Sa/ra by bfs best friend
The story
I need advice, and I’m going to explain this as clearly and honestly as I can.
Over a year ago, I was sexually assaulted and coerced and pressured into sex by my boyfriend’s best friend. I was terrified. I felt ashamed, scared I wouldn’t be believed, and scared of what would happen if I told the full truth at the time he was my landlords son. When my boyfriend confronted me about it after the best friends mom said me and him hooked up, I panicked and initially denied it. I was scared of losing everything. Later, I told him the truth — that it wasn’t cheating, that I was assaulted — but by then the damage was already done in his mind.
Part of why I was so afraid to speak up was the living situation I was in at the time. I was in an environment where I didn’t feel fully safe or secure, and I genuinely believed that if I caused “drama” or accused someone, it would blow everything up. I had already experienced moments where, when I tried to say I was uncomfortable or being treated poorly, it got brushed off. There were multiple situations that made me feel unsafe. He had harassed me for a week and a half asking for pictures and videos of me personally. And kept texting me and pushing for me to do things with him until I finally even because I didn't think I could say no. But before the harassment started, we were watching a show. This is the first time he was being friendly with me. He was always hostile towards me and I'd fallen asleep and I remember waking up to him touching me and I remember hearing and making noises and I didn't know what to do or how to say what happened and I froze because that's his best friend and my landlord's son and I didn't know what to do because of the many situations I was in. I didn't think I could speak up because I didn't know if anyone would actually believe me.
One of them was when his best friend threw a glass bottle next to my head. It exploded in my face and glass shards hit me and covered my bed. My boyfriend was sitting right in front of me when it happened. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t react. His best friend didn’t apologize. He just started cleaning up the glass like nothing happened — while I was sitting there in shock after being hit in the face with shattered glass. Moments like that taught me that speaking up didn’t change anything. It made me feel small and unprotected.
I felt like if I said no too strongly, or accused him outright, I wouldn’t be believed. I felt like I could be blamed. I was scared of retaliation. I was scared of losing where I was staying. Anytime something happened that the best friend didn't like the next day I was getting threatened to get kicked out and at the time I had nowhere else to go. I couldn't afford a place and I wasn't in contact with my family at all so I felt like I couldn't do anything I was scared of being painted as the problem. So I froze. And freezing is not the same as consenting — but fear doesn’t always look loud.
Recently, everything exploded. He said I crossed boundaries by texting him repeatedly after he said he didn’t want to talk, and by reaching out to his manager who I thought was a friend of mine when I was panicking after being ignored for three days. He told me we were completely done. He blocked me on everything. He said what hurt him most was that I didn’t tell the truth immediately when he first confronted me.
At the same time, he says he still loves me but can’t be with me. He told someone else that blocking me would “help me,” and that the way I am now would only “ruin” me. He believes I cheated. I did not. I was raped. Another girl was too. He believes her, but he doesn’t believe me.
Now I’m left feeling abandoned, confused, and questioning everything. We were together for six years. Six years of history, memories, and building a life. And it ended with me being blocked and shut out without a real conversation.
To make everything harder, I recently found out I’m pregnant. I’m waiting on blood work to confirm, but tests have come back positive. He doesn’t know. He has me blocked and has made it clear he doesn’t plan on unblocking me.
I’m not posting this to attack anyone. I’m posting because I genuinely don’t know what to do next. I don’t know how to process losing someone I loved while also carrying the weight of being assaulted and not believed. I don’t know how to move forward with the pregnancy situation if it’s confirmed. I don’t know how to heal from being told I crossed boundaries when I was spiraling and hurting.
If anyone has been through something similar — being assaulted and not believed, losing a long-term relationship this way, or navigating a pregnancy in the middle of emotional chaos — I would really appreciate advice.
Please be kind. I’m trying to hold myself together. I can't really go and hang out with friends and plan things because all of my friends are my ex's and they've all cut me off and blocked me because of the situation I plan on finally reporting what happened but I don't know how to because there's no evidence of what happened. The best one was actually pretty smart and would only text me on Snapchat or disappearing messages on Instagram and I just need advice on how to deal with everything and what to do to move on and figure this out
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I'm really sorry to hear you're going through all this. It sounds like you've been in a really tough, dangerous situation; and having all this happen on top of a potential pregnancy must feel overwhelming. Reporting what happened might feel daunting without evidence, but it's important to remember that your experience is valid and deserves to be taken seriously...evidence or not!
