exogenous depression
The story
I have always wanted to live in this city. It is vibrant, full of opportunities and seemingly everything I hoped for in a place to call home. Starting a new job here should be thrilling, right? However, ever since I began, an inexplicable sense of melancholy has taken hold of me; it's hard to explain why or where it comes from. Despite being surrounded by supportive colleagues and promising prospects, this feeling lingers like a persistent cloud looming over my life experience. How do people deal with such situations when everything should feel like it's falling into place?! Even the routine tasks that once brought joy now seem burdensome and insurmountable… the enthusiasm just isn't there anymore.
Amidst the clamor of coworkers' chatter and the ever-busy streets teeming with life, I find myself sinking deeper into this mire of emotions. What happens when you can't shake off emotions linked so closely to circumstances you thought you craved? Feeling guilty about not matching expectations adds salt to the wound. Is it psychological burnout already?!😔 Or maybe the initial excitement was just masking underlying issues? Why must our minds play such tricks on us? This contrast between what should be happiness and this dreariness is confusing and exhausting... My personal journey through these times makes me question if I'm even cut out for this industry or lifestyle.
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sounds like you're experiencing the classic "grass is greener" dilemma; you finally got to where you wanted, and now it feels different. i've been there too when i moved cities for a job. thought it'd be amazing, but ended up feeling empty, even with everything going well on paper. sometimes it's just about giving yourself time to adjust, or realizing maybe it's not what was missing all along. don't beat yourself up for not being on cloud nine immediately. familiar routines might help stabilize things a bit if nothing else changes yet.
Thanks for sharing your experience. It's kinda reassuring to know I'm not alone in this "grass is greener" thing. It’s just so confusing, though! I'll try finding some stability in routines... maybe that's a good start.
its normal chill
I totally get u! went thru something similar when i moved cities for work felt super down even though I had everything i wanted! was rough but things got better gradually hang in there!
Nice to know I'm not alone in this kind of adventure! It's like life has a funny way of playing jokes on us. Here's to gradually climbing out of the funk!
Absolutely agree! I've been there too.
it's wild how sometimes, even when we're living our dreams, the reality just doesn't match up with what we pictured in our heads; maybe there's a mismatch between expectations and reality that's harder to pinpoint than we think.
I get what you're saying here. When I moved to a new city for a job, I was hyped at first; had all these dreams about how awesome it would be. But once the reality hit, there was this weird emptiness even though everything seemed perfect on paper. It's like when you finally buy that gadget you've been eyeing and then realize, "oh, it's just another thing." Sometimes your mind plays tricks and you need to take little breaks or find small wins in everyday stuff to help balance things out. You're not alone in feeling like this, nor should you feel bad either!
Ah, the classic case of post-dream blues. It's like buying that shiny new gadget only to find out the thrill doesn't last as long as the hype suggested. 🤔 Could it be you're in the infamous "honeymoon phase" decline where initial excitement gives way to reality? Sometimes our minds romanticize a scenario until we're actually living it and see all the little imperfections and challenges we hadn't anticipated. Try not to associate guilt with your feelings!! everyone's experience is different, and stepping into a bustling city or a high-powered job can easily feel overwhelming at first. Maybe it's worth taking some time for personal interests outside work to reignite that spark you once had!
i see where you're coming from; but sometimes moving can trigger unexpected feelings that sort themselves out eventually.
Man, isn't it just peachy when everything you were so excited for becomes the source of your misery?
well it sounds like your expectations might've been too high, honestly. sometimes just because we want something doesn't mean it's gonna solve all our problems. cities promise a lot but deliver less than expected.
This resonates with me completely.
maybe it'll pass soon?
sometimes the hype and high expectations we create for ourselves can turn into a trap when reality hits, and even though everything seemed perfect, it's like discovering a new layer of fatigue that wasn't expected in this scenario; maybe it's worth considering if the city's energy is just overwhelming rather than invigorating, which isn't uncommon for many people.
it reminds me of my first major career shift; everything looked perfect on paper yet internally i felt conflicted and unsure why i wasn't content... it did improve, however slowly.
felt like that first job too; was exhausting at first!
've been in that spot movin takes time to adjust tho
It's kind of bizarre, isn't it? We build up these dreams and expectations about a new place or job as if they'll magically fix everything; maybe it's that we put too much pressure on ourselves to feel a certain way. The brain can be a real trickster, making even the most exciting things seem dull once they're part of the daily grind. It's almost like your mind is rebelling against the change by latching onto old habits and feelings instead of embracing the new vibe you're in. Perhaps consider shaking up your routine with something totally unexpected or creative?? sometimes breaking away from what's familiar can jolt you back into enthusiasm 😊
sounds a bit dramatic given you've only just started this whole thing; better perspective needed maybe?