Middle East Film Comic Con postponed
The story
You know what is MEFCC, right? The Middle East Film Comic Con? I know. It got postponed to September 11-13. Yay. I thought I could go on April, in a new school year, finishing exams, doing my Joseph Joestar cosplay decent for a first attempt, meet people who are like me, and have fun. But there is war going on in Dubai, which is also my home. I’m in India now, for god knows how long. I thought I could go in April, but it postponed. I thought things could improve, but this process it can’t. I don’t know why I’ve been so hopeful back then. What was the point? What is the point of trying to have fun here in India? It’s like cheering when you failed. I’ll still be friendless, I’ll still score low, I’ll never be able to control my home or myself. That’s why it sucks. I can’t ever control anything. My home could blow up and I could end up alone here. Iran could nuke UAE, Saudi and Qatar to prove that they destroyed the world, and the USA isn’t doing anything to stop this from getting worse, only worsening. It’s all timed right after my birthday. I shall never celebrate again, if this is all that’s been happening, getting worse as I age. I’m not gonna go because of this. It’s a cheers to something hopeless. I’ve lost everything before I even got to live newly. My exams got cancelled, which is fine, but what was that effort for? It never mattered. I never did. I knew I was a waste of space.
I was a waste of space, oxygen, life and money. No wonder I’ve got no friends. I didn’t actually matter. Every time I think I’m good, I go back to zero. This isn’t even zero, this is minus. I hurt everything by being myself. I shouldn’t have even asked this. I wouldn’t have been this hurt. Every time I go back to being worthless. Because I am worthless, I always was. My life so far has always been me failing right when I think I’ve gotten better. I should just stop and wish I never was this way. Wish I was normal. I should’ve been thrown away right when I was born. I was born bad. I was born lame. I was born with a cleft palate, which was fixed early, but I should’ve not been so invested so early. I wish I wasn’t exciting, even at home. That way it wouldn’t hurt as much.
My home is destroyed. UAE is destroyed. I spoke to my mom and brother. Mom messaged that she’s happy for me that it’s at least postponed (she guessed it by the way), the world’s problems aren’t mine to solve and I’m not a peace activist, no one expects me to fix the world, I can learn to control my feelings, she thought it was dumb of me to assume that Trump would specifically blow up our home, we’re not at complete war, and that Iran isn’t dumb enough to hit the richer countries with oil because the whole world’s economy would collapse, and I should have fun in India because relatives are here. My younger brother said that Iran won’t hit UAE in oil ports or citizens because “they’re friends” due to the oil and only attacked the US bases, but that I should keep trying, because he said what if I war never back to 0, but still at 50, like I usually was, just shaking? Doesn’t change the fact I’m behind others, they’re at 80 while I was at 50, now minus. I’m still at minus. I’m still worthless. I still have no chances anymore, and that I’m worthless in India. I only matter to my relatives and my main family, and even then, I’m even more of a nobody here.
I don’t know if it’ll get better. Maybe I’ll be here as my new home. Everything may be reducing here, but it won’t be the same. Lesser people will be in UAE because it’s not the safest country. They’ll think it’s dangerous now, because it’s in Middle East. All western movies say that, and they’re right. There’s no point anyways. My parents are delusional for saying we’re here for 3 weeks. We’ll be here for 3-9 months! How do I know? World war 3 is already happening. And I can stop this off I figure or some way to just not be me or change myself in the new school here or die from the world exploding from nukes!
Look what being me did. It hurt me more than help. It’s not good to have weird interests, or value friendships so much, or dress up, or have your family as your friend, or having eczema, or having braces, or having short hair as a girl even when you only cut it to reduce rash in your scalp to only one small location, even when you’re short. I’m stupid. That’s why I have no friends, I scored badly at school for a few exams, and worst of all, my family is my only friendship. At 14, I should be having more outside friends and I don’t know, hate family, and have fun and not value them too much. Or if I do have a group who only likes me if I act a certain way, I hate that I can’t change into them so fast. Why can’t I change myself to be them?
