Heartbreak and Vent about other things
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So boom, got a boyfriend, very in love with me, missing me, texting everyday, great intimate moments, sweet all rounded guy. Tho lately, these past couple of days, he's been distant. Then he told me he's bipolar, like diagnosed. Now I was questioning, did he get with me out of mania? I was searching online about people with bipolar and things like "they could cheat or break up with you during an episode" or "they say certain things that aren't logical and you just need to go along with it" and " you can try your best to support but you can't love bipolar away, if you do, your words will go in one ear and out the other, if you're with someone who has bipolar then you'll likely need a therapist" and scary shit like "the disorder will get worse and worse, if they don't take care of it, it will mess with the brain, death."
Then I was like okay, I know he has this, it's okay that he's distant but I was still worried. It hurts but it was also apart of the relationship. I think I'm a very justice-oriented person, hard for me to leave hurt people alone to fend for themselves. I was pouring the best I could into him with support and care, but it all seems kinda useless as sometimes he didn't respond or gave a bit of a dry response which caused me to overthink, like if I did something wrong. That's not all of who he is tho, he's a very great guy, I wanna say the greatest guy I know (I have a past with bad men in general whether family or guys online.) I will add I'm 18 and he's a year older.
Currently? Idk why but he unfriended me and unfollowed me on two separate apps. He didn't say anything, the last thing he said to me was that I was handsome and other kind stuff. Obviously, I've been pretty sad, he really healed me and I loved him, even tho I didn't really realize it because it's not like it's been that long. Tho I'm left wondering, could it be the depressive episode he's in? I searched online and saw stuff like "bipolar ghosting or how interacting can just be exhausting for them." Did he stabilize and realize he didn't wanna be with me and regret everything?
Ughh why did he have to do it so close to Valentine's day, this is embarrassing for me to get dumped like this if that's even the case.
I'm really alone again, he really did make me happy. It's a different type of happiness, like wow I have someone to do things with and we enjoy each other's company.
I also just feel like my family hates me, they didn't say anything and I didn't do anything but I feel like I would be better off gone. It doesn't help that I still have this ugly hairstyle on my head, everyone is telling me to wait it out. Times like this, I wanna do something drastic and impulsive, killing myself would be the most but I'll try to do something more tame. I don't really see anything improving and even if I tried, it wouldn't help as I see this far. I haven't been this close to killing myself, usually it's just passively but now I feel I could actually do it, my next step is figuring out how and writing a letter. Since I'll be doing this, I'll do some impulsive decisions before. I do kinda wanna wait and kill myself at 20 as I feel emotions would hit the most but that's too long. I think I'll probably just be dedicating this year to planning ways to get off this planet. People don't take suicidal people seriously until they're dead anyways so it will allow me to stop whining and just skip to the part where people suddenly care. Don't get me wrong, I try to take care of myself, working out, having hobbies, trying to get out there, putting myself out there, brushing my teeth, showering but none of that can get rid of my mental illness, it seems to be getting worse and just coming back again am again for however long, from either a few days or weeks or hours. I don't expect people here to know how to help me as I know it's a complex and hard problem that I probably should be in a psych ward for. This is just kinda my letter.
Thank you for anyone who reads all this 🩷🖤 Happy Valentine's Day! Remember that this is a day for love of any kind, not just romantic. c:
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dang, that's a lot to process. first off, i'm really sorry you're going through all this—sounds heavy. it's tough dealing with someone you care about pulling away, especially when mental health stuff is involved. but remember, his actions aren't necessarily a reflection of how he feels about you; they might just be part of what he's dealing with internally.
it's great that you're trying to support him but also don't forget to look after yourself too. self-care isn't just brushing your teeth or hitting the gym—though those are good—but making sure your head's in the right place and reaching out for help when you need it. could talk to a therapist or even just someone who'll listen without judgment if things get too rough.
and yeah, valentine's day can sting when things feel upside down. but try not to let one day define your worth or future. you've got time ahead of you and it can get better—even if it doesn’t seem like it now. hang tight and keep searching for those small pockets of joy where you can find 'em 💪🖤
Thank you so much! This made me feel better <3 You're a very kind person.
Wow, that’s a lot to handle. First off, it’s clear you care deeply for him and want the best for him, which is commendable. But don’t forget, relationships can be complicated, especially when mental health issues are involved. Remember you're not responsible for someone else's happiness—focus on what you need too.