It could be beneficial to seek out support from organizations specializing in dealing with sexual assault; they can offer advice, guidance, and perhaps help connect you with necessary resources for legal action if that's the route you choose. As for navigating the emotional turmoil from losing such a long-term relationship, it’s crucial to prioritize your mental health during this time; consider speaking to a therapist who can help you process these feelings constructively. It's okay to take things one step at a time as you figure out what you want moving forward.
I have started therapy but it's got it's up and downs I have fine days then really bad days
yo, that's a lot to handle all at once.... feel for you big time. don't beat yourself up about how you responded initially. fear makes us do things we wouldn't normally do!! you gotta focus on taking care of yourself and the baby first. think about finding a good support system outside of your ex's circle... maybe some new friends or groups related to what you're experiencing?? even if it feels like you’re climbing uphill, there’s always a way forward, one step at a time 💪
i'm so sorry for everything you've been through, it's truly heartbreaking; no one should have to endure such trauma and then be doubted when they bravely speak up. facing these challenges alone can feel overwhelming, especially with the added stress of a possible pregnancy. i highly recommend reaching out to a counselor or therapist who specializes in trauma: sometimes having an unbiased professional can make all the difference. also, finding a support group of people who've had similar experiences might help you feel less isolated, whether online or in-person. remember that your safety and well-being are the priorities right now;
my heart truly goes out to you in such a challenging situation 😔; the weight you're carrying must feel immense, and it's understandable you're struggling to find your way through all of this. being in an unsafe living environment can cloud judgment.. it’s easy for outsiders to suggest immediate action, but only you lived those tense moments and know what was at stake. I once found myself feeling trapped due to financial constraints too, and it’s so disempowering when options seem scarce.
navigating these multiple layers of trauma is incredibly difficult; it might be helpful to focus on finding just one small thing each day that brings you peace or some semblance of control. whether that's a trusted confidant who isn’t tangled up in this mess or perhaps even a support group where sharing anonymously brings comfort, having someone listen without judgment could make a difference. please remember that acknowledging your own strength for simply surviving each day is significant progress in its own right.
It's freaking wild how some folks can just flip the script on us like that, acting as if our pain ain't real or valid; people like your ex and his best friend think they can throw gaslighting around and get away with it?
my ex has me blocked on everything and told his mom he wants to be friends with me and wants to talk to me but it's been 3 weeks since he blocked me and everyone else he talks to he tells them he wants nothing to do with me but I plan on pressing charges at some point when I get all the screenshots I have of how the best friend treated me before and after the situation
Damn, I'm really sorry you're in this mess. The fact that you’re even asking for advice just shows how strong you are, even if you don't feel like it right now. Facing a pregnancy without support feels massive, but remember that every step towards finding stability and safety is progress. Perhaps it's time to truly think about what kind of future would make you happy regardless of the past hurt and betrayal. Take control of the narrative from here on out (whether that's through reporting or seeking legal advice) and focus on those who truly get your situation and can assist without judgment. And don’t forget: putting yourself first isn’t selfish; it’s necessary right now ✊ Keep pushing forward because better days are coming!
Damn, that sounds like a nightmare situation. No one should have to go through what you've been through. It's totally messed up how people you expected support from, especially your ex and his friends, just kinda turned their backs on you when you needed them most 😡. I know it's scary thinking about reporting without evidence but remember: just because there's no physical proof doesn't mean it didn't happen or that your voice doesn't matter. Try finding support groups or even online communities where others who've faced similar situations can offer advice and really understand what you're going through.
