embarrassing bedtime memories of an awkward teen
The story
im in those moments where I'm trying to sleep and suddenly a very embarrassing thought from the past surgers from hell to torment me, so i decided to write
when i was in highschool, an old friend of mine got in the same class as me. her cousin was also there. he was very quiet and lonely, quite like me. i started asking this friend about him, claiming i was very INTERESTED in him
for the record, i am autistic asf and barely know how to interact with people. or communicate. when i said i was "interested" in him, i meant that i found him interesting and wanted to befriend him, that we could be alike. she 100% assumed i wanted to date him.
i managed to make it worse somehow. since starting a conversation isn't my biggest ability, i started to leave candy on his desk. yeah. romantic right? well, silly little me DID NOT know it was romantic, and didn't mean it that way. giving little treats was something that i did and still do when i want to get close to someone. but yeah, everyone saw the gifts and thought i was REALLY into him.
was the guy pretty, at least? yeah he was. he was quite a pretty guy, almost girlish pretty, i gotta admit. and unfortunately i did admit it to my friend when asked about him. "compared to the other guys here, he looks really good". i kept digging myself further.
it wasn't until near the end of the year when i realized what I've done. everything i was doing led to people thinking i was head over heels for the guy. sometimes when i looked around, he was already staring at me. i suck at eye contact so i just looked for a second and then looked away, like a highschool love story except one of them did not realize it was one.
well, the year ended thankfully. we graduated and never saw each other again. yeah, I haven't seen either the guy or that friend in a while. and tbh, now that i sink into this embarrassment, i don't think i want to! (good thing I'm a total shut in now...)
i assume(and hope) that the guy did not develop any feelings for me. in fact, im afraid he got weirded out at most because, damn, i would be scared of me if i was in his place. hope he's doing good now.
no "confessions" happened, my friend didn't make fun of me for too long... it's just the horrible feeling of embarrassment that decided to torment me at night. i pray none of them remember my existence. bedtime now folks, thanks for reading!
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Man, I totally get the cringe factor hitting you at random moments. But honestly, it sounds like you were just trying to connect in your own way. Sure, it might've been misinterpreted, but who hasn't had a few awkward high school moments they'd rather forget? We all have those memories that make us wince years later. Just remember, it doesn’t define you now, and chances are he's not losing sleep over it either..
mate, you’re overthinking it big time!!! it's wild how these embarrassing moments haunt us when we're trying to get some sleep, but honestly, who cares now??? high school was like a massive cringe fest for everyone involved. sure, leaving candy might’ve seemed romantic to others, but it's funny how people jump to conclusions without knowing the full story, right?!!! anyways, if your intention was just friendship and you didn’t actively pursue anything else, then there's nothing wrong with that! imagine if we all stopped trying because of one misunderstood moment... we'd literally never talk to anyone again. 😂 don’t beat yourself up over teenage mishaps; it’s all part of growing up and finding better ways to connect!!!!
i totally understand how those high school memories can suddenly pop up and make us cringe at the most inconvenient times; but honestly, it seems like you were just doing your best to connect in a way that made sense to you back then🤔.
Honestly, it sounds like a classic high school misunderstanding. Don't be too hard on yourself; everyone had those awkward moments growing up. The important thing is you've learned from it, and now you know how your actions might be interpreted by others. Take that as a win! It's all part of the learning process.
It's wild how those late-night memories sneak up on us. Honestly, the way you tried to connect was genuine and really kind-hearted. People might've misread your intentions, but it's not like they handed out a user manual for social interactions in high school. 😅 I once told a group of kids that “we should hang out sometime” just to be friendly and ended up being dragged to a bunch of places I had zero interest in! Turns out maybe being straightforward isn't always the best either. As long as you're learning from these situations, that's what matters.
man, i totally get how your brain decides to throw embarrassing memories at you right when you're trying to chill and sleep!!! it's like our minds have a really twisted sense of humor sometimes 😂 but honestly, high school is full of awkward moments and misunderstandings... it's just part of the package deal! what's great is that you've got the self-awareness now to see it for what it was... just growing pains. and i'm willing to bet he's off thinking about his own cringe high school moments, not yours!! in time, you'll laugh about it too. 😅
it's fascinating how past social interactions persistently resurface, creating a vivid tapestry of awkwardness in our minds; indeed, high school is a petri dish for misconstrued intentions and emotional turbulence. your method of offering candy as a gesture of goodwill is not unconventional, but rather an intriguing insight into non-verbal communication strategies often employed by those navigating complex social landscapes. while these recollections might be discomforting now, they provide invaluable lessons on interpersonal perception and self-awareness – consider it a nuanced chapter contributing to the vast anthology of human experience.
It's intriguing how our past actions, especially during high school, often come back to us!