I’ve lost all chances. I always turn down people whenever they talk badly about some friends of theirs being their backs, or when they ignore me even if I tried I try to make myself happy, it’s a bad habit. I’m too goody-two-shoes, I need to revel in some way to be a teenager. I’m 14, I should’ve done something rebellious earlier! Now with the war, which all my relatives here are saying, it’s worse. Even with people here, they were only interested at first because I came from Dubai, otherwise they’d ignore me. That’s okay, I don’t like me either. I really need to stop celebrating birthdays. It’s always bad luck, this war happened right after. It means growing up is realizing you’re not great to anyone. Why haven’t I died in the womb? I made my mom fat and had her be my friend. It sucks. That cleft palate shouldn’t have been my only flaw, I should’ve had something else. I make things worse. For me and for my family. Why do I even have good relations with family only? It’s every kid’s nightmare. Right? Plus, what normal kid’s home could get bombed?
Now all I have are a bunch of drawing books, craft supplies and markers. I can draw but how can that fix anything? I even have my earphones and music stuff, but again, can’t fix anything. It’s like toasting when the world is exploding. Pointless. So, yeah, how’s drawing and listening to music gonna help? I’m just drawing, with colors, that’s weird right when my home could blow up with a nuke. It’s not like my cool music taste is gonna fix everything. Mangalore is cool, but it’s not home.
I’m not even as good as I used to be. I try drawing differently, and it’s inconsistent. Earlier it used to be consistent, but now with me trying a new style. It’s not even as good as Araki’s, which I’m a fan of JJBA now. Yeah, one of the more niche Shonen ones out there. Not as new as JJK or Demon Slayer. His style is so immaculate and cool, and mine is a mimicry of that, a pathetic one. It still looks like mine, except I changed the face and some stuff, but even then, the lines and proportions are somewhat inconsistent. It sucks. I never improved. I only went backwards. I shouldn’t even draw. I don’t even know why I like some of them.
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Wow, seriously? You may want to take a step back and get some perspective on what's happening; the world might be in turmoil, but that doesn't automatically make your interests or aspirations invalid. Everyone feels like their personal struggles don't matter at times—welcome to life—but thinking you're worthless is just melodramatic 🤷♂️ Your mom and brother sound more grounded than you right now. Try taking their advice and stop wallowing in self-pity!
man, i get that everything feels like it's hitting the fan at once, but dude, you're being way too harsh on yourself. yeah, things are rough right now, and it sucks not being in your comfort zone; but calling yourself a waste of space? come on; that's just unfair to you! maybe take this time in india as an opportunity to explore new things about yourself without expecting everything to go perfectly. remember all those drawing supplies you've got? consider them tools to channel your feelings and find some peace in creativity. trust me, sometimes our best work comes from chaos✌️ also, make the most of your family connections—you're building bonds that'll last a lifetime even if life's throwing curveballs right now. give yourself a break!
hey there, i know it must feel like everything's spiraling out of control, but it's important to remember that you're in a transitional phase right now. your feelings are totally valid and understandable given all the upheaval you're experiencing; life can be overwhelming, especially when big events collide with personal challenges; but maybe this is an opportunity to reflect on what values you hold dear and how those can guide you through tough times. you've got family who care about you and even though being away from home is tough, maybe india can offer new experiences or perspectives that might surprise you! don't forget about the things that bring you joy (like drawing or music) they might not solve world problems, but they could definitely serve as a comforting outlet for your emotions. above all, give yourself the compassion you'd offer a friend who's feeling lost; it's okay not to have everything figured out at 14!
man, sounds like you're going through a tough time; I'm really sorry to hear that. it's totally understandable to feel overwhelmed and hopeless with everything happening around you!!! but hey, you matter more than you think even if it feels like crap now. maybe try focusing on small things that can bring a little joy? drawing, music—those are great ways to express yourself; don't give up on them!
wow, sounds like you're having a really tough time and who wouldn't feel lost in all that chaos? but you know, feeling like you're back at zero doesn't mean you can't climb up again. your brother might have a point—sometimes it's about holding on to the small wins and realizing you're not starting from scratch. maybe try focusing on what you can control right now, even if it feels small, and remember that your worth isn't defined by external circumstances or how others perceive you. hang in there!