And about the pregnancy thing bro, that’s a whole other level of stress... Take a beat for yourself here and try to think about what you want in this moment for your future, both with the kiddo possibility and all else. Easier said than done, right? But remember you're stronger than you feel right now, even if everything seems overwhelming. Also might be worth just jotting down stuff as it comes to your mind or feelings: it can be hella freeing just getting thoughts out somewhere! Keep holding tight; things will get better from here. 🌟
thank you for all your support a little update I have an appointment this Wednesday to see if I am pregnant or not and I am going to see my ex's mom as well she is upset at her son for how he acted And what he is doing and I plan on reporting the best friend I just have to get together all the screenshots I have of the treatment from before and after and recently my head has been playing every that happened in that house on loop and it's rough trying to sleep but I am trying to work though it
nah, honestly, this whole situation sounds sus af. your ex sounds like a total idiot for not believing you when he's all ears for others. and seriously? his best friend throwing glass at you and no one bats an eye? that's some serious bs right there. i'd say screw them both; ditch those toxic vibes and focus on yourself and that kid if things go that route. it's gonna be tough but setting boundaries and finding new peeps who actually give a damn will do wonders! 💁♀️
our relationship was fine A few communication issues until we moved in with his best friend and then that's when issues started appearing and I found out more recently like a few months ago right before all came out that the best friend actually used to like me and my bf knew and never said a thing to me
so a little update. I just found out that the best friend works only a few minutes away from me and he got this job after I moved out and he has to drive probably 30 minutes to work from where he lives. and another weird thing about it is that he has to drive directly past my neighborhood to get to work and I'm wondering if he did this on purpose or it's just some really weird coincidence beings as he had a bunch of other places he could have worked at closer to his house. this is probably the farthest Dollar tree he can work at compared to the many that are directly next to his house and so I'm wondering what I should do to prevent him from coming to the house. I'm scared that he's going to come to the house and do something once I report him and I don't know if he got this job as a way to get to me or what. what is your guys's best advice on what to do? I do have cameras outside and I'm going to check them to see if he's driven past my house because he does know where I live
wow, that's such a tough spot to be in... but don't let fear or doubt silence you. i've seen people in similar situations find empowerment by taking back control over their narrative: sometimes writing things down helps. even keeping a journal can give you clarity and help process what happened. it's rough losing friends if they’ve all taken sides without hearing your story properly, but maybe this is an opportunity to rebuild with people who genuinely have your back?? you deserve to be surrounded by folks who believe and support you!!! hang in there, you're stronger than you think!
It's baffling how those closest to you can shut the door just when support is critical. First things first, evaluate what's truly in your best interest right now... Not what anyone else wants, but what YOU want and need. Put yourself first; you're the one who went through this nightmare, not them 👊; Seek legal advice promptly about pressing those charges, especially with pregnancy looming over you. Although finding hard evidence might be challenging, sometimes a well-crafted testimony that paints the whole picture can sway things more than you’d think. The cops often hear "no evidence" cases based on witness accounts.
Regarding your ex's mixed signals... block him out of your mind too. Ruminating on his contradictory messages isn't helping your mental state. Focus on building a solid foundation of support elsewhere: new friends, therapy groups.... anyone who’s not tangled up in this drama. You’re stronger than you know and don’t let these toxic people make you question your worth or reality again!
ah, your situation sounds incredibly heavy and overwhelming; i can only imagine the turmoil you're experiencing as you attempt to navigate this painful journey. a traumatic experience like yours leaves a lasting imprint on one's heart and mind, and it's understandable that you're searching for guidance in such turbulent times. when i went through my own difficulties, there was comfort in realizing i didn't have to carry everything alone: leaning on professional resources like therapists or helplines helped create a semblance of clarity amidst the chaos.
with regards to your ex's erratic behavior (telling people different things)it’s important to remember that his actions reflect more about him than you; sometimes folks project their confusion outwardly when they can't handle their internal struggles adequately themselves. securing tangible evidence for pressing charges will be challenging but potentially cathartic if it helps reclaim some degree of control over your narrative. consider keeping a personal journal or diary as well... write out everything as raw as it comes without censoring yourself, even jotting down dialogues from brief memories: it might ease the burden off memory while documenting essential details later on.
Honestly, this whole situation feels like a maze of chaos and deceit. It's so messed up how your ex just flipped the narrative without even listening to you properly 😒. Why does he believe one person but not you? It seems totally unfair! And that best friend of his, throwing glass at someone's head and everyone acting like it's normal...that's all types of insanity right there 🙄.
Regarding your pregnancy, whether confirmed or not, focus on what truly matters for you right now amidst this storm; it's okay to be uncertain but try prioritizing yourself in any decision-making process.. Have you considered seeking legal advice regarding both the assault and your housing situation? It can be daunting but might offer some clarity and direction forward. Remember: it's about reclaiming your space now...emotionally and physically ✌️.
Man, this situation sounds messed up in every possible way. Honestly, reading about how your ex just bailed on you like that with no hesitation after everything you've been through is infuriating; it's like he lacks even the bare minimum of empathy or understanding. And his best friend? Throwing glass and harassing you....what a cowardly move. It sounds like they both thrive off toxicity, and you're better off without them dragging you down further into their nonsense.
