Are my standards for love too unrealistic?
The story
Ok. If there is one thing I have learned in life is that I am a catch to absolutely no one. And I'm not looking for people to tell me I am beautfiul and amazing and all of that junk, because I've dealt with people who constantly need to be told how amazing they are and it is exhausting. I just want to know if I'm being unrealistic for what I want in a parter. First of, I am a gay woman in a VERY VERY red state, which means its hard to find people with the same sexuality anyways. Dating apps are a disaster. I have never wanted to be someones third, especially with some of the men that these women are dating or married to. Now I finally find this girl who actually likes how I look and is willing to put up with me, but she seems to really dislike all of the things I like. She hates romance movies or most movies that aren't horror, she doesn't like to read, she says she wants to travel but talks about how she will never get on a plane, she doesn't like rollar coasters or crafts that aren't legos. and truly the one thing that just irks me more than anything else is what she knows about the world. For context I am a college graduate, both of my parents have masters degrees, I have vistied historical sites since I was old enough to understand their significance. She cannot do simple addition to safe her life, she does these semi dangerous exeriments (like putting a battery down her garbage disposial to see what will happen, or tearing at a battery until it creates just a strip of lithium), she didn't even know how many states were in the U.S until a week ago when I caught her calling Tennessee a country rather than a state. Sometimes i have to break down my instructions or exactly what I am saying to her because she just doesn't get it. But she really really likes me, and I like how passionate she is and that she is trying to learn, but its been almost a month and it just drives me crazy sometimes. She has a lot of health problems and I have to remind her to have her medicine or check in with her that she is actually eating. Also she is talking about promise rings, moving intogether, marriage, and kids. I've told her that I don't know if this is forever. Truly I'm still working out a lot of things about myself. So it's not like I'm hiding all of this from her. i guess after watching another rom com and realizing that I didn't want to talk about it because I didn't want to bore her made me wonder if I am looking for a love or a partnership that only exists in movies, or if by holding on I could be missing that person that makes me feel seen and complete in everything I do. I just don't know anymore.
Am I delusional or is there something out there?