Wow, high school really was the Wild West of social interactions, huh?! It's tough figuring out how to connect with people when you're not even sure what all the social rules are; at least you were being genuine in your efforts. I once gave someone a compliment and they thought I had this huge crush on them: talk about awkward! 🤔 But hey, you survived it and came out on the other side, which is more than some people can say!
yo, i get where you're coming from but honestly, high school is just one big awkward soup we all had to wade through; like, who didn't have those moments?? 😂 sounds like you were trying to be kind in the way you knew how, and hey, everyone around us back then was just as clueless lol. leaving candy on his desk might have come off as romantic but let's face it, people love jumping to conclusions without understanding any context!!! 🤦♀️ anyway, if he thought there was more to it than friendship or not really doesn't matter now. life's too short to dwell on these old memories when he's probably off doing his own thing and maybe even telling his friends about the weird stuff he did too.✌️
It's crazy how these awkward past moments hit us out of nowhere when we're trying to relax, but honestly, the way you were just being yourself and showing kindness through your actions is admirable in its own right; at least it shows you had good intentions from the start.
dude, sounds like high school was a bit of a rollercoaster for ya! i feel you on those past cringey moments sneaking up just when you're trying to fall asleep. but hey, we all had unique ways of trying to connect with others, and candy is way better than awkward small talk imo 😅. honestly, it's all just part of the learning curve figuring out social cues. maybe next time it'll be clearer what your intention is! plus, think of it this way: at least you've got an interesting story about attempting friendship through sweet treats now 😂.
oh man, it's funny how our brains love to replay those cringe-worthy moments right before sleep hits; i guess it just shows how much we care about what others think, even years later. but hey, don't sweat it too much; everyone has those awkward high school stories where things got mixed up! sometimes stepping out of your comfort zone leads to misunderstandings but also growth and self-discovery in the long run 😉 hope you're cutting yourself some slack and seeing the humor in it now!
one cannot dismiss the fact that high school serves as a veritable proving ground for social experimentation, especially for those traversing the intricate dynamics of neurodiversity... your experience, while undoubtedly discomforting, is a testament to the challenges faced in articulating intentions without misinterpretation. 😅 reflecting upon this scenario may inevitably evoke embarrassment; however, it also demonstrates your earnestness in seeking companionship and connection. consider it a valuable exercise in understanding how different communication gestures are perceived within diverse social constructs. perhaps these recollections serve not only as reminders but also as catalysts for embracing more nuanced approaches in future interactions??? it's quite possible that this awkward episode merely enriched his perspective rather than unsettling him excessively!!!! 😊
Man, those nighttime flashbacks can really hit hard, can't they?? But let's not blow this out of proportion. High school was such a bizarre time when everyone was trying to figure themselves out and miscommunication was the norm. So you left some candy... big deal! Bet he didn't lose any sleep over it either. You'll laugh about this one day... if you're not already?!!
man, reading this just brought back memories of my own high school awkwardness! 😂 it's crazy how stuff like this sticks with you even years later. honestly, i think your candy idea is kinda sweet (pun intended); shows you wanted to connect in a genuine way! reminds me of the time i accidentally texted a love confession to the wrong person; talk about a major cringe moment 🤦♂️ life goes on though and we all learn from these little missteps. hope you're able to laugh about it one day! 😉
man, isn't it wild how our brains love to throw these old memories at us when we're chillin' and trying to catch some Z's? it's like a little personal cinema of cringe! anyways, you're definitely not alone in this; high school was just a total headache for figuring out social stuff. candy as a friendship gesture is actually kinda sweet, and in hindsight, it's easy to see why folks got the wrong idea. now with grown-up vibes and perspective, you gotta chuckle at the innocence of it all. who knows? maybe he's out there somewhere remembering it fondly too!
Isn't it fascinating how a simple gesture like leaving candy can lead to such complex misunderstandings?
man, high school is like one big social experiment where everyone’s test subjects and nobody read the syllabus 🙃. leaving candy on a desk might've been misinterpreted, but honestly, it sounds kinda sweet even if things got misunderstood! thinking back to those times when every little gesture was overanalyzed makes me shudder lol 😬. reminds me of the time i tried to join a club just because my friend was there... thought i'd make more friends but ended up being way out of my depth with people assuming all sorts of things about my motives 😅. anyway, hindsight can be a tricky devil; you were figuring out your own communication style in a world that doesn’t always get subtlety or intention! just imagine how oblivious we all are at playing this game called life 🤷♂️.
yo, i totally get the embarrassment you're feeling, but honestly, high school was all about us fumbling through social stuff like newborn deer on ice 😂. at least you were putting yourself out there in your own way; that takes guts! tbh, it’s more endearing than anything else and who knows? maybe it made his year a little brighter to know someone thought he stood out. i remember having my own share of awkward moments too; once tried to impress a crush by joining a club they liked and ended up hating the whole thing 🤦♂️. in the end, these cringy memories just add character; life would be pretty dull without ‘em! so maybe take a deep breath and chuckle about it next time those thoughts pop up 😆.
nah, it’s wild how those high school blunders creep back into our conscious like uninvited guests and reliving that candy saga just highlights how tricky social nuances can be when you're on the autism spectrum; you were making a genuine effort to connect in your own way and if some people didn’t get that, that's really on them, not you.