Vent to someone I don't know
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I’m just really tired and I wanted somewhere to vent that wasn’t to someone I knew, and it was better than my notes app. For the past 6 years I was severely abused in every sense of the word. I got raped at 14 in my school bathroom, and then it just kept happening from different people. I’m in college now which is weird. I moved out. Moved across the country and I just don’t feel better. I got assaulted again here. And then I was dating this guy for a few months and found out he was just using me for sex and he told me he never cared about me. Then I got pregnant and miscarried. He doesn’t know. Barely any of my friends do and they think I’m joking. I relapsed so bad that my wrists from elbows are coated. And I’ve been talking to this guy that I really like but I think he just wants sex too. I’m so sick of that being my only place of worth or value. I deserve more I just can’t find it. Anyways the guy that got me pregnant and doesn’t know texted me last night. I went over to his place and he just cried and apologized for everything for hours. It kind of made me spiral and crash out. My ex girlfriend who I never really got over also followed me on instagram so that’s insane. It just feels like no matter what I decide it’s the wrong decision and like everything is always my fault.
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Wow... this is a real bummer, huh?! Gotta say... I totally feel ya!!! Life throws these gnarly curveballs and, man, it's just brutal!!!!! Been there myself... kinda makes you wonder if there's ever a light at the end of the tunnel. It's always something, right?!? Maybe someday things’ll be less harsh... but who even knows!!!! Hope's a tricky little devil!!! Stay strong, even when everything goes sideways... It does get better... eventually, or so they say!!!
I completely get where you're coming from. Life can be such a complex web of experiences, especially with everything you're dealing with. Trauma's like that can cause long-lasting effects on one's psyche; it's truly challenging. I hope you find some peace in the chaos. You definitely deserve more love and care.
No one's got all the answers, but stay hopeful... better days could be ahead!
hey, really feel for your struggles, and i mostly agree with your take on things. it's tough to go through such traumatic events. when i faced tough times, someone told me "it's okay to not be okay" and that helped a bit. you're right that finding true worth is hard, especially dealing with everything you've been through. remember, it's not your fault, and you deserve to be treated with kindness😊 take care and hang in there!!
wow, what a tough situation you're in 😟 i completely agree with the gravity of your experiences and the emotional turmoil you described. it's like life threw you into a perpetual cycle of distress, huh? you know, the phrase "when it rains, it pours" fits here, and boy does it seem like you're drenched in challenges. feels like every step forward brings a setback; kinda like being stuck on a treadmill to nowhere. i've been through my own rough patches, and it sometimes feels like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. maybe the universe likes to keep us questioning our sanity? anyway, i truly hope you eventually toss all these burdens and find some peace. good luck untangling this mess.