life is bad rn...
The story
I feel like no matter what I do I'm just never good enough. and I try so hard and that's the part that hurts so bad because all I do is work work work and it seem like no matter how much advice take or "constructive criticism" they throw at me Im just never good enough for them whether it's gymnastics singing dancing acting I'm just never good enough I just felt like a disappointment . I have parents to support me and ridicule me at the same time and sometimes I just want to run away and never come back I wish I could but I'm not going to I just want to feel free and sometimes I don't feel me anymore I remember when I was younger and being The Golden child wasn't so bad but I'm supposed to be perfect in whatever I do and when I'm not and I cry because I feel like I have to be they tell me not to and that is not that big of a deal but then at the same time they keep telling me that it is.im going insane I just wish I was better at venting my feelings to the people that I know but when I try to so hard but I think that's all I have right now because I've been crying all night and my head hurts so bad. bye darlings have a good day
sincerely,
Melody (13 f)
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Yo Melody, that's some real heavy stuff you're dealing with. 😒 I totally get why you'd feel frustrated, trying so hard and never feeling like you hit the mark. It sucks when people keep piling on expectations and then act like your feelings don't matter. The pressure to be "perfect" is such a load of crap, honestly, it's exhausting trying to please everyone around you especially when they send mixed signals. But for real, try cutting yourself some slack, you're doing what you can and that’s more than enough! you deserve to feel good about your efforts without all this extra nonsense weighing you down.
hey Melody, it sounds like you're dealing with a lot on your plate right now. one thing that really stands out to me is how you feel stuck between trying to meet expectations and wanting to have freedom; that's tough, especially when those mixed messages come from people who are supposed to support you. when I was your age, I often felt the same way about needing to be perfect at everything, and it can really mess with your head. maybe finding something just for yourself (like a hobby where there’s no pressure) could help? ever thought about chatting with someone outside of your family about this stuff?
i feel the same way, i understand. if it makes you feel better, the possibility of being born is equivalent to winning the lottery 9 times in a week. you are valued, and even though i'm a stranger, stay with us because you are important. You're fighting a battle with yourslef daily. I'm proud of you. :)