love is hard
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Im not too big of a writer so dont mind the grammar stuff.
I have too many thoughts going on rn. idk where to start ig ill start with my love life thoughts
I like this guy, I have had crush on this guy for like 5 yrs. ikr crazy. i don't feel like im meant to be loved. i hate thinking that about myself but i genuinely cant help it. his ex's are so pretty. they are prettier than me. they are skinnier than me. they are more confident than me. i can go on. whenever i see them, i feel jealousy(?), or idk i get mad. not at them but at myself. they didnt do anyhing wrong, they just exist and happen to at some point be his gf. im so stupid. my crush and i actually had a 1hr long convo (or idk maybe it wasnt 1hr long but it felt long). idk how the stars aligned that day. truly a miracle. we laughed alot, talked about diff things. it was fun. but u see im a bit stupid. he talks to every girl like that. and now that i think about it. that convo was just a simple convo between 2 people. he talks to his friends (who r girls). he teases them (in a way friends do). he sits with them. he plays games with them. ( its their friend group that consists fo like 4 guys and 4 girls). those girls are just normal friends to him. im good friends with those girls too (good enough that they invited me to their weddings) but im not a part of their group. i get jealous of them sometimes, seeing how he talks to them, teases them, etc. we never talked ever (except the time i told u about rn) even when we were in working in groups too. i do wish i get to talk to him again. ik we arent meant to be so ill just have fun like this. btw idk how to talk to guys ha ha ha. that could be the root of the problem.
i actually have never dated anyone. ever. ever. ive had alot of crushes but never ever talked to them. never. no one has ever confessed to me ever. no guys has ever been my friend, ever. ive friends around me in a relationship, married, getting proposals left and right. truly happy for them. i celebrated all of it with them. but idk. ig i get fomo. im studying a 5yr long degree. im about to graduate in less than a year. i shoudlve had atleat one confession, mannn. even my mother once asked me "why doesn't anyone like you?" idk man. i really dk. maybe im just not meant to be loved and i think im accepting that slowly.
ik people say all that fun stuff like just wait, have patient. the right perosn will come when you least expect it blah blah. that stuff was comforting in the beginning, but not anymore. kinda became desensitized to it.
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hey, no need to be so hard on yourself!!! seriously, you're not stupid or anything—just human. we all get that feeling of fomo when it seems like everyone else has their whole love life sorted out 🤷♂️... but comparing yourself to his exs or friends won't do any good. you had a genuine convo with him and that's something! maybe take small steps to talk to him more?? who knows where that could lead? and about never having dated anyone before, it's really not as uncommon as you think. don't rush into anything just because you feel you should've been in a relationship by now!!! stay true to yourself!
it seems like you're getting caught up in comparing yourself to others when it really won't do you any favors. your worth isn't determined by how many people are interested in you or the number of relationships you've had. instead of focusing on this guy or his past, maybe try shifting that energy into understanding what you truly want and need from a relationship, if that's even something you're interested in right now. on another note, opening up communication with guys shouldn't be as daunting as it sounds. start seeing them as just people—try not too overthink interactions based on gender dynamics. engaging naturally can often lead to surprising connections without the added pressure!
Hey there! 😊 You're definitely not alone in feeling like you're on the outside looking in when it comes to love. But lemme tell you, life's not a race or a checklist of "should haves." I remember when I was at uni—everyone seemed to be coupling up while I was still figuring out what I wanted from life and relationships. It felt isolating at times, but I realized that each of us has our own unique journey. Maybe this is your time to focus on other things, like friendships or passions that bring you joy. And hey, when it comes to talking to guys, just try being yourself and see where it takes you—it might lead to some cool friendships or even something more without all the pressure!