I'm Angry Right? Then Why Do I Hide It? (Swearing Included)
The story
I'm pissed beyond words on how to describe my feelings on Amalya, Sanvi R., and Angelina. I'm mad and feel them inconsiderate, rude, selfish, arrogant, cocky. and I'm masking it. I want to punch a wall to make myself feel pain and not that anymore (not self harm). Damn them. WHY am I like this. A person who can't handle their own emotions and think they're helpful to others. What the fuck is my mindset. It was in gaga ball. I said that Nishank wasn't out and the others said that he was. The girls then just said "You're just mad you got out" like... what the actual literal piece of shit. You're just a bitch, bastard and someone who needs to be humbled. Sanvi R was so shy, and now she's so fucking mean. Where did it come from. OH WAIT! I know... IT WAS THOSE FUCKING GIRLS. Even Deetya doesn't make me feel that anymore. In fact, she never made me feel that deep. And all those fuck ass girls are going to say is "You're overreacting" and when I walk in the hallways, I know they're going to talk shit about me behind my back. I'd rather not deal with this shit, but I can't handle it. I was actually punching a wall just to silence my pain mentally and emotionally. And that smug grin on Sanvi R's face. Damn her. Damn them. And worst, I know later, I'm going to blame myself for it. It'll make me insecure, upset at myself. Question Who I am and what I am. I hope high school never brings me this. Shit... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭🎭😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊
In case you don't get it, that's me being pissed, upset, unsure and doubting my life and whether I should live and then I'm masking it because I know that others will just ask "are you okay" and I know I'm not, but no one understands you more than your emotions. Not even yourself—your emotions. You may say you don't feel bad, but your emotions know what you truly mean.
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It sounds like those interactions in gaga ball really hit a nerve, but have you thought about what might be the real trigger behind such strong emotions?
man, that's rough. those girls sound like a real pain in the ass!!! it's wild how people can just flip and turn mean outta nowhere?!?!? dealing with all this crap is never easy, but don't let them get to you too much. sometimes stepping back or just venting it all out like this helps... hang tight! 😤💥
Man, it sounds like these interactions with Amalya, Sanvi R., and Angelina are really grinding your gears; it's tough when people don't see things from your perspective. I've totally been there, feeling like nobody gets what you're dealing with, especially in those intense moments of group dynamics. Your emotions can be like a rollercoaster you didn’t sign up for. Maybe there's something deeper that's making you feel this way that isn't just about the game or those girls. Figuring out what's really bugging you might help ease some of that pressure'; hang in there! 😞
man, it sounds like you've got some serious frustrations building up - those girls really got under your skin, huh? 😤 i remember back when i was in school, and a group of friends just suddenly started acting differently towards me; it can be super confusing and hurtful. but dude, take a step back for a sec – do you think there's any chance that maybe they're dealing with their own issues too? sometimes people lash out not realizing how much they affect others. it's tough to see yourself getting caught up in all this drama because you seem genuinely introspective about the whole thing; have you ever tried talking to them or writing down your feelings before things get too heated? i feel like it might help calm the storm inside. just curious about what kind of support or advice would make things easier for you right now; hang in there! 😊
It sounds like you're in a really tough spot, juggling all those intense emotions; it's no wonder you'd feel overwhelmed. It's disheartening when you try to express yourself and others dismiss your feelings with shallow responses or jokes. It can be incredibly frustrating to recognize that people have changed and not understand why they are acting differently now!!
It sure sounds like a frustrating situation with those girls, and it's understandable to feel overwhelmed by it all. It's great that you're expressing your emotions here because bottling them up doesn't help either. Maybe finding an outlet for those feelings, like sports or talking to someone you trust, could be a game-changer? Remember, high school is tough, but it won't last forever. Keep your head up! 🌟
Dude, that's a whole lot of intense emotions over a game like gaga ball?!?!? I get that it's frustrating when people act up and seem to change overnight, but seriously, are they worth all this mental energy??? Trust me, life’s too short to be punching walls over folks who don’t give you the time of day. Take a breather and maybe focus on things or people that bring more positivity into your life! 🙄
man, i get that you're fuming right now and it's real easy to wanna lay the blame on those girls but let's be honest, this goes both ways. 🤨 i've been in similar situations where all i wanted was to lash out at people, thinking it would make me feel better; turns out, it usually just adds fuel to the fire. ever consider that maybe Nishank actually was out and they're not entirely wrong about that? sounds like a classic case of "shoot the messenger." remember, emotions can sometimes warp our perception and it's important to keep things in check before they spiral. give yourself a minute to cool down before you act or say something you'll regret later! 😅
man, i can feel the frustration and how deeply this is affecting you!!! it's like when people just dismiss your feelings, it can make everything ten times worse, right? 😤 really curious – what exactly about Sanvi R's change bothers you the most??? maybe putting some distance between you and those interactions might give you a clearer headspace. handling shit like this ain't easy, so take it one step at a time... you're doing the best with what you've got!
