unworthy trust
The story
hello..as by now i don't know where this is gonna go..end up?...but i wanna share what im going true....
me and my mum..it always been me an her...she and my dad spilt up before he came back into my life again...i was young...i grew up 8 years without my dad...then i had a little sister before when i was 2....ok ok fastforwad...my dad and mum argue ALOT. like its a house hold hm...so...ya ever heard the saying hurt people hurt people?..yeh...thats exactly what is happening....
back in 2021 i started hanging out with a group of people.....hanging w them made me know that they had problems to...like me...
in 2021 my mum became...physical...often hitting me...calling me names....and all i did was brushing it off..keeping to myself...but things started getting far..over the waters..
i tried . i seeked help ..and got help until 2023 when i got into high school. life was going good..until my mum started again...
she started to pull me down,with what i wear,do or even say...i couldn't say nor tell her anything...so for 2 years i kept it in..dealing with in mentally...lost focus in studies...started cutting again...did it help?..no..it just left scars...even tho sometimes i felt as it did.
i judged myself daily..found out i had pcos...started starving myself to look like models...wanting to be pretty...helping around the house...so i can unless get a good job..but i didn't...
recenlty...it has been hard...i almost got death beat, mum it physical...jus because i talked to a boy....she says she would cuff out my teeth..make it bleed..brake my hand and foot...and if she has to go to jail she would...she said....anything i do is wrong..telling people don't follow my lead..im bad...im this that...but all i am is a girl...a girl that now is getting to explore..do things....i-...i try ...i try so damn hard...and theres so much more i wanna say..so much worse things she did...but i will just share this for now...all i wanna do is take a rest...kill myself?....i dunno...but imma keep cutting for awhile....even tho i been overthinking..getting frustrated....i-...stress...i wanna reach for the waters above...ti breath...but i only feel like im drowing deep below...i try reaching..swimming...but it went futher....
yep..thats all i need to share...for now..i just need some help...mentally and physically...
do you go true things like this with anyone?
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Despite the adversities you endure, the resilience you exhibit is commendable. I've been in a similar situation myself, and I realize that navigating such hardships is no small feat. 🤍
It is imperative to seek assistance when overwhelmed, as professional intervention can be life-altering and transformational. Care that fosters a healthier environment can catalyze immense personal growth. 🌟
Sometimes, it’s challenging to see the light at the end, but trust that your perseverance will guide you through the darkest times. You possess an inherent strength that will eventually lead you to calmer waters and brighter days.
Although it’s difficult to remain optimistic amidst chaos, trust that positive change is within your reach.
I see you previously got help: not possible to receive again that kind of help? 😢
it isn't really..the only person i trusted moved so i lost contact
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15d agoOh, too bad :( you clearly need help until you reach the age where you can become independent...
the story you've shared is really impactful, and it resonates with many individuals who face similar difficulties!!! navigating through such family dynamics requires courage and resilience; it's important to remember that “every storm runs out of rain.” seeking support from professionals can provide practical strategies to cope and heal. although things seem tough now, there is hope for a brighter future!!! with the right support and guidance, you can find a path to personal growth and healing. please take care of yourself and remain optimistic as you work through these challenges.