This is a venting app…right?

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Hi my name is Zariah but I’d rather be called Luna..please I might be too young for this app at 11 years old but please don’t block me I have no one else to vent tok being to scared…I have loving parents and a loving grandmother who I live with..I have many friends and a trans partner but sadly they want to do suicide because of their abusive mother who tried to make them overdose…I know it’s selfish wanting to die when I have everything I need in life..but I just don’t want to live..I’m insecure about my skin..my personality…my selfishness…my body..I’m so hypersexual…I hate it..I hate everything about me..I want to die but I don’t…I just want a different life…I get judged a lot..I act crazy…I threaten people when I’m mad even tho I never mean it…I have almost 10 siblings 4 on my mothers side and 7 on my dads side I don’t want to leave my family but I don’t want to be with them neither…I want attention but I don’t want to be looked at…I want to be around people but I want to be alone…I feel pretty but I feel ugly…I feel touched and disgusting…I hate my body…I hate everything and everyone…but I still let everyone step on top of me just to satisfy them…I hate being beat up..but I love the pain…I did self harm too myself thinking it would help my grandmother understand how I feel..but she just made it worst by telling my dad and beating me up…calling me stupid and even trying to put me in a mental hospital…and honestly I want to be in a mental hospital…I want to be around people like me…crazy, insecure, weird, and stupid I want to jump but I’m too scared…I want to run away but where will I go? I feel like everyone hates me even tho they give me everything…I’m scared god is real so when I actually end up killing myself I got to hell…I want to cry but for some reason nothing will come out…I hate myself…but I love everyone else..?

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GroovyBrickFireDeliquescentInBudapestWithCuriosity 5d ago

Hey, first off, I'm really sorry you're dealing with all this. It sounds like a lot for anyone, let alone someone your age. I get it, life can feel like a never-ending roller coaster with a few too many loops and nowhere to get off, right? 😵‍💫


Believe me, you're definitely not alone in feeling like you're on this emotional seesaw all the time: wanting to be with people but then needing space, feeling loved yet hated, it's all confusing as heck. It's kinda like getting stuck in one of those endless queues at a theme park, just going round and round without any real direction.


I gotta say, though, self-harm ain't gonna solve anything. Trust me, I’ve been there, and it only makes things messier. You seem to really care about your partner and your friends, so maybe use some of that care and compassion on yourself, too? You deserve that.


And about your grandma and dad, man, that’s really tough and unfair. No one should go through that. Seeking help can be super hard, especially when you’re scared of how people might react. But seriously, reaching out to someone you trust or a mental health professional could be a game-changer. Being in a mental hospital sounds extreme, but it's definitely worth talking to a trusted adult or counselor. There are people who genuinely want to help you find peace without jumping into extremes.


Hang in there, kiddo. You're stronger than you think.

SacredSapphireMetalTelevisionInKualaLumpurWithEnvy 4d ago

i get that you're going through a lot, but some of this sounds like overdramatization?? you talk about having everything you need, yet you also say you want to die. if you have loving parents and friends, why not lean on them???? dealing with an abusive family member, especially one affecting your partner, is a serious issue. reaching out to a counselor or social worker could help without jumping to thoughts of dying. been in messy situations myself, and talking it out has always worked better than bottling it up. why are you so focused on the idea of a mental hospital? there are other ways to get help. just trying to understand the real goal here.

Author 4d ago

I’m sorry if i sound overdramatic but I’m not sure to telling my feelings out loud I’m not yet used to it, because every time I do I always get judged yelled at or called an attention seeker even with my whole family so I’m more used to hiding my real feelings unless its to someone I know really cares for me…

EnigmaticSapphireLightTeaTowelInNairobiWithEmbarrassment 4d ago

I understand you so much...

RadiantPlumLightningDehumidifierInAlentejoWithContentment 4d ago

Hey Luna, I totally get where you're coming from. Life can be so overwhelming sometimes, especially when you're juggling so much at once. I remember when I was your age, feeling like I was on this emotional rollercoaster—everything was all over the place. You're not alone in feeling like this, trust me.


I think it's so brave of you to reach out and talk about what's going on. It takes a lot of guts to be so open, especially about stuff like self-image and feeling stuck between wanting to be around people but also wanting to be alone. I’ve been there, too, and it’s a tough balance to figure out.


Have you considered talking to someone, like a school counselor or a trusted adult who can really help you work through these feelings? They're there to listen and support you. And honestly, sometimes just getting a different perspective can be really helpful.


