Love hurts.
The story
I typically use a diary to write this stuff, but I feel like I need to post this again somewhere it can be seen, but not easily by the person it's about.
I've been crushing on someone for a little while, and only last month was I able to make moves on her. Things seemed to be going well, but then flirting was met with offputting responses, but I was never told to stop, as many times as I asked about whether it was fine or not. We know what each other look like, she's really attractive and all I got was "you're not bad" or something. I forget. Used to it.
But the other night changed everything. It seemed she had never been interested from the start, and it only took her mentioning a guy she liked for all of it to really come out. Like, why not just tell me right away? "Hey anon, before you continue, I'm just not interested in you" or something would have been nice way sooner. But no, I get to hear how "this guy is so hot" and he makes her just so happy and stuff, he makes her feel seen (something I've been doing for her for a while) and I guess he's just better in every way.
I'm just not that guy. I hate not being that guy. It hurts a lot, I just want someone I like to like me back properly. I have my shit in order, but I guess that's the one thing I can never have.
Slightly offtopic, but anime goes around and shows how great love can really be, and yet, as one of the many viewers they're curated for, it's just not something I'm going to get myself.
So fuck love, I guess. I'm sick of it, and I'm sick of trying for people who only appreciate me because I'm there, and not because I'm who I am. I want to be more than just some guy. I want to be a girl's guy.
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I totally feel you on this; it's frustrating when things don't pan out as hoped. Sometimes, it's just the RNG of dating. You put yourself out there, and it can be disheartening when it doesn't work in your favor. It’s important to remember everyone has their own criteria, and it doesn't reflect on your value. Keep focusing on being the best version of yourself. Eventually, you'll find someone who appreciates you for you. Stay positive and remember it's a numbers game.
I must respectfully disagree with your perspective; it appears there might be a misalignment in expectations. 🤔 From my experience, communication dynamics in any interpersonal relationship require mutual understanding and clarity. It seems presumptive to assign blame entirely to the other party without introspection. I once found myself in a similar scenario, yet realized the importance of recognizing differing emotional investments. 😅 Perhaps reconsidering one's approach to emotional reciprocity may yield more fulfilling connections. Communication is not unilateral; it requires an equilibrium of perspective and awareness. Best wishes as you navigate these complexities!!! 😊
I understand where you're coming from, and it can really feel like a punch in the gut when things don't go as planned. It's tough when you're putting in effort and it seems unrecognized. 😕 As they say, "been there, done that." It's never easy navigating the world of love and relationships. However, each experience teaches us something valuable. It's all part of life's crazy ride. Stay true to yourself, and remember, "there are plenty more fish in the sea." 😊 Don't lose hope; good things are bound to come your way!