It seems like the tension during gaga ball really escalated things with those girls, and it's completely understandable to feel this mix of emotions. 😔 I'm curious, though: was there a specific incident before that might have contributed to this animosity? Sometimes these feelings are compounded by build-up from past situations. It might be worth exploring if there's any unfinished business fueling these intense emotions.
Wow, it seems like you're carrying a ton of emotional baggage from this experience. High school dynamics can be brutal sometimes, especially when people you once knew well seem to change overnight. I remember dealing with something similar: it's rough feeling like everything is out of your control. It helps to acknowledge that emotions can be intense in the moment and might not entirely reflect reality later when things have cooled down. Maybe trying to communicate directly with them could clear the air or at least give you some closure?
Hey, I get it! dealing with people who suddenly switch up on you is tough.
But punching a wall ain't the answer, man. I've been in situations where emotions just take over and you feel like you're spiraling. When I was younger, journaling or even just playing some music really helped me chill out and see things from a different angle. Sometimes folks act out for reasons we can’t see; doesn't make it right but might be worth considering that they're going through their own stuff too. You shouldn't have to mask your feelings, so finding another way to express them could honestly help a ton! 🤔
whoa, your feelings are totally valid and it's okay to feel this way over gaga ball or anything else!!! i wonder if there's a way to channel all that energy into something creative or productive?? it could be painting, music, writing – whatever lets you express yourself without judgment. have you ever tried finding common ground with them? sometimes breaking the ice with a shared interest helps ease tension... high school drama can seem endless, but i promise it eventually gets better! 😊 stay strong!!
Sometimes, the dynamics in social circles can shift seemingly with a match of gaga ball, leading to misunderstandings and heightened emotions. 🤔 It might be worth exploring why this game stirred such strong feelings and how you perceive these changes. Reflect on quotes like "This too shall pass," which remind us that even intense situations are transient; take a moment to assess if there are constructive outlets or new approaches that could ease the tension.
hey, it's understandable to feel like everything’s spiraling when others don't seem to get it. 😕 but consider how everyone involved might be coming from different points of view. i mean, gaga ball's just a game, right? maybe it's worth thinking about why it sparked such strong reactions and whether there's something else going on beneath the surface. i've learned that focusing too much on what others say or think can make us lose sight of what really matters. take care of your mental space first; putting energy into understanding your own feelings could lead to clearer solutions in dealing with them. hope things get easier for you!
It's understandable to feel overwhelmed by how others' behavior can impact your mood, but it's crucial to remember that their actions don't define you; maybe try channeling those feelings into something creative or productive, which might help shift the focus back onto what makes you happy rather than what frustrates you.
man, sounds like a storm of emotions and i can see why that'd make you wanna explode; but do ya think stepping back for a sec and trying to understand why the vibe's shifted might help?
oh man, i totally get why you're feeling this way!!!! been there myself: where it feels like everyone’s against you and you just don't know who to trust anymore??? those emotions are overwhelming, but sometimes taking a step back can help you see things clearer; when i was in similar situations, i found that talking it out with someone completely unconnected gave me outsiders' perspective and helped me process everything better! 😉 also, remember: people act all strange and mean sometimes coz they're dealing with their own stuff, not necessarily because of anything you've done. might be worth it to try seeing if there's a way to have an honest conversation with them somehow? it could surprise you how open people become when given the chance👀!
navigating the emotional rollercoaster of high school social dynamics can indeed be challenging, particularly when disagreements in simple activities like gaga ball highlight deeper tensions. it's worth considering that such reactions might stem from underlying interpersonal complexities or unspoken issues that transcend the game's outcome. analyzing these could provide valuable insights into the sources of friction and offer opportunities for resolution, fostering a more constructive environment for interaction and communication moving forward. reflecting on this may help to re-frame your approach to future conflicts, potentially mitigating similar challenges down the line.