I’m this point of done. One week of torture.
The story
“Things I’ve been called/and/or/talked about or have over heard.
Fat lesbian
Annoying
Uncomfortable
Loud
Bitchy
Gay
Weirdo
“I fucking hate your personality.”
“I’d rather turn my wrist into a waterfall then talk to you”
“It’s not that serious”
“Why do you even care?”
“I would never order a whole pizza for myself.”
“What did you say? I wasn’t listening.”
“Oh her? Yea she’s a fucking fat lesbian.”
“Go ask her out! It’ll be funny.”
“Oh shut up I know you’re lying.”
And then sent a note to my therapist.
“ I’m feeling really suicidal and I’m just finding more and more stuff out and it’s just making it so much worse. I’ve been crying all week and no one to talk to. I’m scared to go to school, I’m scared of confrontation, im scared of looking people in the eyes in the hallway, I’m trying so hard. Way too hard. I’m slowly starting to go non-verbal and I haven’t said a word to anyone since Thursday. I’m pushing everyone out because I’m afraid to annoy them or be too much, my personality has completely changed and now even Lenny’s talking about me, I feel like no one really likes me and I’m freaking out every time I’m in a class with people I know for sure don’t like me and I start going non verbal and I have been skipping class because I know no one in there likes me in the slightest bit and I’ve been skipping classes because of people in there, when I lost my earbud on Thursday I started hyperventilating and I had a panic attack because I couldn’t listen to music. I’m turning my personality completely around and I can’t stand it. I live for talking, if I could I would talk to a deaf person in sign language just to talk some more. I only ever remember me being a sweet, kind, caring, talkitive girl. I thought I was pretty, I thought I would be liked. I completely changed everything just to be liked and it all was lost. All of my achievements are gone and I have to restart. I can’t think of any other way to dress, to wear makeup, how to talk, what words to use, what slag to use I have no idea how.i want to go back to my 5th grade self when literally everyone liked me and knew who I was and loved me. I don’t even have my own small group of friends anymore. ”
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definitely agree with this story!!! no one should have to deal with all that negativity and pressure😡 the mental distress described here is serious stuff; feeling misunderstood and isolated is just unacceptable the emotional toll it takes is evident and harmful it's clear there needs to be more awareness and support structures in place tackling bullying and fostering a supportive environment is crucial!!! objectively the situation highlights significant issues with social dynamics and personal well-being pushing someone to change their identity just to fit in is totally wrong and needs addressing urgently
gotta say, i don't really see eye to eye with this story!!! from my experience, it's usually not all doom and gloom as it seems!!! people often exaggerate situations, and while it's tough to handle criticism, everyone faces it at some point; feeling misunderstood is more common than we think, but it also builds character and resilience... i remember back in school, folks would throw shade, but it never truly defined me or my personality, you know? though the story paints a heavy picture, i reckon there's often more to the story, don't you think? as someone once said, "the world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places" so maybe there's a chance to rise above and find the positive within the chaos 🤔