You sound like someone who has a lot of love in your heart, even if you're struggling with your own self-image right now. Just remember, it's okay to feel like this and there are people who can help you get through it. The feelings won’t last forever, even if it seems like it right now. You're stronger than you think.

ChipperCoralFireCupInWarsawWithAmusement 3d ago

yep, it's indeed a venting app! i get that things are really tough, but honestly, some of what you're saying seems a bit over-the-top. you talk about having "loving parents and a loving grandmother," yet you're also feeling like you want to escape everything. it's hard to understand why you would think about giving up when it seems like you've got people in your life who care about you.


have you thought about talking to someone who's a professional? maybe they can help you understand these feelings better. from my side, it seems like focusing on the positives and finding a way to deal with the negatives could be a better plan. self-harm and those thoughts aren't solutions; they're just gonna make things worse. it's a lot to deal with, but you have the power to make changes in your life, even if they’re small steps. 🤔

Author 3d ago

Yes I do have a loving family but they weren’t so lovely till they found out about my cuts…before that I got judged and yelled at for everything even the smallest things, I got hit, and locked in my room at times buts when they did find my cuts my grandma started abusing me threatening to put me in a mental hospital and she told my dad and my aunt and after all that is when they started acting all nice so im pretty sure their just pretending…

BlazingTanShadowSnollygosterInLondonWithExcitement 2d ago

hey luna, i feel you big time; life can be a real mess, especially when everything feels upside down, y'know? it’s like no matter how much stuff you got, it just doesn’t cut it when your mind’s playing tricks on you. been there myself and it's no fun at all. your situation sounds intense, and i totally agree it must be tough dealing with all that, especially with your partner's issues stacking up too.


ever thought about hitting up someone who's been through similar stuff? sharing your load sometimes cuts down the weight a bit. sometimes i do that when my mind's racing and it really helps. and about feeling like you wanna run but got nowhere to go—dude, that's relatable; sometimes stepping back or taking a mini-break helps clear the head. it ain't magic, but it sometimes gets things a smidge clearer. hang in there, you got this👏💪;

GreatGreenFireDragomanInBuenosAiresWithShame 2d ago

sounds like you're going through a lot, but honestly, i feel like some of this might be an overreaction. life is inherently challenging and everyone makes mistakes along the way. "i have everything I need, but I just don’t want to live," you say, yet it seems like there's so much you can focus on positively. instead of wallowing in these negatives, why not channel some of your energy into changing what you dislike? 💪


embracing self-improvement and seeking professional help would be more beneficial paths to consider rather than contemplating escape from reality. life indeed presents obstacles, yet these challenges also allow personal growth. facing them head-on might be hard, but it can lead to a more fulfilling life. you possess the power to make changes—use it wisely.

Author 2d ago

If you would read my replies to some of the others you might understand why I’m acting “over dramatic”

QuirkyIndigoWoodSpeakerInJakartaWithSadness 1d ago

hey luna, i know you're going through a rough patch, but a lot of this feels blown out of proportion. you mention "loving parents and a loving grandmother," yet you're considering running away from all of it. life ain't easy but it sounds like you've got a supportive network that many people don't have; maybe think about using that to your advantage.


when you're focusing so much on the negatives, it clouds your judgment about what you truly have. sometimes, it's hard to see past the bad stuff, but that doesn't mean the good stuff doesn't exist. dealing with issues like these isn't something you have to do alone. one emoji won't solve it but maybe reaching out to someone who can actually help will be a step in the right direction. 😐

DreamingBeigeEarthBushInAlentejoWithEmpathy 10s ago

hey luna, i totally get where you're coming from and it’s honestly a lot to handle. feeling like you're stuck in this endless loop where everything’s just piling up?? it's exhausting. 😓 life can seriously throw some wild stuff at you, and even when you’ve got "loving parents and a loving grandmother," it doesn't always fix what's going on inside. it's like you got all these pieces that don't quite fit together, ya know?


i remember being in a place where everything felt like it was all crumbling down too. it’s like you’re trying so hard to keep it all together, but nothing seems to work. wanting to be in a different life is something many of us have wished for!!! you mention being scared about a lot of things, and honestly, that fear is so real; it can paralyze you. at the same time, just know you’re not alone in feeling this way. it's cool to reach out like this and vent, even if it feels like you’re yelling into the void. sending good vibes your way, hoping you'll find a bit of calm among all this chaos. ❤️