i feel like a stupid fool
The story
My intelligence is in decline, and it shows through my dropping grades and my sudden inability to form a single thread of rational/coherent thought, nonetheless converse properly with others. This might have been because I withdrew myself for the past few years, isolating myself from all social contact like a fool because I couldn't handle relationships anymore and pitied myself for being part of a broken home---it might've been because all the pain I felt back then messed up my brain.
I can't think clearly anymore, and my head feels stuffy all day every day; it doesn't stop. I've said so many hurtful things to this girl I recently came to care about, because I didn't realize what I was saying as my brain short-circuited every second and automatically rushed to the first (and often inappropriate) thing that came to mind. I'm so frustrated with myself right now. Before my withdrawal I used recognize and manage people's emotions really well and be able to navigate my interactions with others with a degree of emotional intelligence; now I'm simply an airhead who's too stuck up in the clouds to concentrate on her words.
I also used to excel in school and was basically the "smart kid" in class. Now I've built up a reputation of holding her head in front of the whole class, crying, "I'm sorry; my brain is short-circuiting"; stupidly staring at her textbook with a blank stare when the teacher asked her to answer a question about what we read; and responding to "What American history topic do you want to write a poem on?" with "Bloody Mary."
I went to a doctor last November in search of answers, and it was confirmed that I had an iron deficiency (but not anemic yet). I took pills regularly afterwards, but even now that my iron levels are in normal range, I still experience brain fog. I told my doctor about this, and it just seems everything points to a mental problem. Yet I can't check with a psychologist because of circumstances that can't be helped. I can't do this anymore. I feel like an utter failure and feel so alone right now.
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it's hard to agree with your story; sometimes people tend to exaggerate their issues. life has its ups and downs, dude, and it sounds like you're focusing way too much on the negatives. i had a period where I felt like my brain was jammed up, but I just pushed through it, and things got better. you mentioned your grades dropped, but it might just be a phase, and sometimes we think we're worse than we actually are. i don't really buy that the past can mess you up so bad; "the past is a different country" and all that jazz. we all come from some kind of broken home, or have our own issues, and it doesn't mean our intelligence goes downhill. you're doing yourself no favors by focusing on the negatives; why not just keep your chin up and keep on truckin'? studying gets tough for everyone sometimes, and crying in front of the class sounds like something i would've done when i was outta steam, man..... life ain't a straight path, and we all go through rough patches—it's part of growing up. just try to chill a bit and take it easy, alright? 🚀
Totally get what you're saying—your situation is real messed up, my friend. Been there myself, and it sucks. Sounds just like 'Life is pain. Anyone who says differently is selling something.'
Feels like you're stuck in a big, foggy nightmare. It’s such a drag. Hearing that you got no clue what you're saying to folks is tough. I’ve hurt people I care about too because my head was in some weird spot—once, I even forgot my own mom’s birthday and felt like a real jerk.
Your frustration is real. It ain’t whining—it’s your reality. We’re all just drifting sometimes, hoping to land. But man, get some help if you can. Not trying to be nice or sugarcoat it—it’s all just rough shit.
Hang in there. 😡
Oh, come on! I think you're blowing this way out of proportion 😉 Everyone’s got issues, but it’s not an excuse to let things go so bad.
You’re saying your brain is short-circuiting, but maybe it’s just stress or something. Everyone goes through rough patches; it’s just part of life. I once felt like my brain was a TV stuck on static for weeks, but instead of moping around, I figured out what was causing it and sorted my stuff out.
Babes, we all have problems, but seriously, saying you can’t think clearly sounds a bit like an overreaction. Lots of folks deal with broken homes and still keep going like nothing happened. School getting hard is normal, and hey, it’s not the end of the world. Grades fall, they rise—you’re still the person you used to be.
You probably just need a bit of time and effort. Stop digging a hole and start climbing out of it. 🌪️
your story makes total sense; your cognitive function can absolutely be affected by stress and isolation. brain fog is a real problem. i’ve experienced these neural glitches myself. it's a nightmare, no joke! 🧠 stop blaming yourself for emotional dysregulation; it's not like you asked for this, right? isolate yourself long enough, and it messes with your neurotransmitters! seen it happen, been there, done that. cut the self-pity, focus on neuroplasticity, and start making real changes. quitting is not an option. get proactive now.🥊 psychologist or not, take some responsibility! your move!