Being unfriended can sting real bad but try not to over-analyze his motives; they might have little to do with anything you've done. Maybe give it some space and see how things play out? And hey, it's okay to feel down sometimes but reaching out to someone who’ll genuinely hear you out could really help. You deserve support too. Keep looking after yourself as best as you can!
Thank you so much c:
Hey, I'm really sorry to hear you're going through all this. Relationships can be so complicated and emotionally heavy, especially when mental health is involved. It's clear you care a lot about him, but don't forget your own well-being too. It sounds like you're feeling pretty overwhelmed right now, and talking to someone like a therapist could help unpack everything you’re carrying. Remember, you deserve support just as much as he does. Also, hang in there with the hairstyle! Sometimes small changes make a big difference in how we feel. Take care! 😊
consider seeking guidance from professionals who specialize in these areas; therapists or support groups might offer valuable insights and coping strategies. sometimes just finding people who've experienced something similar can provide some relief—a kind of shared understanding that you're not navigating this alone. while valentine's day might amplify feelings of loneliness right now, understand it's just one day within the vast tapestry of life ahead; keep faith in better days and cherish those moments when light comes through even amid the darkness ☀️
man, that's a tough situation to be in. it's clear you care about him deeply and you're trying to navigate this the best you can. but remember, even if he loves you back, his actions are probably more about him than anything you've done wrong. mental health is such a complex thing and sometimes it makes people act in ways they don't fully understand themselves 🤔
honestly, taking a step back might give both of you some needed perspective. i know it feels lonely right now but giving yourself time to process without jumping into drastic decisions could really make a difference. self-care isn’t just about doing things—it's also about forgiving yourself when things aren’t perfect and finding peace in whatever small ways possible.
also, sharing your feelings on here was brave; admitting how dark things feel is no small feat. keep that courage going by reaching out to someone who can offer professional support—sometimes talking can untangle thoughts more than we expect 💪 hang in there!
yo, that's a rough patch you're hitting💔 i can totally get why you'd be feeling all sorts of ways right now; it's wild how someone can make you feel on top of the world and then suddenly you're left questioning everything. bipolar stuff kind of throws a wrench in normal relationship dynamics, huh? from what i've seen with my own pals who struggle with it, sometimes there's no rhyme or reason to their actions, like going ghost for a bit or acting distant. doesn't mean they don't care; it's just how they're wired.
you mentioned feeling like your family ain't vibing with you—man, that's gotta sting too. but seriously, even if they don't say it much, families usually care more than we think. just hang on a sec before making any big decisions; life has this funny way of flipping script when we least expect it.; plenty people out there who would miss you more than words can convey.
guess bottom line is that life's unpredictable as heck and not always fair—yeah, it sucks. but don't close the book yet; sometimes chapters change unexpectedly and reveal something beautiful down the line. wishing you strength to navigate through this stormy weather✌️
Thank you all so much, I love all you guys <3 Reading these has given me the hope to keep going, I feel better than before. I'm not really thinking about him much but I'm still willing to support if he ever comes back. All of your kind words really helped me and pulled me out of that headspace. Thanks everyone, again 🩵
Consider prioritizing your own mental health—after all, sustaining a supportive role is only possible when you're in a good place yourself; it's okay to seek professional guidance if you're feeling overwhelmed or distressed!
man, that's a lot to take in. dealing with someone who suddenly pulls away when you're feeling so deeply for them is rough, especially when mental health complexities like bipolar disorder are involved. it's amazing you want to support him but also be mindful of where it leaves you emotionally—it's not easy putting yourself out there and facing uncertainty in return. maybe this distance he's created could really be more about his personal struggles than anything you've done wrong.
have you considered asking him directly about what's going on or if he needs space? that might provide some clarity rather than leaving everything up for assumption. and while it’s tough now, remember your life's worth isn't tied to how others treat you—even during holidays like valentine's day, which might amplify feelings of isolation. keep nurturing those hobbies and self-care routines; they’re vital even if they feel small compared to everything else happening right now 💪
yo, that's really rough and i'm so sorry you're in such a tough spot :(
Hey, I get how you're feeling; it's rough when things go south unexpectedly. His bipolar diagnosis is challenging and might explain his recent behavior, but it's crucial to realize that you can't fix it or predict his every move. Focus on what you need right now.
