Depression sucks...
The story
I don’t know how people do it. Like, just live without constantly feeling like they’re behind on everything. I spent years studying, working my ass off to get a degree, telling myself it would all be worth it in the end. But now that I’m finally starting my career, I feel like I missed everything else. I see people my age who are already settled, married, some even have kids, and here I am—just getting started, but already exhausted. I don’t even know if I made the right choices anymore. I wanted this, right? A good job, stability, a future. But what’s the point if I have no one to share it with? Every day, I wake up, go to work, come home, eat alone, sleep, and do it all over again. And yeah, I know, “It takes time,” “You’re still young,” blah blah blah. But when does it actually start feeling good? When does it stop feeling like I’m just surviving instead of living?
The worst part is, I want a family. I want love, I want kids, I want a home filled with something real. But it feels like an impossible dream now. Dating is a joke. Either guys don’t take me seriously, or they’re already settled with someone else. And then there’s the career part—if I do find love, if I do get pregnant, what happens to my job? I worked too hard to lose everything just because I want a family. But I also don’t want to wake up at 45 and realize I waited too long, that I let my best years slip away because I was too scared to make a move. I see women balancing it all, and I wonder how the hell they do it. I can barely keep myself together, let alone raise a whole child. And what if it never happens? What if I really do end up alone forever? No husband, no kids, just a job that doesn’t care if I exist outside of my work email. The thought of that keeps me up at night, makes my chest feel tight, makes me wonder if this is just how life is supposed to be for me. And if it is? Then depression sucks.
And what makes it worse? The fact that no one really gets it. People say “just put yourself out there” like it’s that easy, like I can magically force myself to meet the right person when I barely even have the energy to get through the day. They tell me to “enjoy being single”, but what if I don’t? What if I don’t want to spend my weekends third-wheeling my married friends or pretending to have fun at social events just to feel like I belong somewhere? I keep scrolling through pictures of people my age, smiling with their babies, celebrating anniversaries, moving forward in life, while I feel completely stuck. And the worst part is, I don’t even know how to fix it. I can’t just quit my job to chase love, and I can’t force love to happen just because I want it to. So what am I supposed to do? Just wait? Just keep hoping something changes while I feel like I’m running out of time? Because right now, it feels like no matter what I do, I’m always too late for everything that actually matters.
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i thoroughly empathize with the sentiments expressed in the narrative, as it captures the existential challenges and societal pressures ubiquitous in contemporary professional spheres; navigating these complexities can indeed lead to profound introspection and self-doubt. the continuous quest for equilibrium between career advancement and personal fulfillment is a prevalent dilemma, as many individuals strive to achieve a harmonious synergy between their professional aspirations and personal desires. it is reassuring to acknowledge that while the obstacles may seem insurmountable at times, there is an inherent resilience and adaptability within individuals that can guide them through such turbulent periods. it is imperative to maintain a positive outlook, as the journey to self-discovery and fulfillment, albeit arduous, often results in growth and enlightenment!!! understanding that these feelings of being overwhelmed are temporary and can transform into motivation is vital. ultimately, perseverance and adaptability can pave the way for a more fulfilling and balanced existence, instilling hope that the pursuit of both career success and personal satisfaction is not only conceivable, but attainable.
you sound way too caught up in comparisons and that's a one-way ticket to nowhere; life's not a competition, and thinking it is will drive you nuts. you're acting like you're the only one juggling career and wanting more, but newsflash, everyone's got their own battles, and most just deal with it without whining. yeah, it's tough, but sitting around feeling sorry for yourself doesn't help. it's about taking proactive steps and getting out of that funk instead of waiting around for life to magically get better. people make it work with careers and families all the time, so maybe take a page from their book and stop feeling like the world owes you a perfect setup. just saying, a little perspective and a lot less complaining would do wonders for you!!! 🤷♂️
Hey, I get it, but maybe you’re being a bit too hard on yourself. 🤔 Life’s full of ups and downs, and honestly, everyone’s got stuff they’re juggling. Relationships and careers don’t come easy for anyone, and stressing about it doesn’t really help.
Yeah, finding the right balance is tricky, but that’s life—it’s never totally smooth sailing. 🏄♀️ Try not to focus too much on what you think you’re missing out on. Things don’t usually all line up perfectly, and that’s okay.
Sometimes, you just gotta go with the flow and see where it takes you, ‘cause worrying too much just holds you back. You know what I mean?
i completely resonate with your situation, as it captures the essence of today's multifaceted challenges regarding career and personal life integration. it's like you're constantly running a race that never seems to end, and at times, i find myself in a similar predicament. the pressure to achieve professional success while simultaneously longing for personal fulfillment is an experience many of us share. navigating these contexts can be daunting, as i often feel like i'm on a tightrope, trying to maintain equilibrium without losing my balance. it’s comforting to know that these feelings are shared by others; perhaps it signifies that there is a collective journey towards finding harmony. trusting that things have a way of working out over time is something i hold onto, and i hope you find that the pursuit of balance brings with it moments of unexpected joy and growth. hang in there; patience and perseverance might just be our greatest allies in this journey. 😊
i get what you're saying, and you're right about the struggle between career and personal life. it's a tough balancing act, for sure. feels like society expects us to have it all sorted out, but that's rarely the case. career paths can be exhausting, and finding time for everything else seems impossible sometimes. however, i think focusing too much on what others are doing or comparing situations might make things seem worse. maybe it’s about finding what's really important to you and taking small steps toward it. that's easier said than done, i know, but it could help. life is never as straightforward as we hope. it could be more about the journey than the destination. 🤔