might just be that we don't have the same interests. I envy friendships where it's easygoing and they can go back-and-forth. Or just understanding each other. I always smile and try to keep the mood light during the school day, but deep down, I feel empty, like what's my purpose in life? Do I even exist in other people's worlds? Do people like me? Or think of me? I get these feelings of a heart dropping or panging occasionally, and I don't know where it comes from, maybe just a sudden wave of sadness. Sometimes I want to hit myself for having these thoughts because I should be grateful for my current friends and family, but I really don't know. I would consider myself happy, but maybe there's a lack of fulfillment somewhere in my life? This rant is probably meaningless, but I just wanted somewhere to vent. Thanks.
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I totally resonate with what you've shared. I used to have that same feeling of being just a 'backup' and it weighs heavy. It's kind of like being a perpetual understudy in your own social life.
Sometimes I think we all just trudge along in this existential fog. I've experienced those pangs of sadness too; it's almost like your heart's a reluctant participant in a relentless circuit. I remember during my uni days, always wondering if I truly clicked with people or if I was just part of the background noise. Connection feels so elusive sometimes. 🤔 But maybe it's part of a larger narrative we all grapple with, seeking fulfillment beyond the superficial.
gotta say i don't really see it the same way. life ain't always about being the "priority" in friendships, right; remember, "it's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain" 🌟
you're definitely in other people's worlds even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes. putting yourself out there more might help make those connections flow better. embrace what you’ve got, it’s not all bleak and there's a brighter side to look towards.
I kinda see things differently... 😊 being the "odd one out" sometimes just means you're unique and that's not a bad gig! "variety's the spice of life," as the saying goes; like in my circles, there's always been a mix of vibes and interests, and it's what keeps things dynamic and engaging... it's important to recognize that even if conversations don't flow smoothly, it can be a chance for cognitive diversity, right??? 🧠 feeling like a back-up might be tough, but it also allows you to create space for unexpected opportunities and experiences... i once felt the same at work but realized, alignment comes with time, patience, and the right connections forming organically... sometimes it's about letting life unfold rather than trying to fit it all into the perfect narrative... 🌈 hang in there!
I must admit, your feelings resonate with me deeply, as they touch upon a universal experience that many of us face 😟 there have been numerous occasions in my own life where i've felt like a supporting character rather than the star of the show, and it's a hard pill to swallow you know, when the conversations just don't flow right it feels like you're speaking a different language altogether 😕 perhaps it's a misalignment of vibes or interests which leaves one feeling on the outskirts looking in i mean i've always wanted that seamless back-and-forth with friends but instead i'm met with awkward pauses or forced interactions but maybe it's just part of life's unpredictable journey and it makes me doubt if those connections we seek are ever truly attainable sometimes it feels like we're all just wandering around trying to find where we truly belong and it's tough to stay optimistic in times like these but hang in there because you're not alone in feeling this way and who knows what the future might bring maybe connection is just around the corner 🕒