On another note, don't let Valentine's Day magnify the sense of loss or loneliness—love comes in many forms beyond romantic relationships. Prioritizing your mental health is non-negotiable; reach out to someone who can provide the professional support necessary to navigate this tough period. Don't give up on yourself, even when it feels like nothing will improve. You're worth more than a fleeting low point or impulsive decisions.
In navigating a relationship where mental health challenges like bipolar disorder are present, it's crucial to maintain open communication and patience while also ensuring you establish boundaries to protect your well-being; remember that love is about understanding and support, but it's equally important not to lose sight of yourself in the process.
Hey, I feel you on so many levels here 😕 Dealing with bipolar in a relationship can be like navigating a rollercoaster ride without a safety bar. It's tough when someone pulls away, especially when you've been giving it your all and wanting to help them; but remember, it's not your responsibility to fix everything for him. It sounds like you're a really caring person who's willing to do whatever it takes—and that's amazing.
When things seem overwhelming, it's super important to take care of yourself first 🫶 Your happiness shouldn't depend entirely on another person or their actions. Sometimes just finding little moments of joy in everyday activities can be grounding. Keep focusing on those positive habits you've developed and build from there—trust me, they make a big difference
your situation sounds quite challenging, and it's commendable how you’re trying to understand his condition while dealing with your own feelings. relationships often bring us to confront complex emotions and unexpected situations, especially with mental health dynamics in the mix. i admire your commitment to being supportive, which is not an easy feat.
as someone who's been through relationship hiccups myself, sometimes finding clarity involves understanding what's important for you moving forward. have you thought about seeking support from peers or mentors who might offer new insights? it could also be beneficial to focus on what makes you feel grounded during such turbulent times. take care of yourself first—being strong internally can help you navigate where this journey leads next.
Yo, this situation sounds rough but let's be real for a sec—putting the entire blame on his bipolar might be missing the bigger picture. People ghost others for a variety of reasons that aren't always tied to their mental health. Have you asked yourself why you feel so responsible for fixing him? 🤷♂️ Seriously though, it’s crucial to assess where your self-worth is really anchored; depending on someone else's affection or behavior is risky business. Maybe reconsider if being with him—whether he's struggling or not—is genuinely what you're after long-term. Life's gonna throw us curveballs, but who says we can't hit them outta the park eventually!
I didn't mean for this to come off as a way to only blame his bipolar. All of what I said are just guesses. Bipolar people can be depressed without it being apart of bipolar. He just directly told me he's depressed. I'm really sorry, I didn't mean for it to come off that his bipolar is all to blame.
I'm not trying fix per say. It was more like I wanna make him at least a bit happy. It seems I did a bit but I was sad at the time because I wanted to give him more happiness, it wasn't enough. Isn't that love tho? Idk. Like if there was a point where I can't help with then, I'd help him get a therapist. I do question why I have such a need to help people. I will continue to question and reflect on everything. I haven't texted back since that happened but I don't hate him.
I don't think I tie my worth to that, I should be appreciated for my quirks and laugh. That's what he did when he was happy. At a point, I stopped giving support and was being my normally silly self that he enjoyed before but he didn't really respond well or at all so switched back to support.
I do question if it's something I could handle, I'm very willing to try but if it fails then it fails. As a human being, he's amazing but if I overthink this much then...idk. My cousin has a bipolar spouse so I know there are hurdles but they can be managed. I have more questioning and thinking to do haha
Wait are you saying this is your suicide letter? Because I really don't want you to die you seem like a genuinely caring and empathetic person so I would love if you would decide to stay.. your so young and I know I am younger than you and trust me leaving isn't worth it I was so depressed and numb I just wanted to die so bad that I couldn't see all the amazing things happening. The rain, the shine, the storm... until I learned that even if things don't work out there is your soulmate just as lonely just as desperate (not saying your desperate at all promise) yearning to feel even a little okay... So don't give up okay maybe try to walk on the wild side I find that doing things out of the ordinary instead of staring at the screen waiting for that reassuring message anything back (trust me I've done it a thousand times) walk into the eye of the Storm and do if for yourself you might be surprised of the kind of person you are when you cross through! Much Love❤💫
sorry if that was a bit much I hope you feel better and amazing soon!❤
Haha, this comment made me feel better xd dont worry, I'm not gonna kill myself, I was just in a bit of a crisis and in my head too much. I've been feeling better, Thank you so much c: idk how young you are but I advise against helping adults on here too much, you should be able to live your youth life without trying to solve adult problems. You're a kind soul tho <3