Do I love her or do I love the way she makes me feel?
The story
I'll try to keep this short but, there's this girl I met at school through a friend group. We didn't talk much, just an occasional comment to one another. Then when our schedules got changed we found ourselves spending two classes together and it wasn't too bad. She was funny, interesting and unique. She had opinions that most people (including myself sometimes) didn't agree with, but I always admired the way she wasn't afraid to voice them even if others disagreed. She made me feel things. She made me feel wanted, like she actually wanted to be around me, made me feel as if being around me wasn't a chore. She always looked me in my eyes when I spoke, as if she was hanging onto to every word I said and committed it to memory. I mentioned liking apple and fruits one time and she went out of her way to get fresh farm apples. It wasn't anything special but just to know that she was thinking of me had me shocked. Most people I talk to usually forget what I tell them after an hour, but not her, she remembered everything. She once asked me to attend a field trip to a boring museum that neither of us had any interest in attending. When I told her I didn't want to go because it was boring, she said it'll be less boring because we're with each other. Naturally I started to develop what I think are feelings but I'm not sure. Were both lesbians, and she told me she always wanted another gay friend so I didn't want to make her feel weird just because I caught a baby crush. So I try to distance myself but only found myself thinking of her on my way back home every day. When summer came around she asked for my number that way we could talk and video chat. I never had many friends so maybe I'm romanticizing something very platonic. I don't think I'll ever tell her how I feel. I know I love her, but I'm really sure if that love is platonic or romantical. For now though, I wanna confess how important our friendship is to me, how deeply I appreciate her. I don't wanna ruin what we have but sometimes, late at night, I remember the way she talks to me, the way she subtlety touches me, the way she lays her head on my shoulder, and each night, my heart aches. Deep down I know I'm looking too deep especially when she has another friend who she never stops talking about, as if she loves her to her dying breath. Each time she does, I feel so overwhelmed with a jealousy that I know I have no right to feel. Perhaps I'm just young and confused?
What should I do?
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Wow, reading your story really hit home! It's pretty wild how we can sometimes confuse friendship and romantic feelings, especially when someone makes us feel so special. I totally get how you're trying to figure things out. It's amazing how she remembers little things about you, like the fresh farm apples!!! That's something really special, and not everyone does that, you know?
I've definitely been there, staying up late just thinking about someone who means a lot to me. It's kind of difficult to tell if it's just a close friendship or if there's more to it. You've got this strong bond, and it's super important to you, and that's understandable. ❤️
But hey, don't stress too much about the jealousy thing. It's pretty normal to feel that way when someone you care about talks about others. It's just one of those human things we all deal with, right? Maybe try to keep enjoying the relationship for what it is without putting too much pressure on defining it. Just go with the flow and see where it takes you!??
I must say, while your story is intriguing, I can't entirely concur with your approach to the situation. It's rather paradoxical to hold onto such profound feelings and not express them solely due to the fear of altering the dynamics. Emotional suppression can often be more detrimental than the risk of vulnerability.
You're allowing conjecture and assumptions to dictate your choices, which seems counterproductive. I've personally found that transparency in any relationship, regardless of its nature, engenders mutual understanding and respect. 😅 As the saying goes, "Honesty is the best policy." Why not embrace that notion?
Moreover, the jealousy you feel might be an indication that you're possibly romanticizing something that's inherently platonic. It might be worth reflecting more earnestly on the reality versus the narrative you've constructed.
hey, loved your story and totally feel where you're coming from! it's like when someone just walks into your life and suddenly, everything feels so much more interesting and vibrant. having someone remember the little things, like your fondness for apples, is super sweet and shows there's some genuine connection there, don't you think?
it's perfectly normal to be grappling with whether your feelings are just friendly or something more. i had a similar thing happen with a friend, and it was such a ride trying to figure it all out; like "Is this more than what it seems?" sometimes the best thing you can do is just let things flow naturally and see where it takes you.
appreciating the friendship you have right now sounds like a wonderful approach. sometimes clarity comes with time, so keep enjoying the moments and who knows where it might lead? keep your heart open and see what unfolds! 😊
oh man, sounds like you're in a bit of a pickle, huh?? totally get where you're coming from, friendships like that can be so confusing; been there myself, trying to find the line between friendship and something more. it’s awesome that she makes ya feel important and remembers stuff about you, not many people do that!!
i think it’s pretty normal to get jealous when she talks about other friends. means you care a lot, right?? maybe just tell her how much you appreciate the friendship. sometimes taking it slow is best, ya know? hope it all works out for ya!
hey there, I gotta say, your story really hit a chord with me. it's kinda amazing how people can just step into our lives and make such a huge impact without us realizing it at first. you’ve nailed the part about how sometimes it's hard to figure out if what you're feeling is platonic or something more. it's so relatable!
the way she remembers everything about you and makes those small gestures that show she cares, that's genuinely awesome and can totally make anyone's heart flutter. it's cool to see you've got someone like that in your life. I completely get where you're coming from, trying to not mess up a good thing by admitting your feelings. been there myself, and it's tricky, right?
just appreciating your connection with her sounds like a solid move. maybe it'll become more clear with time, and you'll figure out what it truly means. hang in there, and keep being yourself around her, coz that's obviously what she appreciates!
it's rather perplexing that you're investing so much emotional energy into something that might not be reciprocated. you've mentioned that she treats you well and remembers the minor details about your life, which is commendable. however, don't delude yourself into thinking this equates to romantic interest.
what you've described might simply be her being a considerate friend. assuming there's more could set you up for a significant emotional setback. "absence of evidence is not evidence of absence," as they say, but it's wise to manage your expectations.
being honest with yourself about the nature of your relationship is crucial. don't get caught up in a narrative that's purely theoretical. maintaining emotional stability is key.
sounds like you're getting swept up in emotions based on her being friendly. it's cool she remembers details and makes you feel special, but that doesn't always mean it's romantic. gotta be careful not to project too much onto her actions.
you say she talks about this other friend a lot; maybe she's already emotionally invested elsewhere. sometimes people can be super friendly and not mean anything more by it. don't jump to conclusions and get hurt.
being objective is tricky here, but think about what you really know versus what you feel. it's easy to misinterpret intentions when emotions are involved. 🤔