Issues with accepting love? Don’t know how to say it
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Maybe it is because I have always felt left out in crowds and never found someone who reciprocates the same feelings as me; or I might just have no potential in finding a partner without spiraling. I have been with a guy for 7 months now, he seems very sweet. Although, I have a bad past in my relationships: I have been cheated on, with a narcissist, and assaulted, all these with three different guys. These are probably the reasons I can’t trust my partner.
I am constantly worried about him being attracted to other girls, hating me, feeling annoyed of me, thinking he is going to do something bad to me or my body, and now he stops talking to me exactly at 17:30 and I think he’s growing tired of me. Most of the time I end up getting rid of these suspicions but I cannot shake them off ever. He does what a boyfriend is supposed to do but I just can’t believe he actually loves me.
I’m not blaming him for anything because I know deep down he’s not doing anything but no matter what I get these constant suspicions he likes my friend (which happened with the guy who cheated), he’s irritated with me, or that he is going to do what one of those guys did to me.
I need guidance man :( I don’t know what to do anymore
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oh man, I totally feel you on this one 😔 like, relationships are so complicated, especially when you've been through hell in the past... i've been there too, worried constantly that something's gonna go wrong, ya know? it's like this little voice in your head just never shuts up 🙄
had a similar situation with my ex, he was perfect on paper but my mind always went to dark places and i was like, constantly on edge 😩 it's so hard to trust again when you've been hurt so bad... like trust issues just kinda stick with you, right?? but hey, you're not alone!!!
sometimes i think we get trapped in our own heads, letting our past dictate how we see the present... like you gotta keep reminding yourself your partner is not those guys from before!!!
maybe try talking to him about your fears?? like really get it out there, sometimes communication actually helps, ya know???
✌️ just gotta take it one step at a time and maybe seek out some guidance or therapy, it’s like, super helpful 😌 hope things start looking up for you soon!
Thank you stranger! I hope things go well for me too. I’ll try and talk to him about it hopefully I don’t end up scared to do so
seriously??? you’ve been with him for 7 months and still can’t trust him??? sounds like you’re projecting your past onto him. not cool. 🤨
i get you've been through some rough stuff, but come on, you're letting your past control your present. “worried he’s attracted to other girls”—isn’t that the insecurity talking?? been there, done that, and let me tell you, it only wrecks things more.
you've mentioned nothing he's actually done to make you suspicious??!!! why not give him the benefit of the doubt??? constantly doubting people will just push them away in the end. ever thought that your constant suspicion could be driving him away???
like, maybe you should confront your issues instead of expecting him to pay for what others did. have you considered therapy?? it’s a game-changer. honesty!!! don’t hold him accountable for the mess other guys created. time to move on and stop living in the past, right???
Hello! it seems to me you might have misinterpreted this post, I said multiple times I know he is not doing anything and I am putting the blame completely on me! I am asking on how to resolve my own issues, not our couple issues. I hope this helps!
oups yes sorry, my bad!
lol no youre good!
kind of feels like you’re letting past trauma dictate your current relationship; that’s a dangerous cycle 😕 ever think maybe it's not fair to your partner? he hasn't done anything to deserve the suspicion, and it’s not sustainable in the long run;
you sure these are genuine red flags or are they just your insecurities talking? might be worth doing some introspection instead of assuming he’s like the others... constantly worrying gotta take a toll on both of you... therapy could be useful; no one's perfect, but projecting past experiences isn’t the answer. think about it 🤔
Hello! I think you have misread this post as well, I am not blaming him for anything as I’ve said multiple times. I am aware he is not doing anything and these are battles within myself. He is not affected by these things. Although yes I have considered therapy yet this is not a couple issue, this is a personal issue within myself, nothing to do with him.
ah ah sorry, I see I am not the only one! I didn't read the comments here before...