feels like I'm drowning.
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for nearly the entire year now, I can't seem to enjoy anything without some annoying little voice in my head going "you're going to die. this wont matter lol." and its all I can think of. if I'm not constantly doing something then it gets in my head and I just think over and over "nothing you do will matter. you're gonna die. everyone dies in the end." and its like, sometimes just because I know Im going to die someday I consider speeding up the process so I don't feel like I've ran out of time and instead I'm willingly giving it up. and I cant think about doing things in the future or things I have done because then It's just reminding mee I'm stepping closer towards the end. i don't know how to stop.
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Man, sounds like you're stuck in some serious existential dread hell. 😒 I get it; the idea of confronting mortality can be overwhelming, but fixating on it constantly isn't sustainable or healthy; It's practically putting life on pause. I've been there—sometimes what helps is fully diving into something that fuels your passion or interest, which overpowers those intrusive thoughts with purpose and engagement. Remember, it's not about running from death but living for life's moments.
I don't even know how to do that lol.
yo, I get where you're coming from but focusing on death like that isn't it; it's like watching a depressing movie scene on loop when there's so much more to the story. have you tried looking into mindfulness or meditation? i've found they can help shut up that nagging voice by keeping you in the moment. why let fears about the end ruin what's here now, ya know?