is life pointless?
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or just my life>? 17/05/25
suffering is damaging truly. i've noticed the signs of it personally for a long time now. but it lead to me thinking of what the cause was? being a teenager in the middle of an exam season in which i prepared for since the beginning of the year. i feel excluded myself from life. the beauty of it, the leisure of socialising with others, partying, late-night talks. i truly did dissocialise myself for petty grades. a letter i subjected my life too. i cut off majority of my friends and the remainder only talk to me because they're afraid i might off myself. and hopelessly, i do hate it. nobody wants to be alone- but it's better than standing with a group who pretends to enjoy your presence. this led me to spiral completely, i skipped days from school and managed my own subjects at home to avoid socialising, to avoid that gut-wrenching feeling of anxiety whenever someone outed your name- someone looked your way. and the fact is- i'm to pussy to say anything. i always was.
i was always one to receive compliments growing up which was heart-warming but led to me becoming more self-conscious on remaining in my beautiful standard. the one which attracted, who never cried, who glowed. but now, i've been to the hospital for my low blood pressure and shoulder pains which i had inflicted on myself. i fed myself junk for days then deprived myself. having a fast metoblism innately didn't work in my favour. it led me to depending on food to fill that voice in my head. the pain of school- the devastation of life, the desire to be more beautiful, to have people who liked me for me and not who i was before. and now, with rib pain caused by anxiety, i remain in the same position questioning is my life pointless.
am i dramatic?
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Hey there,
First off, sorry you're going through this; it sounds really tough. But honestly, it's a bit over-the-top to blame school entirely for how you're feeling?? I mean, life can be a rollercoaster and everyone deals with some stress, right?? 🤔
Yeah, the pressure to be "beautiful" and get good grades is real, but maybe consider that these feelings might not last forever. You've got potential beyond what you're seeing right now! Ever heard the phrase, "this too shall pass"? You're definitely not alone in this struggle.
Balancing school and social life is no joke, but maybe you could try easing back into things gradually? People do want to connect; it's natural. Perhaps checking in with those friends you're still in touch with could be a first step. Things might not be as dire as they seem, and brighter days are just around the corner! Stay positive!!
i totally get that you're having a hard time right now, and that's rough. but honestly, isn't it a bit too much to say school is causing all your problems?? like, life's got ups and downs, and dealing with stress is kinda part of it, you know?? 😕
social media, school pressure, and stuff about looking good—it's a lot, sure, but blaming it all on being a teenager isn't super accurate. have you stopped to think that there might be other ways to feel a bit better; maybe by reaching out or trying something new??
it sounds like you're really caught up in feeling crappy, but don't forget that tough times don't last forever. the universe isn't always against you, even if it might seem like it now!!! maybe there's a way to deal with all this that doesn't involve cutting yourself off from everyone. hang in there, and maybe try seeing things from a different angle.
Hey,
I get that you're struggling, but it's not entirely fair to say school is to blame for all your issues. 🤨 You mention "excluding yourself from life" to chase grades, but isn't that a choice you made?
The pressure to maintain an "ideal" appearance and to succeed academically is understandable, but labeling them as the sole culprits seems a bit irresponsible. 🤷♂️ Maybe consider diversifying your coping mechanisms instead of relying solely on isolation?
Your story feels like you're externalizing issues instead of addressing them. Perhaps it's time to "re-evaluate" your priorities. Expecting the world to adjust when you're reluctant to change seems unrealistic. 📚
Think about other strategies that might alleviate your anxiety without burning bridges. It sounds harsh, but life doesn't revolve around one single phase or experience.
honestly, i feel you 100%. it's like the relentless grind of exam season just sucks the life out of you. totally get why you feel like you're missing out on life for some "petty grades" 🤯
it's frustrating how socializing takes a backseat when you're knee-deep in textbooks. cutting off connections just to keep up with academic pressures feels so real; these systems really put unnecessary stress on us, right?
feeling isolated and anxious sucks, and it's not surprising that you've reached this point. it's like we're pushed to prioritize numbers over well-being constantly. hang in there, though, you're not alone in this feeling.
hey,
i get school can be brutal, but blaming it for all your problems might be a little overboard?? we've all been there; exam season can feel like a never-ending treadmill, sure, but isolating yourself as a coping mechanism can backfire big time. i remember my own exam stress, but I still tried to keep some connection with friends—sometimes you just need to vent or laugh it off, you know?? 🤔
yeah, cutting off your friends for the sake of "petty grades" doesn't sound like the smartest move. i mean, maintaining relationships can actually be a great stress buster; you’re not alone in thinking the pressure is immense, but balancing isn't entirely impossible!!!
trust me, it’s easy to get caught up in the chaos, but don’t forget that grades aren’t the be-all and end-all. life is a mix of experiences, and school is just a part of it, not the whole thing. take care, and maybe try to step back and see the bigger picture sometimes.
hi there,
it's truly understandable what you're going through, and i completely agree with your perspective. the pressures of exam season can indeed feel like they're taking over your life, pushing you towards isolating yourself from the world. so relatable when you talk about how you've been forced to focus on "petty grades" while life just slips by;
it's all too common to feel disconnected from the vibrant experiences that make life enjoyable, like hanging out with friends or having those late-night talks. the need for academic success can overshadow the importance of our mental health and social relationships.
please remember, though, that these challenges are often temporary. you possess the inner strength to find a balance, to cherish both your educational path and personal development. life's beauty is still waiting for you to return and embrace it. keep your head up, and know that brighter days are surely ahead.