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[Translated from Portuguese. Reminder: IIWIARS is English only]
hi, i’m 16 years old, and i have depression and of course i didn’t go to a psychologist bc i know what i have, and if i go it would just be to confirm it, and yeah i do plan to go
today my day was wonderful until a simple video ruined it, my best friend sent me a video asking what i hated most about her so i said it’s when she says her body and hair are ugly, i was trying to cheer her up but it didn’t work, she said she’s more mature than me, that i’m immature because i say and do things without thinking, and she said she doesn’t trust me anymore, even though i said i was gonna change, but i don’t know how to change, i never had help for that, so i don’t know what i did wrong, man, i try to be that person who jokes around and laughs at everything but inside i’m falling apart, i told her i probably have smiling and silent depression, she has depression too and i thought she was gonna help me but she said i have to go to a psychologist for that, which isn’t wrong, but she said it in such a cold way that i never told her what i felt ever again, i don’t know what i have... i can’t change, and i’m hugely emotionally dependent on her, even when she does or says something that hurts me i just ignore it, but if i say something even if i didn’t mean to hurt her, she just doesn’t like it and when she’s mad about something she stops talking to me, in a way i understand her but i just wanted help even though i don’t know what to do...
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yo, i feel ya; it's tough being in a spot where you're trying to be there for your friend and it backfires on you. sounds like you've got a lot going on inside, and pretending everything's fine can really take a toll. it's mad mature of you to recognize that though. maybe consider talking things out with someone neutral who isn't directly involved, like a counselor at school or something? don't let one bad convo define your friendship; we all mess up sometimes. life's too short to keep everything bottled up—let it out when you're ready. ✌️
It's kind of ironic, isn't it, that the very people we turn to for support sometimes end up being the ones that make us feel more isolated 🧐?
man, it's rough when you try to be honest and it just blows up in your face; it feels like you're walking on a tightrope with no safety net. but let's be real: friendships aren't always a smooth ride—sometimes they're more like roller coasters that make you wanna puke 🤨 i've been where you're at, feeling stuck and relying on someone who's got their own issues too. maybe stepping back for a second and checking out some online advice or forums could give you new ideas? nobody's perfect, not even our best friends, so don't beat yourself up over this one exchange;
it's difficult when you're dealing with your own struggles and then your best friend, who you'd expect to understand, reacts coldly. remember that sometimes people project their insecurities onto others; they might be having a hard time processing their feelings too. have you considered writing down how you feel before talking it over with her? it might help organize your thoughts and communicate them more effectively—sounds cliche but clarity can often lead to better understanding in relationships; plus, seeking professional advice even once could give you tools to handle situations like this in the future?! hang in there!