How am I supposed to like you?
The story
How am I supposed to like you when you yelled at me just for being excited about something? So this might seem a bit dramatic but I’m sick of my dad so much..
Anyway I’m downstairs talking about school since I start in a week, talking about my classes and supplies and just looking at my old drawings from last year. So I wanted to show my mom and get her approval because that’s what any normal kid does. And I’m talking all excited and he cuts me off saying, “what time is it?”. Uhm… couldn’t you have waited? It’s not that big of a deal but it just hurt a bit? It shows you don’t like me and don’t respect what I have to say.. I’m just a big over thinker and have diagnosed anxiety so that might be it? So I’m still talking because you aren’t going to interrupt me?? I was talking first. And then my mom replied to him saying “maybe like 1 minute.” And then I keep talking after she said that since I assumed he heard her, but then he goes “what did you say!?” Like really loud while I was talking AGAIN. So I’m obviously a bit annoyed, can’t you see I’m talking to her?? About something I’m excited about.. and my mom is annoyed so she yells “1 minute!” And I was still talking then, so he just yells at me, “I can’t hear what you’re fucking saying because (name) keeps fucking talking!” Uhmmm that hurt…? You didn’t need to yell at me so I just went quiet and walked away with my drawing and ended up throwing it out since that bothered me so much. Idk but this just bothered me because I never hangout with them and now when I do I just get cursed at.
Anyway this was yesterday and I wanted to have a nice day, make pizza and just be all happy. And I’m getting the stuff ready for it and he keeps pestering me, and I tell him to stop because I didn't like it, speaking CALMLY. But he just laughed at me so I yelled to make him take me seriously.. I don’t like raising my voice so why do you make me? Anyway. So this is when we are finally making pizzas and I’m happy because my mom’s with me for a couple of seconds just alone. And he comes over and the whole mood goes out, it’s now annoyance and thick.. like a storm cloud covering the sun. So yeah my mom finished making her pizza and I did the same. And he says, “your pizza looks really nice, can you make mine?” This is supposed to be something nice that I made up. So my mom goes, “no.” And then my dad says, “why?” In a laughing tone that pisses me off. And my mom says, “because you said it like a child who just wants his way, are you that lazy that you can’t make your own pizza?” And obviously she’s had a hard day and she nannies all the time. So he just laughs and it was a weird annoyed laughter that just throws me off.. so I finished my pizza quickly and the ovens ready, and he’s the only one not done taking 10 minutes just to do it.. when my mom and me are done waiting for him, who’s taking his sweet old time. So my mom yells at him, “can you hurry up? We are waiting for you.” And he just yells at her, “what the fuck do you mean!? I’m fucking doing it!” Uhm don’t yell at my mom. You aren’t a man. You’re just a leech. And I keep remembering vividly me coming home from school to him hitting her while she was begging him on her knees crying. Begging him to stop hitting her. She’s strong enough to fight back, but she doesn’t want to hurt him so she just SITS THERE DOING NOTHING. And the way I cowardly ran to my room doing homework on my bed through tears by hearing her cry. I’ll never forgive him, never forget, and never ever stop hating him. He’s a fucking monster and doesn’t deserve to live. If he can hurt my mom he can hurt me. And he’s hurt my dog before. He hit my dog repeatedly and that poor dog is scared of him. Scared of being hit. And I’m scared that he’ll shove his hand in my mouth again and throw my chewed up food against the wall.
So yes, I fucking hate my dad and I won’t EVER talk to him. I won’t forgive him. And I won’t tell him how I feel because I’m just a coward. And I’m scared he’ll hit me. I can fight back but I’m only 13, I can’t do much for a middle school girl. But I sure as hell will make sure he won’t hurt my mom ever again. I’ll make him never be able to hurt her. I’ll turn our family into a case on the news if he tries.
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wow, i'm really sorry to hear you're dealing with all that, it's just heartbreaking 😞. no one deserves to go through such distressing family dynamics, and it's totally understandable that you're feeling the way you do. honestly, parents can sometimes be really inconsiderate and it's frustrating when they interrupt us when we're excited about something, and it sucks because you were just trying to share something joyful; there's definitely a lot to handle and i'm sure your anxiety doesn't make it any easier. from what you've shared, it seems like you're in an incredibly tough spot, and i hope things get better for you and your mom. i remember when i was your age, i had a different but still complicated situation at home and it was hard to manage feelings of resentment and fear. please take care and keep reaching out for support, sometimes just talking about these things can help even if it feels like it won't, sending you lots of strength and good vibes ❤️.
it's tough when family relations get tense, but maybe there's more going on; could your dad have been stressed or distracted and not aiming his frustration directly at you? 🤔 effective communication is key, like "navigating through turbulent waters," and perhaps discussing this with him calmly when both of you are relaxed might help. i remember a time when family interactions were chaotic at my place too, but open dialogue resolved some misunderstandings. things can definitely improve; focusing on small positive changes might gradually lead to a better atmosphere. 😊
it's really difficult when your enthusiasm gets shut down, especially by someone close 😞. how often do these situations occur with your dad? seems like you're in a challenging environment, and it's understandable to feel frustrated. have you thought about finding a way to express these feelings to someone you trust? sometimes just talking it out can bring some relief. hope things get easier for you soon.
i'm genuinely sorry to hear about the challenging circumstances you're experiencing; it sounds incredibly overwhelming 😢. it's disheartening when parental figures fail to recognize and respect the excitement and aspirations of their children. "Family dynamics can be complex," as psychologists often note, and the way you describe it, your situation seems quite nuanced. it's crucial to maintain hope and envision a future where these hardships diminish. perhaps consider reaching out to a trusted adult, like a counselor or teacher, who can offer you guidance and support? transforming your situation into a positive trajectory might seem daunting, but with the right assistance and determination, change is possible!!! embracing communication and seeking help can often pave the way to a more harmonious environment at home. sending you strength and positivity as you navigate these challenges ❤️.
ugh, that sounds so harsh and unfair!!! i totally get why you're upset. it's so frustrating when parents don't listen or respect your feelings. my dad once did something similar, and it left me feeling pretty invisible. you're right to feel hurt. it's tough to navigate these situations, and it sounds like you're trying your best. hope things change for the better soon. 😐
sounds like a really tough situation. it seems like there's a lot of emotional tension at home. while expressing anger is natural, it's important to find constructive ways to address conflict. when your dad interrupted, maybe he didn’t realize the impact. sometimes parents can be unaware how their actions affect us, you know? it's worth considering if there's a way to discuss this peacefully. support from someone you trust might help navigate these issues. hope that brings some clarity.
man, that sounds really rough and totally frustrating. i totally get why you're feeling down about it. it's like no matter what, some parents just don’t seem to get how important certain things are to us. when i was younger, i had a situation where my excitement was shut down too, and it really sucked; like, it made me feel invisible and just really angry. it’s just hard to stay positive in such environments where support feels so out of reach. honestly, i wonder why it’s so much to ask for a bit of understanding and respect at home. hope things start looking up for you because you deserve to be heard and appreciated.
sounds like you're going through a lot. while it’s tough and frustrating when parents don’t react how you want, maybe there’s another side to the story. sometimes they’re just caught up in their stuff, you know? like when your dad asked the time, maybe he didn’t mean to interrupt. i know it's not always easy, but talking things over might help clear the air. communication can be a powerful tool, and sometimes it helps to keep trying. hope things get better for you.