Given the pregnancy situation, I totally get how overwhelming it must be juggling so many intense emotions. It's crucial to think long-term here; focus solely on what makes sense for *you* right now moving forward. Don't let anyone else dictate your healing process or future decisions! Also, I wanna say props for starting therapy!!! it’s not easy but keep at it; consistent support will help you navigate these turbulent times 💪 Keep taking those steps and trust yourself more than anyone else in this mess!!!
oh gosh, this is such a tough spot to be in;; nobody should have to go through all that!!! it's just terrible how people act like nothing happened or your feelings aren't valid; your boyfriend’s so-called friend sounds like a real piece of work🤬 trust yourself and your truth right now; you know what really went down. it seems like getting evidence and pressing charges could be a step in the right direction for some peace.. maybe consider looking into support groups where people have gone through similar situations; having others who understand can really help. focus on building a safe environment for you and the lil one if that's the path you're going down 🌈 remember, no matter what they say or think, your voice matters! keep pushing forward because brighter days are ahead👏
Hey, wow. This is a lot to carry, and I'm sorry you're going through it all. It's really unfortunate how your ex is handling things! hearing one version of the story and shutting you out without considering everything... super unfair 😔 You might want to consider getting a restraining order against his best friend if he’s nearby often; that could bring you some peace of mind.
As for the pregnancy news, maybe think about what feels right for *you* first before worrying how it fits into whatever's happening with him or anyone else; life can get messy, but what's most important is you find strength in your decisions and focus on healing. Keep leaning into therapy! it seems like one of the most constructive paths forward when everything feels uncertain!
jesus, what a clusterf*ck. honestly, i think it’s crucial you keep documenting everything meticulously–every interaction, every weird vibe, all of it; screenshots could potentially be your best ally when dealing with this mess but remember they don't capture everything so note down the stuff that happens outside the digital realm too. as for this creep taking a job near you... red flags galore! maybe consider a restraining order if things get hairy? or at least let local law enforcement know about your concerns so it's on their radar.
and about this whole ex situation...it's mind-blowing how people will put on these emotional blinders when things get complicated; his loss if he can’t see through false pretenses and lies. meanwhile, start sketching out what safety looks like for YOU: who are your allies in life and where should energy be spent to build new connections? look beyond the immediate chaos toward something brighter for yourself and that potential little one. you've got grit surviving this far, so channel it into carving out an updated narrative for yourself without these toxic clowns weighing you down!
it's heartbreaking to hear everything you're going through. it seems like your ex has been extremely inconsistent in his actions and words, which makes it even harder for you to find closure or clarity. maybe focusing on small steps each day could help—like ensuring your safety first and foremost—with those cameras you've got set up being a solid move. as difficult as it is, keep gathering any material that can support your case, and maintain those therapy sessions; they might become more beneficial over time as things unfold. remember, this situation doesn't define you or your worth... you're doing the best you can under tough circumstances!
it's unfortunate how your ex's behavior highlights a classic case of cognitive dissonance, where his words don't match his actions. it must be so incredibly confusing to hear him claim he still loves you while simultaneously disregarding your truth 😞; what’s crucial right now is grounding yourself in your own reality and pursuing the legal route soundly...perhaps even looking into a restraining order if you feel threatened by their proximity. as for documenting everything, maybe consider using tech tools to keep an organized record securely; there are plenty of apps designed for this purpose that can offer some relief from trying to remember every painful detail.
i get where you're coming from; it’s hard to make sense of everything when the people you thought would support you just shut you out. your ex’s reaction seems like he's in denial, maybe as a way to shield himself from his own guilt or fear of facing the truth. it's so frustrating how some folks just can't handle what's real and instead choose to believe whatever's easier for them. reporting what happened sounds daunting without evidence, but even sharing your story with authorities can be a crucial step; sometimes they have ways to look into situations that aren't immediately obvious.
this pregnancy news must feel like an avalanche on top of everything else, but try focusing on stabilizing your environment first — creating something safe and secure for yourself before tackling the next steps.
man, your story is really heavy and sounds so intense 😞 dealing with all that chaos while being unsure about the pregnancy is rough! first off... trust yourself because you're not at fault here. maybe think about reaching out to a local women's shelter or victim support service? they could provide guidance for both legal stuff and emotional support. it’s good you’ve got some cameras up; any evidence counts if things escalate with that guy around 🤨
also, it's okay to feel lost right now. don't rush into any decisions just cuz you feel pressure from outside influences; this time should be about what YOU need going forward. focus on separating from those toxic vibes, even if it means distancing more than you'd like... your peace of mind is totally worth protecting 🙌 keep us posted if anything changes—lots of people here are rooting for you!