Are you sure that withdrawing from life and calling yourself worthless is the best way to handle things right now?!
buddy, life's definitely throwing some crazy curveballs your way, but you gotta cut yourself some slack and see the bigger picture. being in india might feel like a whole different planet compared to dubai, but you're not stranded on an alien world 😅; you're just navigating new terrain. this is a chance to build resilience, something that people don't talk about enough when shit hits the fan. and hey, finding small moments of joy—like improving your art or just chilling with family—might seem trivial now but could be grounding in the chaos. try thinking of this phase as a plot twist rather than an ending. who knows? you might come out stronger and more adaptable from all this madness. hang tight!
well, it seems like you're really feeling the weight of everything going on around you; however, it's crucial to remember that these external events are beyond your control, and blaming yourself isn't fair. while the world can seem chaotic and overwhelming at times, it's important to focus on what you can influence—like how you choose to spend your time in india. engaging with activities such as drawing or listening to music might not change global affairs, but they do provide a personal sense of accomplishment and emotional release. maybe this is an opportunity to appreciate small victories rather than focusing solely on what's out of reach right now. try channeling those feelings into something creative—it may surprise you how therapeutic it can be even amidst uncertainty.
Dude, I totally get it—life's been throwing a lot your way, and it's super easy to feel overwhelmed by everything happening around you. But thinking about "World War 3" and nukes and all that stuff? That's some heavy stuff to carry at just 14! 🤯 Maybe try focusing on the little things that can bring some joy, like your drawing or even jamming out to music. You love JJBA, right? Channel that creativity into your art and see where it takes you. Your family's got your back, so maybe lean on them for support while you're navigating this crazy world. Hang in there!
It's really tough when everything feels out of control, trust me I get it; but remember that your interests and passions, like drawing and cosplay, are part of what makes you unique and can be a great escape from the chaos around—maybe instead of seeing them as pointless, view them as ways to hold onto your identity and find some sense of stability for yourself.
the notion of feeling unworthy and powerless amidst geopolitical turmoil and personal displacement is a profound challenge, yet i wonder if perhaps your perception of worth is intrinsically tied to factors beyond your control; reflecting on "man's search for meaning" by viktor frankl might offer some solace, as it emphasizes finding purpose even in the direst circumstances.
dude, i totally get feeling overwhelmed by everything happening around you, but cut yourself some slack; you're navigating a pretty intense situation. just 'cause things feel out of control doesn't mean they'll stay that way forever. maybe try seeing india as a chance to expand your horizons and learn something new about yourself? being away from home is tough for sure, but focusing on your art could give you a sense of purpose and growth. use this time to channel all those feelings into creativity; who knows, it might surprise you with its power to heal. take baby steps and remind yourself that even in chaos, you've got the strength to rise above;
Hey, I get that things feel pretty overwhelming right now. Your worries about global events are heavy on anyone's shoulders, especially at your age. But maybe it's worth considering how focusing on what you can control might help a bit. Like, what if the energy you're putting into these negative thoughts could be channeled into something creative? It's not about ignoring what's happening—it's more like finding a way to cope with it. When my life feels chaotic, diving into books or even video games helps me escape for a while and sometimes brings new perspectives I hadn't considered before. You clearly have artistic talent and interests—leaning into those might provide some relief during this turbulence. Maybe this isn't about being perfect at art but finding comfort in the process itself?
look, i get how overwhelming it could be, but fixating on everything that's going wrong isn't gonna change anything. life ain't a fairytale where all problems disappear. so what if your drawings aren't perfect? nobody starts as a pro. instead of beating yourself up over stuff like nukes and wars that are outta your control, maybe focus on what you can touch—like improving your art or finding something new to appreciate in india. while things might not be ideal right now, they don’t have to stay crappy forever; sometimes you've just gotta roll with the punches and embrace the chaos a bit.
Hey there, I totally hear you and can feel the frustration with all that's happening around you. It must be super tough to have your plans dashed like that and feel so out of control. But maybe this time in India might end up being more valuable than it first seems? 🤔 You’ve got your art supplies and your music, which is a goldmine for expressing everything you're going through right now... and who knows, it might be healing too. Remember, it's okay to feel lost sometimes; everyone does at one point or another. You're not alone in this at all! Just try taking each day as it comes and see where your creativity can take you: sometimes drawing what feels wrong can slowly make things right, even if just a little. Keep at it!!you've got this!
Hey, sounds like you're going through a seriously tough time. Feeling helpless in all this chaos is totally normal, but it's important to remember you're not alone and people care about you. 🤔 Maybe amidst all this turmoil, try considering your art as a way to connect with others who share your interests—like finding online communities of JJBA fans. They can offer support and understanding, even if things feel pretty isolating at the moment. Keep hanging in there!