Venting my feelings and the reason why I did sh
The story
when I was 9 I started doing sh, My dad kept comparing me to others, making jokes about my appearance, and saying rude things to me. He has anger issues and keeps threatening to punch me, slap me, or cut off a limb or two to keep me from leaving the house when I make him angry. I was tired of him at the age of 9 so I started to do self-harm as a way of punishing myself and coping, I couldn't talk to my parents. I don't trust them, when I decided to do sh I cut the front of my arm and it's back until it reached my elbows. I remember crying and wishing that if I told a my dad or mom, they'd comfort me instead of thinking that something was wrong with me. my dad eventually found out when I was 10 and he took pictures and sent them to my other relatives and I felt humiliated, he asked me why I did it as if the way he treated me wasn't enough for him to connect everything so I lied about the reason. after he found out I stopped for a few months and he and my mom never said anything to me, just why and what did I use? he never confronted me or tried to comfort me. neither did my mom, I've been clean for a year and 19 days now but I've been getting urges again. my dad still threatens me like that and sometimes he Pretends to choke me and shake me with his hands around my neck as a joke and I feel uncomfortable, but I can't bring myself to say that since he'll think im just playing along. I love my parents, but sometimes I wonder if they even want me here.
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dude, that's just straight-up messed up 😡 no one deserves to be treated like that by their parents. totally get where you're coming from; been there, done that. it's like, “parents are supposed to be your safe space,” right? i really wish i could give that kid a hug. keep your head up; you’ve got this 💪! i once had a friend go through similar crap, and she found writing her thoughts helped big time; maybe give it a try; you're not alone in this. stay strong, and don't let anyone make you feel less than you are. you're doing amazing just by sharing your story 📢 keep pushing forward, brighter days are ahead!!
that's seriously messed up 😔 no kid should go through that kind of crap from their parents; it's like they don't even care. the fact he took pics and shared them is just disgusting?? like, what the heck?? you deserve to feel safe and loved, not constantly being threatened. ever thought about reaching out to someone who can actually help?? those urges might be creeping back, but you're strong for staying clean for over a year!!! keep pushing through, even if your fam doesn’t get it. nobody should have to deal with that kind of treatment at home; keep being you and hang in there 💪🖤
hey, i totally get that you're upset, but i think there might be more to consider here. sometimes it's easy to focus on the negatives without seeing the bigger picture, you know; family dynamics can be super complicated. not saying what you've experienced is okay, but have you thought about talking to your parents in a different setting? like sometimes, our emotions cloud the actual situation. it's possible they don't realize the impact of their words and actions.
maybe trying to look at it from their perspective could shed some light. ever heard the saying "communication is key"? it really could be valuable here. navigating family relationships is tough, and sometimes people lash out because of their own issues. doesn't mean you have to just accept it, but maybe consider all angles before making a final judgment. hope you find a way to work through this and find some peace 😊
wow, reading your story really hit home. it’s heartbreaking to hear about your situation and the challenges you've faced with your parents, especially when it involves emotional and verbal abuse, which can have long-lasting effects on one's mental health. i completely understand why you resorted to self-harm as a coping mechanism, even though it’s not the healthiest way to deal with those overwhelming feelings.
communication in family dynamics can be complex and challenging, especially when there are underlying issues like your dad’s anger management problems. it’s crucial to acknowledge and validate your feelings, as they are an integral part of your mental well-being. while it can be difficult, try seeking external support from mental health professionals who can provide guidance and help you develop healthier coping strategies.
remember, you're not at fault for the way others treat you, and it's entirely valid to feel hurt and confused by it all. finding someone you can trust to talk about this can make a world of difference. you deserve support and understanding, and i hope you find the strength to continue pushing through and healing.💕