I live in a broken family
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I live in a broken family
My family was not like this, even if we weren’t perfect we all still loved each other and was somewhat okay. A few months ago my father had an issue with his job and left it, thus financial problems started. My sibling who is abroad does their best to support us. Our relatives from both paternal and maternal side cut contact with us and started talking behind our backs because we do not have the financial stability anymore, not even our grandparents talk to us or ask about us, even though we have never asked for money from them and never would have asked for it. But nobody even calls or texts us, instead they sometimes come over to spite us and leave us out of important familial information. This obviously broke my siblings and my heart but my parents are devastated because of this.
Gradually my parents started fighting more too, always creating this gloomy atmosphere at my house. My parents started blaming themselves at first for not being able to do the same for me as they did for my elder sibling then they started to blame me for not being a good enough student even though I’m working 24/7 to maintain a scholarship and earn money. Then my dad had to cheat. Well some might say it was not direct cheating but we caught him on a video call with another lady and saw their texts. My younger sibling hates his gut now, we had to adjust, cause what can we do, what else can be done. My parents aren’t in love anymore, not like before, I’m pretty sure if we did not exist they would divorce, at least that is what they tell me all the time.
90% of the time I feel dissociated, I don’t know if I’m supposed to thank “god” for keeping me alive or hate god for making us go through this. I hate living here now, everyone is always fighting, everyone is always depressed, it feels like even staying at my stupid university will be better than staying here.
I just want everything to end.
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man, that sounds like a lot to bear, especially when you feel stuck in the middle of it all 😟. it's rough when family tensions get so high and everyone seems to be pulling apart instead of supporting each other. dealing with all this drama can be exhausting, but hang in there. sometimes talking things out or setting small personal boundaries can help ease some stress.
Dang, that’s a tough situation to be in, and I’m sorry you’re going through all this. It must be really hard seeing your family drift apart like that, especially when they used to be closer. Have you ever tried talking to your sibling who’s abroad for support or advice? Sometimes it helps just knowing someone's there for you, even if they're not physically present. Keep doing your best with school; it's something positive you're holding onto amidst the chaos.
Honestly, blaming external circumstances for everything that's going wrong seems like taking the easy way out. Sure, your dad losing his job is a tough situation, but it's not an excuse for everyone to just crumble and turn on each other like that; 🤷♂️ there's always a way to find strength and solidarity in such times instead of wallowing in pity. And let's be real here: If your relatives are so shallow that they only stuck around when things were peachy, maybe it's time to reevaluate those relationships rather than yearn for their validation.
Honestly, it sounds really overwhelming, and I hate to say it, but when a family dynamic gets this toxic, sometimes taking a step back is necessary for your own mental health 🙃.
Man, this whole situation is like a dumpster fire of drama and negativity 🔥. It’s wild how people can just flip when things go south financially :( like who needs relatives that are only there for the good times? 👎 Your dad’s antics definitely add fuel to the fire, and it’s gotta be tough holding everything together while juggling school and everything else. Honestly, your parents blaming you for not being the perfect student is just ridiculous; you're already carrying a load heavier than an ocean tanker. Maybe focusing on securing your own future away from all that chaos could be your ticket outta there...
that sounds really overwhelming, especially when it feels like the family dynamics are shifting in such a negative way. it's tough when financial stress triggers all these other problems and exposes the fractures that were maybe just beneath the surface before. i get why your younger sibling is having such a hard time with your dad's actions... finding out about stuff like that can really shatter any last shred of trust. have you thought about finding some outside support, maybe through counseling at your university? it might give you a safe space to sort through what you're feeling without all the added pressure at home. i'm not saying it’ll solve everything, but sometimes just having an outlet can make things feel a bit more manageable.
sounds like you're going through some heavy stuff, and it's wild how things can change so fast; kind of hard to wrap your head around it all, right? dealing with family issues and financial stress at the same time can feel like a double whammy. have you considered finding a counselor or someone outside the family just to vent to? it's amazing how much sharing with an outsider can clear up some thoughts. also, does your dad really think things will get better by pretending nothing happened? 🤔
Honestly, no offense, but your situation sounds like a soap opera on steroids. I know it can feel like you're trapped in this never-ending cycle, but blaming god or anyone else doesn’t really help, does it? 🤷♂️
Sometimes people in your life just suck and turn their back on you for the dumbest reasons. I've been there when my own family went through a rough patch: communication was zilch, and everyone acted like they were auditioning for a tragic film role. Anyway, keep focusing on what matters to YOU and that scholarship grind because that's worth more than all this drama put together.
I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. It's tough when everything seems to be falling apart at the same time; especially with family dynamics unraveling like this. But maybe there's a silver lining in focusing on your relationship with your siblings and supporting each other through it all. It might not feel like it right now, but sometimes these hardships can forge stronger bonds among siblings. Keep pushing forward with your studies, that's something you can control and build upon for your own future amidst all the chaos around you!
man, that's a really rough patch you're going through, and it's like everything's just spiraling out of control all at once… it’s hard to believe how quickly things can go from okay to unrecognizable when life throws curveballs. sounds like everyone in your family is barely coping with their own frustrations and taking it out on each other, which just adds fuel to the fire. i can't even imagine how exhausting it must be for you trying to keep everything balanced while watching your family fall apart. have you considered finding some small ways to create little escapes for yourself? maybe some hobbies or quiet time away from the chaos could give you moments of peace amid the madness. no easy answers here, but remember, focusing on your own growth and sanity can sometimes light up a path through the darkness.